#stateofflux

Shit happens but…

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Never break.

Never settle.

Don't to my last exam tomorrow, still got no motivation though. Been a bit down, like, health wise but not really that much I guess. I'm sort of tired and exhausted but then again, I got an exam tomorrow and I slept a lot but now, I still can't find the motivation to sit down and study?

I'll have to fix this habit of mine and really get down the ability to get down to do shit for the final exams. I can't wait for tomorrow to get over but then at the same time I'm also not utilising the time I have NOW.

I'm just letting the flow of this situation push me around as it wishes. I don't really have the enrgy to push against it either. I just wish this stream was a bit different, I'd feel much better if this stream was one which motivated me to get down to the brass tacks and just breakt past my limits?

I don't really care much about the 'stressful' situation I am in now though. To be honest I feel the least bothered or worried, I sjust have that sense of I could've easily done so much better had I just put in a wee amount of effort, but then, here I am huh? I just want this situation to be done with so that my favourite people can return to a comparatively stress-free and happi life. I so miss the boring lectures after which I'd annoy the cute lil cat🐻 even if the class was boring as hell I'd limit myself from making contact with Neko cause I know she's one who pays attention and wouldn't really like me clowing around like the dumbass I am when a lecture's going on. So I wait till the lecture's over and I FINALLY get to trouble her a bit which brings about those ever-so-precious expressions of hers that I love🐻