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thank you soso much for the ask! c:

4) do you smile at strangers? i smile at strangers maybe too much i try to compliment people on things like their eyebrows and fashion sense and things more than just basic appearance and i hold doors i just try to give ppl kindnesses to make their days better

6) how is your life different now from two years ago? (ok i’m sorry in advance this got a little. rambly and journaley sorry) 

well, gosh. A year ago was the summer before college so two years ago was the summer before senior year? and these last two years have been the biggest shift in my life, really. eleventh grade set me up for having new friendships. so, two years ago: me and grace were still starting to be best friends (we went to a dropkick murpheys concert that summer, i think, so that means it was the first time we really started talking on the phone vs through email. that’s the summer where closer to school starting we were in hope, and we went hiking together, and grace got me in on the bakery, and we listened to angeles and nightvale, and then when i backpacked the trail at the start of the school year i had angeles stuck in my head the whole time. essentially, that was the start of the graces being a unit). the circle of ppl who i have now that i consider family i either hadn’t really gotten to be friends with or i hadn’t even met? I didn’t have a tumblr yet, two years ago. i got it on harry potter’s birthday 2013. so i didn’t know keerthi yet, and now i talk to her every day. I didn’t realize i was bi until that september (and even then i thought i was a little bit into girls but mostly guys), and now i’m a ball of confusion who’s not even sure whether i’m gray ace or what the heck ever but aesthetically, girls are where i’m at rather than dudes. I hadn’t yet gone to goldmine, which for all ilt only lasted a week, was a major part of me shaking my depression more fully. It helped me come into my own as a leader and realize that i really do need spiritual practices in my life to keep feeling fulfilled, and it connected me with a community that always will be family to me. goldmine is what’s helped set me up for being student body vice president in my senior year, and for getting me to be the theater mom of everyone ever, and for helping me get to the point of cowriting and helping produce a musical; AP literature and hamlet happened to me. Went to prom feeling like a fairy queen and love my body almost always, despite the way i used to really not. stopped living in the stagnant household my mom had and never moved back in with my dad (who, when i live with we fight like cats  and dogs, but who i get along with wonderfully when we’re living separately). helped lead a few church services and officially bridged out of the youth group that helped me when i  really needed it. had a friend tell me i helped convince them they were worth loving and that helped them start to love themself and want to live more than not for their own sake. learned to sew. learned college isn’t really for me yet. i was unsure of myself, two years ago. i didn’t know who i was or how i felt about what i knew of myself, and now i try living like a scream, raw and unapolagetic. now, i love me, and i love my family, found and otherwise, and i’m here unstoppable on my way to the entire future. i’ve got this. i control my own fate and i love it and ever y day is like lungs aching from a fulfilling bike ride idfk

11) what are your ambitions? the longest running ambition I have is to have my books published, and that will never go away. next is the bakery with queerquiksilver which i’m so excited abou t and also the book version of the musical and all the other projects okay, and my third big ambition is the commune that duskycur and i are planning. it will be everything. 

fourth is i wanna be a mom someday but like a far someday

51:How often do I wear a fake smile? not actually very often anymore? i would only do that if i was glum & trying to cheer someone up but i’m usually pretty chipper (like who uses the word chipper anymore but it’s true)

52:When was the last time I hugged someone? u m ? today when i went into my old highschool to help with the musical i cowrote

53:What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me? i kissed my dad on the cheek last night? does that count? i would probs be like oh ok & leave if i came across him kissing his girlfriend

54:Is there anyone I trust even though I should not? i probably trust the government more than i should and i already am very skeptical about it

55:What is something I disliked about today? waking up & having to bike to work. i hate mornings usually

56:If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be? taylor swift

57:What do I think about most? mm theater things like, the musical, and also the reniassance faire

58:What’s my strangest talent? i can whistle & hum at the same time

59:Do I have any strange phobias? no?

60:Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it? like? why not both. group selfies.

61:What was the last lie I told? told my dad i was too tired to do dishes so i could chill with my sister bc i hadn’t seen her in awhile

62:Do I perfer talking on the phone or video chatting online? depends on the situation & person tbh

63:Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens? both- i believe in ghosts for sure, i apparently was seeing the ghost of a great great uncle as a very little kid, and definitely felt some kind of presence when i was in the old family farm a few years ago, and there’s some hanky business with ghosts at work according to my managers (& i saw a thing someone else saw to do w that? so). And like ? not believing in aliens is kinda ridiculous. aliens make sense like we’re in such a huge universe they’re out there somewhere

64:Do I believe in magic? not sure? like no one ever fully convinced me it’s not real but i don’t have any personal experiences with it so I can’t say

65:Do I believe in luck? I sure feel lucky so? i don’t know man like this is a very vague question

66:What’s the weather like right now? unseasonably nice

67:What was the last book I’ve read? Good Omens by Neil Gaiman and Terry Pratchet

68:Do I like the smell of gasoline? not like heavily but just a little is nice

69:Do I have any nicknames? Denney, Den, Red, Gracey Spacey

70:What was the worst injury I’ve ever had? Um? Well I broke one arm when i was 3 and one when i was seven and they were both fairly simple fractures but I think the worst was when i dislocated my knee by doing nothing but standing wrong when i was in 10th grade i was in a knee brace for ages 

idk. Go on xkcd.com and click 'random' a bunch of times and keep track of the ones you like. That might work

be a stick figure a la xkcd comics

Walk along the river, sweet lullaby

Beyond the horizon of the place we lived and we were young

The morn came down and fought to promise brighter days

You know the day destroys the night

wait holy shit im seeing wicked in nyc this saturday!