#starfallmustread

Welcome to our glorious page, where we post about our life and our experiences as a system along with other stuff!

FYI, we post occasional syscourse posts sometimes but it’s not our main thing. This is just our regular blog for everything.

Disabled and Neurodivergent, Polyfragmented DID, Intersex + Maverique + Pansexual + Otherkin, Bodily an Adult

Syscourse Unaligned. Use tone tags please. WE ARE NOT PRO ENDO, however, endos are allowed to interact, <o>, pro polymindence

HASHTAGS FOR EASIER NAVIGATION:

#yellowcosmiccheeseburger for systemboxes, announcements and important posts

#starfallasks for ask posts that we respond to

#starfallmustread for all posts regarding my ex specifically and all the stuff hes done to us and his victims (please read if possible) + other call out posts

#starfallposts for every post I have made that isnt just another reblog (might have a few reblogs)

Spacehey profile (warning for loud undertale song):

Other blogs

Main blog (endo safe): @sparkly-amity

Witchy blog (endo safe): @amity-witchcraft

Stimboard blog (endo safe): @amity-creates

Miku Blog (endo safe): @mikudayo-sillies

Jasper’s Blog (endo safe): @yuu-jasper

Cinnamoroll blog (endo safe): @cinnamoroll-heaven

Syscourse blog (endo safe): @amitys-shenanigans

Lloyd and Kayn’s Ninjago blog (endo safe): @theninjashack

Headspace blog (Managed by Hartley, endos cannot interact with this blog as Hartley states in his dni): @lunar-headspace

Writing Blog (endo safe): @candylust-writing

Littles’ blog (Ran by our littles and their caretakers, endo safe): @little-star-squad

Hypersexual Alter Culture blog (CDD systems only, endos/non disordered in dni)

@hypersexual-alter-culture

Please do remember these key things:

- PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF GOD USE TONE TAGS WHEN TALKING TO US IF POSSIBLE, OR ELSE WE MAY MISUNDERSTAND YOU.

- TELL US IF WE SAID SOMETHING THAT IS DAMAGING. PLEASE. OR IF ITS INACCURATE.

- We talk a LOT. 90% of the time, it’s not meant to be an attack, we often sound complainy and rude but its quite literally just how we talk sometimes (we will use tone tags when necessary, but if we dont, we can always add one at your request). If you need clarification, ask. Though if you cant be bothered to read our long posts then scroll, we don’t need you to be telling us that you cant be bothered to take 2 seconds to read something, its rude and it also tells me that you would rather take a shortcut than to read a tumblr post. Learn to read (if you cant read our posts due to reading difficulty caused by a disability, its best to scroll unless it’s something that we can easily fix like text size and color or minor edits. We will accommodate upon request, though each request may vary)

- A lot of our disabilities and neurodivergencies are yet to be diagnosed and we are currently in the process of doing so. So far, we are diagnosed with BPD, GAD, Depression, PTSD (90% sure, I have to double check), and Gender Dysphoria. We are still in the process of getting assessed for Autism, ADHD, and possible learning disabilities like Dyslexia. As for our DID, we are trying to get a diagnosis, but due to medical trauma and neglect, we have no choice but to put it on pause unless we manage to find a medical professional who doesn’t ignore our trauma completely. We manage our system entirely on our own, though we do have some medical recognition for it by our family doctor.

- We may forget to put trigger warnings, please tell us as soon as possible if something serious needs a trigger warning. Please do know that depending on what it is that you are asking of me, I won’t inherently follow through. Things like food, final fusion, healed scars, etc, are stuff that I will most likely not put a trigger warning for, as that would cross into anti recovery territory. If we know something might make someone upset (even if it is not inherently triggering), we will put a small notice or the tumblr page break so that anything you may see doesn’t hit your eyes instantly unless you willingly choose to read more. We are not responsible for how you feel should you choose to read further.

- Please be mindful that because of our BPD, we are a lot more susceptible to splits and panic attacks. Please keep that in mind when interacting with us, if we are not in our right minds, we will most likely ask for space. I suggest that you let us have that space for the sake of both of our mental health and also my safety (our splits can get severe very quickly). We would also really appreciate it if you were patient with us, if we have said anything rash, we will address it sooner or later.

- Please accurately tell us your boundaries so that we don’t overstep any of them. Especially boundaries regarding sensitive information and topics. We take boundaries very seriously and have had issues in the past because boundaries were not clearly communicated. The last thing we want to do is hurt anyone.

- We are pro polymindence. If that bothers you for some reason, then you either keep your own beliefs to yourself or block us. Polymindence is not the same as endogenic plurality, it is a completely different thing that is often completely separate from the system community. We are not going to tolerate hate on it.

- If we accidentally follow you without knowing that you have us in your DNI for any reason (we usually always check ourselves but sometimes it does slip past us), do us a favour and block our blogs, INCLUDING OUR MAIN. We can still see your blog and interact with it even if you have this blog blocked. If you block our main, we cant see your blog anymore even if you don’t have our other blogs blocked, so if you need to block us for any reason, block the main blog first.

DNI under cut

Im not.

Just because im not anti endo doesn’t mean I suddenly believe in endogenic plurality. Im just fed up with the anti endo community spewing misinformation that has put me through literal turmoil and pain. You clearly have not read a word of what i said in my recent post.

I don’t use a label anymore. But it doesn’t mean im suddenly pro endo. If that bothers you then I don’t know what else to tell you. I’m just done with the stupid syscourse shit and would rather spend my time being nice to everyone and learn about their experiences instead of trying to explain why endogenic plurality is wrong without knowing a damn thing about what I am talking about.

My beliefs are still mostly aligned towards anti endo, I just don’t want to associate myself with any specific side of syscourse. The only thing I want to do is not be a dick to people even if they don’t share my beliefs or ideas.

Oh and wanna know something? Ive had literal pro endos and non traumagenics COMFORT ME during some of my hardest times. Ive had pro endos correct me more often than anti endos. They have shown me respect and took the time to correct me while anti endos reblogged my misinformation that I was spoonfed by other anti endos who I also would reblog.

My anti endo friends are super nice, im not denying that. But pro endos have also been nice and informative to me. Sure I have had bad experiences from them, but ive also had bad experiences with anti endos. I literally had someone tell me to screw off for trying to justify why bullying endogenics is wrong.

If your respect and admiration simply came from the fact that I was anti endo, then thats shallow. Im more than a fucking syscourse stance. Im more than just a CDD system. I’m a person. A living, breathing, complex person with backstories, hobbies, friends, family. And if you can’t see past my syscourse stance, then your previous respect for us was shallow to begin with.

Gonna make it clear one last time:

Really important announcement, please read.

Contents: last formal post about our ex and also stuff regarding the future of this blog, brief mentions of abuse but nothing descriptive, mentions of grooming