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I HOPE YOU DON’T EVER GET TO LOVE ME

HOW DO I ACCEPT YOU WHEN I DON’T LOVE ME

IT’S A WORK IN PROGRESS, BABY, TRUST ME

I’VE LEARNED MORE THESE PAST 2 YEARS

SELF AWARENESS IN THE FORM OF TEARS

COLLECTED. DRANK IT. WORE IT ON MY SLEEVES

CONQUER MY INNER BITCH

SPIT IN THE FACE OF FEAR

AWARE OF MY GLITCHES

EMOTIONS BOTTLED BEHIND THE CHEERS

YOU SAY THAT IM CHANGING

ISN’T THAT WHAT GROWTH IS?

YOU SAY YOU MISS THE OLD THING

BUT THAT WAS HIS, THIS IS ME

HE’S NOT HOME, MAYBE COME BACK AT THREE

OR MAYBE DON’T COME BACK AT ALL

YOU’D CATCH ME IF I’D FALL

BUT YOU WOULDN’T PICK ME UP AT ALL

YOU’RE STANDING OVER ME

THAT’S THE ONLY REASON YOU LOOK TALL

I AIN’T ON YOUR SCHEDULE

I AIN’T ON NO SCHEDULE

CREDIT KARMA, YOU HAVE NO CREDENTIALS

THC OILS, THOSE ARE THE ESSENTIALS

MENDED MEMORIES QUICKLY DISMANTLED

BUT IT AIN’T NOTHING I CAN’T HANDLE

IM OUT OF CONTROL

SOMETIMES YOU MEET AN ENERGY

THATS JUST UNDENIABLE IT LEAVES

YOU LOST FOR WORDS.

SOMETIMES YOU MEET A SYNERGY 

THATS JUST UNRELIABLE IT HAS 

YOU QUESTIONING THE WORLD.

AM I DRIVING DOWN A ONE WAY 

STREET? WAS THERE A REASON

FOR US TO MEET? ARE THESE 

FEELINGS EVEN REAL? AM I 

THE ONLY ONE HEAD OVER HEELS?

A PIECE OF ME IS ASKING WHATS THE APPEAL?

YOUR DUMBASS KNOWS ONCE YOU FALL.

THE WOUNDS WILL TAKE AWHILE TO HEAL.

BUT THE LOGIC DOESNT MAKE SENSE WITH

HOW I FEEL.

ITS KIND OF WILD THAT MY HEART 

HAS A MIND OF ITS OWN AGAIN.

IT WOULD BE EASIER TO DOWNPLAY IT

BUT MY HEART TELLS ME LETS NOT PRETEND.

PHYSICALLY WE’RE STRANGERS.

MY GUARDS ARE DOWN 

I DONT SENSE ANY DANGER.

I GUESS ITS NOTHING THAT I CAN DO NOW.

EXCEPT HOLD ON TIGHT AND DONT ASK HOW.

EVEN IF I WANTED TO GET OFF OF THIS RIDE

IM INVOLUNTARILY STRAPPED IN.

BUT WHY WOULD I WANT TO LEAVE THIS

WARMTH THAT IM WRAPPED IN.

LETS NOT LOOK AT IT AS NOT BEING VIABLE.

LETS JUST KEEP GOING WITH THESE FEELINGS

THINKING IF ITS WORTH GETTING ATTACHED 

IT MIGHT NOT SEEM APPEALING BUT IT MIGHT BE GOOD

JUST LIKE THE PAN SHAPED COOKIES IN THAT ONE BATCH

ITS JUST MISUNDERSTOOD

THIS TRIP IS SO FOREIGN I FEEL LIKE I NEED A PASSPORT

ONE HALF SAYS FALL HARD ONE HALF SAYS ABORT

ITS ALWAYS THE UNOBTAINABLE 

SHE SAYS TO BE MORE POSITIVE

ITS SOMETHING THAT CAN BE TRAINABLE

SHES MESSING WITH MY COGNITIVE

IM NOT EVEN MAD AT IT 

I WOULDN’T WANT NOTHING LESS

OR YOU’D JUST BLEND IN WITH THE REST

SOMETIMES YOU JUST NEED TO LET GO

THE BEAUTY OF LIFE IS ITS UNCONTROLLABLE

TAKING RISKS EVEN IF YOU KNOW ITS NOT STABLE

MIGHT BE SURPRISED LIKE YOUR BATCH OF BAGELS

RATED R JOKES WERE MISUNDERSTOOD

DEPRESSION WAS THE LESSON

AND IT TOOK THE BEST IN -

ME, TO BELIEVE THAT THIS

INTERNAL OPPRESSION JUST

NEEDED A LITTLE CORRECTION

GRAY CLOUDS COMING IN

MY RADAR’S DETECTIN’

WAKE UP ON STEROIDS 

WAKE UP STRAIGHT FLEXIN’

WAKE UP FEELIN’ SICK

WAKE UP STILL STRESSIN’

USED TO NOT COST MUCH JUST TO BE HAPPY

IT WAS JUST TWO CENTS THEN

PEOPLE DON’T WANT TO SEE YOU WIN

PEOPLE WANT TO SEE YOU LOSE

THEY’LL PAT YOU ON THE BACK

BUT PRIVATELY GIVE YOU THE BOO’S 

BORN ALONE DIE ALONE

LAST LESSON FROM MY MOM

WHEN I TOUCHED HER SHE WAS COLD

TODAY’S NOT PROMISED

TOMORROW COULD BE SOLD

BUT LIKE DRAKE SAID

MONEY AND I ARE THE SAME

I JUST DON’T FOLD

SO I WAKE UP AND SEE THE RAYS

PEAKING THROUGH MORE

AS THE DAYS GO ON

KNOWING MY SORROWS WON’T DO SHIT

AS THE DAYS ARE GONE

COUNT YOUR BLESSINGS

DROWN IN THE BLISS

I’M JUST GLAD MY EYES OPENED

I NEED ADVICE

I SAID I NEED ADVICE

I NEED ONE FROM A HUMAN

NOT FROM A DEVICE

BUT SHE’S CLOSE ENOUGH

CAN CHOOSE MY OWN ACCENTS

BUT SHE ALWAYS EAVESDROPPIN’

IS THAT BY ACCIDENT? OR ON PURPOSE?

WHAT’S OUR PURPOSE?

FOR BETTER OR FOR PURCHASE?

FOR CHEDDAR OR FOR CHURCHES?

THE MATRIX, OR HIGHER PURPOSE?

FOR ANIMAL SKINNED PURSES

UNNECESSARY SURPLUSES

FROM UMBILICAL TO HEARSES

FROM STABILITY TO CURSES

IT’S THE GIVE AND TAKE

IT’S THE YIN AND YANG

I MISS FEELING BAKED

ROLLIN’ UP THAT THANG

THE NUMBING OF THE PAINS

PROBLEMS OF THAT CHILD

I CAN NO LONGER RELATE

LIFE WAS WILD

LIFE YOU CAN’T RE-CREATE

UNLESS YOU BELIEVE IN REINCARNAT-ION

REGARDLESS, YOU SHOULD SHOW APPRECIAT-ION

DON’T REGRET NONE OF MY DEVIAT-IONS

LEARN TO LIVE WITH THE DEPRECIAT-IONS

ENERGY RE-MANIFESTED TO ALLEVIAT-ION

WE’RE ALL LOST IN THE SAUCE

BUT END UP AT THE SAME DESTINATION

IT’S FUNNY HOW THIS GAME WORKS

SCROLL UP, DOUBLE TAP FOR THE TWERK

SEEKING FOR HAPPINESS

INVESTED IN THE HURTS

CREEPED OUT BY CREEPS

BUT LOW KEY WE LURK

CHEAP OUT ON OUR PEEPS

BUT DROP BANDS ON THE BIRK

IT’S FUCKED UP HOW OUR MENTALITY IS ON REVERSE

TWO SHIFTS DOWN

FROWNS’ UPSIDE DOWN

CAR LOWERED

ITS AFTER 10 

THATS ABOUT WHEN 

YOU ASK WHEN 

WILL THINGS CHANGE 

AND THEN THINGS DON’T

BECAUSE LIFE WON’T 

COMPROMISE FOR ANYONE

SO YOU’RE NO EXCEPTION

EVEN IF YOU PROMISE TO BE EXCEPTIONAL

BECAUSE YOU FAIL ONCE YOU BECOME EXPECTATIONAL

YOUR STANDARDS MIGHT HOLD WEIGHT

BUT THERES GRAVITY BITCH

SO IT’LL FALL WITH NO ESCAPE 

JUST BE READY TO CATCH THE SHIT

IT’S A NEW YEAR

IT’S A NEW ME 

IT’S A NEW DECADE 

IT’S THE SAME ME 

IT’S AFTER 10 IT’S 2020

HINDSIGHT IS 20/20

YOU WISH YOU HAD BETTER VISION DURING IT ALL 

SO YOU DIDN’T TRIP AND FALL

AS FREQUENTLY AS YOU’D LIKE

BUT THATS THE TYPE OF SHIT THAT BUILDS YOU

IT TURNS WATER INTO WINE 

IT TURNS IRON INTO STEEL

IN TURN YOU BITCH AND WHINE 

LESS WHEN LIFE STEALS SOMETHING FROM YOU

YOU TAKE IT ON THE CHIN

THEN BITCH SLAP IT BACK IT

TURNS YOU INTO A GUNMAN

NOW YOU JUST WANT TO SHOOT UP THE CHARTS

LITTLE SHIT YOU WON’T TAKE IT TO HEART 

EMOTIONALLY YOU’RE BROKEN

MENTALLY YOU’RE SMART

PLAY THE GAME

INSERT TOKEN 

PLACE THE BLAME

GET TO TOKIN’

SMOKE IT UP

PUT IT OUT

NOW ROLL ANOTHER

TAKE A SECOND TO BREATHE

OR YOU’LL FEEL SMOTHERED

NOW RELAX BE AT EASE

NOW RELAX TAKE HEED

YEARS AHEAD THERE’S MANY 

WE GOT OUR FEET WET

WE MET IN SHALLOW WATERS

THE MORE WE WALKED

SEA LEVELS BECAME HIGHER

SO WE BACK PEDAL TO DRY UP

THE WIND COOLS US DOWN

THE RAYS HEATS US UP

MOUTHFUL OF SEAWATER

FEELS LIKE I’M ABOUT TO DROWN

HANDS AROUND MY HEAD

FEELS LIKE A CROWN

I FEEL LIKE A KING

YOU DON’T FEEL LIKE A QUEEN

YOU’RE MISSING A RING

WE’RE MISSING A THING

FEELS LIKE YEARS

BUT IT WAS A SUMMER FLING

OR WAS IT A SUMMER FLUKE

I’M NOT FEELING FISH TODAY ANYWAYS

PESCATARIAN DIET

I’M FEELING SEA SICK

DREAMS ABOUT TOMORROW

FORGETTING YESTERDAY WAS TODAY

WHAT’S THE DATE

OH, THIS IS OUR DATE

SUMMER’S FEEL SHORTER

I WANT ALL THE FEELINGS

I’M A HOARDER

DON’T BE SCARED TO COME THRU

I’M NOT THE BOARDER

BUT DON’T CROSS ME

I HAVE BOARDERS

USED TO DRIVE A COUPE

NOW ITS A FOUR DOOR

IT’S MORE SPACIOUS

BUT NOTHING TO FILL THE SPACES

I’M HAVING FUN

I’M BORED GIRL

I’M HUNGRY

I’M FULL GIRL

HAND OUT BUT DON’T REACH NOW

I’M NOT THE FUHRER

YOUR ENERGY DOES NOTHING

JUST LIKE REDBULL

YOUR ENERGY DOES SOMETHING

HAIRS PULLED

BUT I’M BALD

SO IT’S MY FAULT

I CROSSED THE LINE

IT’S MY FAULT

NOW IM WORKING A DOUBLE

IT AIN’T EVEN A WORK DAY

IT’S A WORK IN PROGRESS

LET’S NOT POINT FINGERS

WE’RE BOTH IN TROUBLE

WE’RE BOTH TO BLAME

BUT I DIGRESS

IN AND OUT 

I DIGEST

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