#spn 02x04

epic love story of sam and dean | 02x04

Dean: What's dead should stay dead.

Lol this is the most hilarious thing he's said to date.

Also honestly for Sam seeing Dean falling tf apart constantly like over and over again must be really difficult. Imagine having to deal with your brother being suicidal for 15+ years like that's a lot of "why am I not enough for you to want to stick around?" 😬

Dean: It's your grief counselors. We've come to hug.

Dean looking at a gravestone that says "loving father" when John like barely loved Dean the way he deserved to be loved. Heartbreaking.

Bloodlust hits really different on rewatch

first time around the focus was on the argument between the brothers, on Dean taking Gordon’s side and Sam arguing for a more shades of grey approach to hunting, and then the gradual crumbling of Dean’s more black and white worldview, which without the context we later get was almost theoretical

but this time the ep was all about Dean’s struggle with the knowledge John left him with: that there is something monstrous about Sam, that Dean might have to kill his own brother. it’s really fascinating how clearly that theme is there once you know what to look for: Gordon killing his vampire sister. Dean looking uncomfortable with Gordon’s conviction that the world is black and white. Dean’s immediate guilt when he’s hit Sam, and the almost relief he seems to feel about letting the vampire live

also: poor innocent babies, they’re so uncomfortable with a severed head in a box

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Children Shouldn’t Play with Dead Things...whoo boy

i had completely forgotten about that crying confession of Dean’s feelings at the end of the ep. “what could you possibly say to make that alright?” shit, i think i repressed this, it’s way too heartbreaking, especially when Sam can’t say anything. he looks so lost, confronted with Dean’s feelings, he’s been yelling at Dean to tell him what’s going on, to deal with his feelings in a healthy manner, and then Dean opens up and Sam is utterly unable to comfort him

other than that, there’s much weird angry-flirting going on in this ep, a kind of constant push and pull, like they’re daring each other to...idk, do something to break the growing tension between them. and so much weird codependent shit: Dean not wanting to let Sam visit mom’s grave alone, Sam hiding a pleased grin when it turns out there was a case and Dean is angry at him just to make a point, Dean flashing an unwitting smile when Sam confesses being afraid of losing him...they’re so angry at each other and so desperate for each other and so in sync despite everything

also: Dean is just so pretty in this ep, is that some Manners magic? or maybe it’s that open shirt and rare v-neck, he should have worn those more often