Iāve had a lot of people get on my ass for my gofundme because when I was in high school it was determined by a psych professional that I canāt work and go to school at the game time he actually advised me to take a year of time off both and get a psychiatric service animal because I was suffering so greatly Iāve also had a lot of people get on my ass about not working in college meanwhile the stress of college was landing me in the psych ward atleast once every semester it was hard for me to deal with every single person that got in an argument with me on social media telling me to āget a f*cking job freeloaderā like I didnāt have enough to deal with as is but in October it got to the point that takeoff time off wasnāt just not an option it was something that I had to do I didnāt have the option to work or go to school anymore a depressive episode hit that u was fighting back for three months. What happened when it hit was I fainted at work and then had a miscommunication with my manager so I āinvoluntarily quitā from my job and then about four days after that my boyfriend that I was living with broke up with me, and then two weeks after that I went to my ex fiancĆ©s house for a bonfire hoping if I see my old friends Iāll feel better I had a panic attack there and I screamed at my ex fiancĆ© to get away from me and that I never wanted to be touched again I got into a dispersonization episode to which I literally couldnāt move or speak and he used that to his advantage by sexually assaulting me the entire night that was the seventh time Iāve been sexually assaulted and it was the point where I lost myself in that couch as if I was done. I made myself manic so I could get home and then after that manic episode my ex yelled through the phone at me that he didnāt care about what Iāve been through and that he didnāt love me anymore and didnāt even care about me anymore. Plus I managed to be in that depression for two months. And then in December almost made an attempt on my life but a flashback to me holding my stillborn daughter in my hands woke me back up to reality. #yourestrongerthanyouthink #takecareofyourself #stopthinkingnegative https://www.instagram.com/p/CCH0mfegS3z/?igshid=1a26lgikjc8es
