i criticized my 22 year old roommate in grad school for crying about school. I mean i probably did it because she seems like one of those girls that will cry over spilt milk, meanwhile there is other shit going on in the world. but i found myself crying today out of frustration, and just anger. i got to art school, and i knew it wasn't going to be easy. my school doesn't have a joke reputation, but i never knew it was going to be this hard. i spent days writing a 2000 word essay. it was like 6 or 7 pages, i really put a lot into it. i got a d+ on it. & that's my second d ona paper today. it's like i should know colleges expect you to be able to write your ass off, but clearly i'm not writing worth a shit. and i've always been a good writer! i transferred in this school from a private university, and in order for me to graduate or finish 2015, i can't fail anything. lately i've just been feeling not good enough for anything. i'm not that good in music compared to some other students, and then i suck at the normal college stuff. all i can do is try.