#stimulation

Watch porn and edge

Think gross thoughts and edge

Listen to audios and edge

Talk to men and edge

Sit on the bus and edge

Film yourself and edge

Empty your mind and…

As the mother of two autistic daughters, one with severe stimulation sensitivities, I can completely see it. Even at that age. My oldest, wrapped up in school as she was, didn't even have her first kiss until 19. (Then did it all rather quickly after that, lol)

But imagine she and Langdon become those bestie of besties with sexual tension through the roof, and she admits she's never even kissed a man, let alone been intimate, because of what others see as a disability that infantilize her to them. But he knows her, so now, he sees it as HER, and he thinks it's beautiful.

And he starts to imagine her laid out on his bed, naked, and the sorts of things he could use on her body to pull sighs and sounds out of her. His tongue, a feather, a vibrator, ice. Lights just the way she needs them. Her white noise machine. He's not afraid of when she calls out "too much." He knows it'll probably be hours, weeks, before he ever gets his pants off, and he's never looked forward to anything more in his life. She knows, in theory, the pleasure spots of a woman, but would she like it if he ran his nails over her skull? If he sucked hickies into her shoulder blades? Her thighs?

He makes a bet with himself how long it takes until she drops into subspace their first time, the stimulation being too much for her, and makes sure they talk extensively beforehand about what sort of aftercare he has in mind so she isn't caught off guard as she's coming back to the surface in his arms, water bottle and protein bar on the bedside table, bubble bath already cooling.