#yellowcosmiccheeseburger

But I am actually done just sitting around doing nothing when anti endos like this person are encouraging bullying towards endogenic systems

This doesn’t make me any less anti endo, nor does it mean that we support endogenic systems, in fact, we personally don’t believe that it’s even possible to be endogenic and that most of them are either:

- misguided by those who prey on minors (like sophie),

- have DID but don’t remember their trauma,

- are confusing their symptoms for DID when they probably have a different disorder,

- are experiencing something that no one is able to give a proper name to so they make it sound like a CDD when it’s clearly not,

- or are just straight up insane (ahem, like sophie)

You do not, under any circumstances, bully people, even if they have hurt you or you really really hate them to the core. “Oh but endos are evil, they’re ableist scums of the earth and they constantly hurt us and shit-” YOU DONT STOOP TO THEIR LEVEL.

Wanna know why they absolutely despise us? This is why

When you give radical anti endos a platform to speak, a platform to target endos who are most likely just trying to exist, you get people bullying them. You get people who are attacking the other community and harassing them. When you enable radical anti endos a platform to speak, you are hurting both communities

Anti endos have been fighting for ages to get basic respect from the other side and to just be left alone and not have people roleplay or romanticize the disorder, but radicals literally undo all the hard work by giving pro endos a reason to bully and harass back and invalidate all of us because of a select few, which is also exactly how we treat them when we are being attacked by people like sophieinwonderland or other radical pro endos

I could probably guarantee you that the majority of the system community just wants this useless fighting to stop and for all the bullying, harassment, and ableism to stop. I can guarantee you that most people on BOTH sides are not fully one or the other, and that we fall closer to the middle and have nuanced stances on certain topics. We are not robots, we have complex opinions, and syscourse is no exception.

If you don’t want the other side to interact with you then block them and set your boundaries. Filter out tags you don’t want to see, block people like this person who you know are toxic and hurt people regardless of what their stances are. You are responsible for how you want to interact and contribute to the community. It is your responsibility to be the better person.

And if you see problems within your own community, SPEAK UP ABOUT IT. When you stay silent knowing that you have seen the problems that exist within the community, you are complicit in the bullying and harassment. You are letting radicals dictate the reputation of your community. This goes for both anti and pro endos. Stop staying silent, otherwise nothing will change.

I know this system community can do better. I have seen the good from both sides. We really should stop fighting and actually respect each other and understand that our experiences are different from one another and it doesn’t automatically make their experiences invalid just because they don’t match yours. Who knows, if we can actually get along we would be a lot more empathetic towards each other and maybe, JUST MAYBE, we could stop the actually ableist fuckers and the bullies who are ruining it for everyone. We could actually work together and take down harmful spaces like r/syscringe and r/fakedisordercringe, these harm BOTH COMMUNITIES and are places that ENABLE BULLYING AND FAKECLAIMING.

Nothing gets done when people stay silent, when people stay divided, and when you ignore the problems in your own community that the opposition has constantly been highlighting on for ages. Learn what makes someone radical in their beliefs, learn the difference between what is actually wrong versus what is just an opinion that conflicts with your own beliefs because those two are NOT the same. Learn to stay away from toxic spaces and warn others of these places, like the K9 Cave server on discord or r/syscringe on reddit. Educate yourself, not just on CDDs and how they actually work but also on endogenic experiences and how they affect people who genuinely believe that they are endogenic. You may not personally believe in them, but if you stay educated on these topics then it benefits both communities and you could actually help someone who may have something misunderstood or is unknowingly spreading misinformation about it. You really can’t expect pro endos and endos to do their research about CDDs but then also not listen to their experiences and their ideas on the complexities of plurality. You don’t have to agree with it, but if you refuse to even listen to them then its pretty hypocritical to ask them to listen to you.

I don’t have to accept their experiences as pure fact or scientifically proven, but I can respect it and be empathetic instead of bullying them and understand that in reality, we don’t know everything. I shouldn’t have to risk “looking like a pro endo” or seem like I am siding with them when I am very much anti endo to get this point across:

That bullying someone for having completely different opinions, views, and experiences is wrong, and you cannot justify it.

I’m not here to say that “oh endos are valid” or “oh endos are invalid” that is not my point. My point is that even if you don’t share the same views, opinions and experiences with them, you have no right to bully them.

There is a fuckton that we don’t know. This world is already against all of us in general. The best we can do is work together and have basic respect for each other. Just, basic respect, you don’t even need to interact with the other side, just respect each others boundaries.

Welcome to our glorious page, where we post about our life and our experiences as a system along with other stuff!

FYI, we post occasional syscourse posts sometimes but it’s not our main thing. This is just our regular blog for everything.

Disabled and Neurodivergent, Polyfragmented DID, Intersex + Maverique + Pansexual + Otherkin, Bodily an Adult

Syscourse Unaligned. Use tone tags please. WE ARE NOT PRO ENDO, however, endos are allowed to interact, <o>, pro polymindence

HASHTAGS FOR EASIER NAVIGATION:

#yellowcosmiccheeseburger for systemboxes, announcements and important posts

#starfallasks for ask posts that we respond to

#starfallmustread for all posts regarding my ex specifically and all the stuff hes done to us and his victims (please read if possible) + other call out posts

#starfallposts for every post I have made that isnt just another reblog (might have a few reblogs)

Spacehey profile (warning for loud undertale song):

Other blogs

Main blog (endo safe): @sparkly-amity

Witchy blog (endo safe): @amity-witchcraft

Stimboard blog (endo safe): @amity-creates

Miku Blog (endo safe): @mikudayo-sillies

Jasper’s Blog (endo safe): @yuu-jasper

Cinnamoroll blog (endo safe): @cinnamoroll-heaven

Syscourse blog (endo safe): @amitys-shenanigans

Lloyd and Kayn’s Ninjago blog (endo safe): @theninjashack

Headspace blog (Managed by Hartley, endos cannot interact with this blog as Hartley states in his dni): @lunar-headspace

Writing Blog (endo safe): @candylust-writing

Littles’ blog (Ran by our littles and their caretakers, endo safe): @little-star-squad

Hypersexual Alter Culture blog (CDD systems only, endos/non disordered in dni)

@hypersexual-alter-culture

Please do remember these key things:

- PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF GOD USE TONE TAGS WHEN TALKING TO US IF POSSIBLE, OR ELSE WE MAY MISUNDERSTAND YOU.

- TELL US IF WE SAID SOMETHING THAT IS DAMAGING. PLEASE. OR IF ITS INACCURATE.

- We talk a LOT. 90% of the time, it’s not meant to be an attack, we often sound complainy and rude but its quite literally just how we talk sometimes (we will use tone tags when necessary, but if we dont, we can always add one at your request). If you need clarification, ask. Though if you cant be bothered to read our long posts then scroll, we don’t need you to be telling us that you cant be bothered to take 2 seconds to read something, its rude and it also tells me that you would rather take a shortcut than to read a tumblr post. Learn to read (if you cant read our posts due to reading difficulty caused by a disability, its best to scroll unless it’s something that we can easily fix like text size and color or minor edits. We will accommodate upon request, though each request may vary)

- A lot of our disabilities and neurodivergencies are yet to be diagnosed and we are currently in the process of doing so. So far, we are diagnosed with BPD, GAD, Depression, PTSD (90% sure, I have to double check), and Gender Dysphoria. We are still in the process of getting assessed for Autism, ADHD, and possible learning disabilities like Dyslexia. As for our DID, we are trying to get a diagnosis, but due to medical trauma and neglect, we have no choice but to put it on pause unless we manage to find a medical professional who doesn’t ignore our trauma completely. We manage our system entirely on our own, though we do have some medical recognition for it by our family doctor.

- We may forget to put trigger warnings, please tell us as soon as possible if something serious needs a trigger warning. Please do know that depending on what it is that you are asking of me, I won’t inherently follow through. Things like food, final fusion, healed scars, etc, are stuff that I will most likely not put a trigger warning for, as that would cross into anti recovery territory. If we know something might make someone upset (even if it is not inherently triggering), we will put a small notice or the tumblr page break so that anything you may see doesn’t hit your eyes instantly unless you willingly choose to read more. We are not responsible for how you feel should you choose to read further.

- Please be mindful that because of our BPD, we are a lot more susceptible to splits and panic attacks. Please keep that in mind when interacting with us, if we are not in our right minds, we will most likely ask for space. I suggest that you let us have that space for the sake of both of our mental health and also my safety (our splits can get severe very quickly). We would also really appreciate it if you were patient with us, if we have said anything rash, we will address it sooner or later.

- Please accurately tell us your boundaries so that we don’t overstep any of them. Especially boundaries regarding sensitive information and topics. We take boundaries very seriously and have had issues in the past because boundaries were not clearly communicated. The last thing we want to do is hurt anyone.

- We are pro polymindence. If that bothers you for some reason, then you either keep your own beliefs to yourself or block us. Polymindence is not the same as endogenic plurality, it is a completely different thing that is often completely separate from the system community. We are not going to tolerate hate on it.

- If we accidentally follow you without knowing that you have us in your DNI for any reason (we usually always check ourselves but sometimes it does slip past us), do us a favour and block our blogs, INCLUDING OUR MAIN. We can still see your blog and interact with it even if you have this blog blocked. If you block our main, we cant see your blog anymore even if you don’t have our other blogs blocked, so if you need to block us for any reason, block the main blog first.

DNI under cut

Really important announcement, please read.

Contents: last formal post about our ex and also stuff regarding the future of this blog, brief mentions of abuse but nothing descriptive, mentions of grooming

Please stop using the term “tiktok refugees”. Heres why:

As you may know, Tiktok was banned by Donald Trump and was reinstated back a day-ish later. However, during this time, people who had been active TikTok users have left to other social media platforms, calling themselves “tiktok refugees”

Claiming to be a refugee of a banned social media app is dismissive and disrespectful to people who are actual refugees from countries at war or dealing with genocide.

You are trying to put the ban of an app at the same level of urgency and importance as someone who had to flee from their home. Those two things are NOT comparable whatsoever and if you think you can justify why it’s okay then you have never been on the side of the oppressed and have had to flee from your home

Please be mindful of the language you use. It may not sound like much but if you use the wrong terms in the wrong cases, it can cause longterm damage and misuse of the term. You do not need to call yourself a tiktok refugee, its not necessary. Just say you are from tiktok, thats all you need to say.

If this bothers you then you need to take a look in the mirror and ask yourself why. Think twice about the things you say, because what may be normalized in this society right now is not always right and may actually be the root cause of harm (like ableist language, racism, antisemitism, etc)

I’m not gonna argue about this because this sort of thing should be common sense but unfortunately its not so I have to say it:

USE YOUR WORDS RIGHT.

Important Updates:

Contents (in order):

1. Future of this blog and other blogs

2. Syscourse Stance + Syscourse related stuff

3. Full clarification on certain things that may have unintentionally pissed people off

Conclusion

1.

I know I have been causing a lot of problems lately. We have been extremely exhausted, not in our right mind, been extremely anxious and stressed out and as a result, it has led us to write stuff that has genuinely hurt people. As a result, we genuinely almost considered abandoning this blog but I don’t think we are ready to just abandon it, especially since there’s so much on here that has genuinely changed how I see things around me and the community I built.

For this week (maybe 2), I won’t post any syscourse posts or reblog any syscourse stuff (if I do tell me to delete it and I will), won’t make too many long posts unless it’s about our personal life or hyperfixation/special interests stuff (so no thought posts or opinion posts or anything that could hurt someone), and might limit my activity all together. I will have my iphone notifs off, but I will check notifications in the app to look for any pending responses from people who I really owe a voice to after unknowingly ignoring them for so long because of how tumblr’s block system works.

I have also unblocked most people who I had originally blocked to avoid interacting and accidentally breaking their DNI but that has clearly not worked. Until tumblr fixes their block system so that it’s not so bugged out and weird, I won’t be blocking you unless you are genuinely being an asshole. I won’t be blocking anyone based on their syscourse stances or if theyre endogenic. Speaking of syscourse, heres to the second part if the announcement.

2.

For basically the longest time since I first learned about this community’s existence, I have been anti endo. Now? I don’t know anymore. I am certain not pro endo, but considering how much misinformation anti endos have given me that have put me through trouble for no good reason, I am no longer anti endo. I don’t like how so many myths about terminology and the origins of said terminology are spreading around, I don’t like how none of them even put sources, and any misinformation that I used to believe about pro endos, I was corrected on by both pro endos and some of my other friends on discord. If this is how anti endos are going to behave, then I don’t want to be a part of it.

Your misinformation (talking to anti endos who are insistent on certain topics, not my friends, yall are mostly chill), has caused me harm, by causing other people harm. I had to learn the hard way that the term “system” isn’t necessarily a medical term, we literally searched for sources on where it mentions it being exclusive to DID and we found nothing. NOTHING. The only terms I found that were exclusive are parts and alters, which are already terms that both communities mostly acknowledge are CDD exclusive because pro endos have their alternatives like headmates.

As for the term endogenic? Yeah, saw many anti endos talk about how it’s origins are ableist, where’s the source? Tell me why a pro endo is willing to give me the source, but yall aren’t. Tell me why you guys don’t fact check shit, when you expect pro endos to give you sources.

The misinformation that we have consumed from being in one side of the community had proven to be something that is fucking us up. I am upset that NO ONE is pointing out misinformation within the anti endo community unless it goes against your beliefs.

I SHOULDVE BEEN CORRECTED BY MY COMMUNITY, YOU GUYS, NOT BY THE OPPOSITION.

So yea I am not labeling myself as anti endo anymore because frankly, it has done me more harm than good. Does that mean I believe in endogenic plurality? No. I still have my beliefs, but I don’t want to be treated like those who actually spread misinformation without fact checking. Anti endos should’ve been the one fact checking, yet I almost always see pro endos doing it.

And ykw, pro endos aren’t innocent either. I know that. But they actually took their time to correct me when yall did not. Instead, yall reblogged my shit.

I know my friends aren’t necessarily a part of this, but the rest of the anti endo community? Yeah, I need to say this, PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF GOD FACT CHECK YOUR SHIT. PLEASE. Don’t take everything word for word, GOOGLE IT. RESEARCH IT. DONT MAKE THE SAME DAMN MISTAKE THAT I DID.

Now, regarding some of the pro endos, some of whom I had originally blocked:

3.

I want to make this clear. I did not intentionally delete your responses to ANY of my posts.

Tumblr does this thing where if you have someone blocked, they are only blocked on your main blog, but not on your side blogs, so your side blogs are left exposed and if a blocked person interacts then you can’t see their responses and their responses look like they are deleted. BUT I PROMISE YOU I DONT DELETE THEM ON PURPOSE, ITS CUZ TUMBLR IS SHOWING YOU MY SIDE BLOGS WHEN IT SHOULDNT BE IN THE FIRST PLACE. This blog is a SIDE BLOG, not my main. The way the mobile app works makes blocking on side blogs impossible. I have to do it on my pc for every single blog.

So, what about those people who I blocked? I unblocked yall. Because if yall are gonna be seeing my side blogs regardless, then whatever. Blocking is useless for me on mobile. Id rather much listen to what you have to say than ignore you. Because then at least if I am actually wrong about something or if I did something wrong then I would be able to catch it faster. Today would’ve gone differently if some of those responses were visible much faster. Now I have to suffer the consequences.

Conclusion

I am sorry for being an asshole lately. Im tired, we’re all collectively tired, and it’s not helping to keep the anti endo label. Having said that, WE ARE ALSO NOT PRO ENDO, WE ARE UNALIGNED. We are taking the label off and will be interacting with both sides of the community so nothing is left unturned. Anyone can still interact with us, and we will interact with anyone unless they are not okay with it, to which i will respect their boundaries and move on. You can unfollow me, block me, but please don’t harass me.

If you see any old shit, ignore it. Or tell me to delete it and I most likely will because I have lost a lot of joy from my irl life and atp, nothing hurts anymore because im so used to it now. I just don’t want to hurt anyone else anymore. I am so tired of being on the wrong side by accident, all because people either misunderstand me or I am a fucking dumbass and don’t reread my own words sometimes.

Anytime i wanna talk about something that is either syscourse or reply to a post it constantly feels like I have to double check how I word things because people just take my point in a completely different context and while sometimes it’s something that is important that I miss, other times its just straight up misunderstanding or even twisting my words and no amount of tone tags can prevent it and it frustrates me because it feels like I can’t fucking say anything without someone pointing out something that I either already mentioned in the post, misunderstand and start coming after me for something that I didn’t even claim or intend, or just assume that I am arrogant and that I act like some moral god who dictates morals.

I don’t think I have said this enough so I will say it again for anyone who sees my profile and dislikes me:

If you don’t like me, then just block and move on.

And if you HAVE to reply to my syscourse related posts, PLEASE. USE. TONE TAGS.

From now on I won’t even reply to you or even acknowledge your point if you don’t use tone tags. Because I can’t appropriately reply back without worrying about offending you or feeling like you’re gonna attack me. If you send me an ask, I will delete it. If you reblog, I won’t even respond unless it’s something that is actually triggering me or pissing me off.

Heck, Im gonna try to even turn off reblogs on those posts if I see one post that is countering my argument without using tone tags LIKE I ASK OF EVERYONE

Doesn’t matter if you follow me or not, if you have something important to say to us then use tone tags. And frankly, I don’t really care if you don’t like using tone tags, they’re not for you they’re for our accessibility because WE CANNOT READ TONE VERY WELL. And if you willingly choose to not use them KNOWING that this is a boundary that we have set for all of us (not just me, the host), then Im sorry but I will honestly ignore you or even block you. You can say whatever you want to me, heck you can call me names, slurs, use death threats or argue back in a violent manner, whatever you wanna say to your hearts content, but if there is no tone tag then I will just ignore you and block if I want to.

As for anyone interacting with me on a normal basis (outside of syscourse, not debating/arguing, nit harassing), yall won’t be treated any different from the ones who want to interact with my opinionated posts. I may be more lenient depending on the context and what you say to me, but if I tell you to use tone tags and you don’t listen I will just block. You don’t necessarily have to use tone tags everytime you interact with us if you are not trying to start something with us and just want to engage in a normal conversation, but if something important is gonna be said or smth that can be misinterpreted, use tone tags.

If you’re our closer friends, then yall don’t have to use it as much because we know you enough to know what you mean by something you say, but it is still appreciated if you used them for us.

But anyway, regardless of the circumstances:

If you don’t listen to us when we tell you what our boundaries are then we will just block you or ignore you, regardless of the general context of what you said.

I’m done being lenient, especially when i have it highlighted in my pinned to use tone tags and absolutely no one uses them. If you don’t know what tone tags are, you can google it, theres lists and definitions of what each tag means and how to appropriately use them.

If you ask nicely I might even explain it myself, but only if someone actually asks us because we only have so much time and energy nowadays to even post.

Entire post is /srs /npa /nh (for those who don’t know what they mean in order —> serious, not passive aggressive, not hostile)