#stayinglonely

In the wake of finally starting to get better, there are always days where you just feel like shit. You’re used to those days, those days where your life for weeks, months or even years. But when they do come around now, you have a better understanding of them. You understand their complexion and how they work. You have a grasp as to how to deal with them and overcome weight. Even so, they still bring you down, and all it takes is one little thing.

It’s been about a year and half since I quit all destructive behaviors that I would inflict upon myself

Days like today are some of those days as I spoke about above. I’ve learned from those days, I know how I can get, I don’t let myself reach those lows. Thoughts of the people who have been there for me through everything are what get me through every single day of my life. Some of those people I may not interact with anymore, but they still mean the world to me and I have the utmost regard for them. Thoughts of the closest people who walked out of my life don’t drag me down as much, I’ve learned to remember nothing but the good times I’ve had with those people. The memories do hurt, but it’s better to have good memories that hurt because they can always be turned around into a positive memory. Bad memories leave nothing but internal scars that you just wish you could get rid of, but you can’t. 

I just want to dedicate this to the people that mean the most to me in my life, many don’t have tumblr, but the ones who do, you’ve been my biggest drive, most are still my best friends till the day I die. I just want to thank you for all that you’ve done for me and the good times I’ve shared with you. Through thick and thin, you’ve all helped to shape me into what I am today