#stillloading

Still Loading (Almost Me) is a moody gothic darkwave track about becoming whole without rushing the process. It explores the quiet realization that growth isn’t about perfection — it’s about acceptance, patience, and choosing yourself piece by piece.

Using the metaphor of a system download, the song reflects on identity, emotional completion, and learning to exist without waiting for approval. Not broken. Just unfinished. And that’s okay.

🖤 A song for anyone who feels like they’re still becoming.

LYRICS:

[Verse 1] I wake up half-rendered in the glow of the screen Lines still buffering between who I am and who I’ve been Every mirror freezes before it tells the truth I learned how to wait, but I never learned how to choose

I wore borrowed versions, tried them all on for size Smiled through the static, hid the cracks in my eyes I kept the parts that made it easier to stay Deleted the rest like they were taking up space

[Pre-Chorus] I thought being ready meant being clean But nothing real loads perfectly

[Chorus] I’m still loading, almost me Watching pieces fall into place slowly Not broken, just incomplete Still loading, almost me I don’t need to rush the screen I’m becoming who I’m meant to be

[Verse 2] I chased approval like it was proof I existed Built my name out of wants I never resisted Every update promised clarity But the missing file was honesty

I muted my doubts, called it peace of mind But silence isn’t safety when it’s self-designed I kept restarting, afraid to stay Like I’d lose everything if I finished the change

[Pre-Chorus] I used to think I had to win But arriving feels better than fitting in

[Chorus] I’m still loading, almost me Watching pieces fall into place slowly Not broken, just incomplete Still loading, almost me I don’t need to rush the screen I’m becoming who I’m meant to be

[Bridge] If I stop waiting for the bar to fill If I let myself feel unfinished still Maybe wholeness isn’t a final state Maybe it’s choosing not to hesitate

I don’t need a perfect design Just a version that’s finally mine

[Chorus] I’m still loading, almost me No more hiding from what I see Not flawless, just finally free Still loading, almost me Every piece belongs to me I’m not done—but I’m enough to be

[Outro] No countdown, no release Just one more step toward honesty Still loading… Almost me.

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