Conflicted
Chapter 7 of my Steve Rogers x OC x Bucky Barnes story on Wattpad; Electric - Steve Rogers/Bucky Barnes
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Story is rated M for mature as it contains a lot of smut. Kink warnings can be found in the Authorās note on Wattpad (thereās a lot..)
Warnings for this chapter: Pure awkwardness. This is the aftermath of Stevie popping a boner during training like a fucking teenager.... A bit of angst but also fluff and flirting. This is the chapter right before smut ensues..Ā
A/N: Watch out for the POV, it switches from Madeline to Steve halfway through!
MADELINE
The landing is rough and it takes me a second to realize that I am currently on top of Steve. I am not on his lap - thank god - because just by being near him my entire body is on edge and I don't know what that would have done to me.
He is looking into my eyes as I mock him for losing and the next thing I know, he is tickling my sides. Now this must be a common area for the girls he's been with because I certainly didn't tell him I was ticklish.. but it works.
I start laughing uncontrollably and its making me uncomfortable so it also makes me instantly squirm. At this point I forget that I am on top of him.
I am too preoccupied trying to get him to stop and so I unconsciously scoot back to avoid his grip.
And that's when I feel it. Or more accurately, feel him.
He is fully hard underneath me.
His bulge is impossible to avoid, not just because he is larger than normal - I realized that when grinding on him yesterday, where it became fairly obvious - but also because I am now sitting on his lap with my crotch touching his. I freeze instantly and he stops tickling me all at once.
For a moment I just sit there. On his hard bulge. And I watch his face.
We never really talked about what our dynamic would be like and although I know we are both attracted to each other, I don't really know what the rules are.
He is looking at me intensely, almost like he is awaiting my reaction.
I know what I want to do right now. I want to kiss him and grind up against him and take his clothes off.
I also know what I should do right now, in the training center, where anyone could walk in at any moment, and where there are most likely cameras everywhere.
I'm not sure I'm ready for everyone to see just how much he affects me, yet.
I clear my throat as I stand up, the least elegant I have ever felt.
Once I am finally on my feet I say, "Well.. Captain.... Anything else we need to go through today?"
I try to hold his gaze to ensure him that this doesn't affect how I feel about him while also trying to stay just the tiniest bit professional.
He finally stands up and takes my hand in his, shaking it awkwardly. "No, Madeline. That's all for today. Thank you."
We stand there for a few seconds as he continues to shake my hand up and down.
After a few seconds too long I release my grip and start to walk out the center.
"Alright, good session Cap. Thanks."
I walk out of the training center as quickly as I can manage.
I get back to the common area after a lone ride in the elevator and decide to make myself lunch. Part of me also want to stay in the common area to see when Steve will arrive, but he never does.
I go to my room and eat alone, humiliated in a sense about what happened although I know, deep down, I shouldn't be.
After lunch I go to my training session with Wanda. I have been training with Wanda for months, having her help me control my powers but I still don't feel like I'm fully in control. We are training outside today, and I don't see Steve at all. I decide not to burden Wanda with what happened earlier, trying to focus on controlling my powers instead. After a few hours of that, I eat dinner and go back to my room.
I read up on the latest missions the team has been on and I even get to a point where I start to read everyone's files. Natasha and Wanda have some very interesting stories and as I am starting to get fully invested in Natasha's, I hear a soft knock on my door.
STEVE
As I watch Madeline exit the training center I want to kick myself. That was humiliating. It definitely proves that I am clearly not able to control myself.
Why do you have to be such an idiot, Steve?!
I decide to stay at the training center for a while after and I get back to boxing just to try and clear my mind but the situation keeps popping up in my head and I can't focus.
After a few hours I hear someone walk through the door and I instinctively turn around, hoping to see Maddie's face.
When I see Natasha walk through the door I am both disappointed and relieved because I don't know what I would say to Madeline yet.
"Hey Cap. How's it going?" Natasha says as she strides through the room in her black spandex suit.
She always wears these tight fitting suits when training - I understand why considering how her suit works. Training in something with the same feel is good practice.
"Hey Nat," I say as I turn back to boxing, not looking at her.
She walks up next to me and looks at me while I hit the sack over and over again.
As she scans my face she sighs and says, "What's wrong big guy? A girl done you wrong?"
She smirks as she says the last part and I quickly turn to look at her and I see the wink she gives me. She knows.
How does she know?
I sigh deeply.
"Obviously you already know that so why are you asking?"
I look back at the sack and start hitting it again until I feel her hand on my arm.
"Tell me what happened Rogers. Maybe I can help".
I look back at her and she looks so genuine that I decide to stop hitting this stupid sack and realize that perhaps I should speak to her.
After all, she is one of my closest friends and she might actually be able to help in this situation.
"Alright Nat.. Well.."
We sit down on the big mattress at the fighting area and I tell her the situation and what happened with Madeline last night and then what happened at training. She seems surprised, at first.
Natasha has been notoriously trying to get me to date since we first met - setting up dates for me with different agents, including Sharon, and people she knew, but none of them ever truly interested me.
So when I tell her I kissed Madeline she dramatically gasps and say "So the super soldier does have a heart after all? How shocking!"
I laugh a bit at her statement as I look down at my hands. I sigh and say "What do I do Nat? What am I doing?"
She puts her hand in mine and says "I don't know Steve. What would you like to do?"
I look up and my eyes meet hers and I realize she is right.
I need to know what I want to do.
"Do you think I'm making a mistake?" I ask her, searching her eyes for answers.
"Do I think you're making a mistake by finally putting yourself out there and giving this amazing girl a chance? Absolutely not." She says as she smiles at me, genuinely.
I squeeze her hand.
Natasha is one of the few people other than Sam who were there for me when Peggy died and saw the pain I was in during that time.
"I am happy to see you get out of your shell Rogers", she says.
"It's about damn time. And although you might think Madeline is too young, she is wiser than you know. Her soul is old. The things she has been through.. trauma like that.. it ages you - I should know. I don't think you should think of her as a 21 year old kid - she is not. She is grown and mature but she is also emotional and had a lot of terrifying things happen to her. Things that she has handled tremendously well, I might add. So just be careful. Be sure what you want - I don't want you to hurt her. She is too precious and she deserves more."
Nat is looking directly at me as she speaks and considering how well she knows Madeline I take her words into account.
"Thank you Nat. I needed this talk. I guess I have to figure out what I want.." I say as I sigh once again.
"Rogers," she says, "I think you already know what you want. You just have to take the leap and pursue it."










