#speacil

I lost someone extremely close. I've thought constantly about him through these years and cried my heart out at the things he's missed that I knew he would of been there behind me 110% . I won't be able to see him dance with me at my wedding or have him hold my child when I finally have one like he did with me. I lost my big teddy bear. I lost the one person I always turned too. The one that was the first person to hold me besides my parents. The one that was at ever school activity, softball game, performance, birthday. The one that gave me extra cash even if I didnt need it. The one that was trying to look for a car for me when I was 15. The one that my mom reminds me I'm too much alike. The one that I sat with at races. The one that I cried for because he couldn't see me walk across the stage. Or to tell my dad he told him we would see my sister one day. The one that i go and sit outside through the cold rain and wish he could hug me. I lost my grandpa. My papa. The one that was so happy when I was born he stood outside the widow waiting to see me for the first time with a grin so wide. The one I would call if I wanted to get away. So as I sit here thinking of all the things he hasn't gotten to see with me I try and wipe my eyes. Another year has gone by so another tear has slipped by.

My best friends dad, RIP  <3