Because of this game, and this fandom, my life has been completely turned around, and you’ve probably read that a lot today, but... I really mean it as well.
Not that I’m big on talking about this stuff, but in the next few days, or so is the anniversary of the worst day of my life. I didn’t really learn about this game until October? Or when Cry began posting it. I had been severely depressed, and as a non-emotional person that confused me greatly. I went from a perky, overly hyper teenager, to well numb, and empty. I’m honestly sure if I hadn’t found this game, and fandom I would have given up.
I had been pretending everything was okay for my mom, and I had honestly lost hope in humanity.
But one night before bed I put the first episode on just before bed. I watched it, and I thought it was really interesting. I ended up shutting it off after the first episode though assuming that I would have to wait until the next day for the next one. The next morning I really felt like the world had given me a present. I got on to see that he had in fact posted over half of the series by that point. I mean I know how selfish that is, but for someone who hadn’t had much good in a long time I couldn’t help it.
I watched up to what he had, and eagerly awaited each day for the new episode. I ended up being some weird combination of satisfied, and unsatisfied at the end of it. I ended up watching other youtubers play it like Jacksepticeye, and Markiplier (Until he stopped posting it of course) I was happy to learn even more about the game, but i still wasn’t satisfied. Hell I think I even watched one of those all endings videos completely spoiling the game for myself.
By this point it was around December, and I had seen almost all the Undertale comics posted on youtube as well as many lets plays, theories, ect. I couldn’t help but want even more of the game that had given me back my happiness. Strange right? Getting your emotions back from a game?
I made my self a tumblr account. This one right here actually, and I read rps, and comics, and fanfictions about the game. I got to see so many blogs, and au’s come about, though I have to admit I’ve lost track of how many there are...
I rote my own horrible fanfiction, and some of you guys even liked it...It made me really happy that some one even cared about what i made. I began to draw, and write more, and more slowly increasing my skills as you guys, and the game inspired me to try harder!
Come January a friend (don’t think they wanna be tagged.), and I started talking. They were super cool, and we began to make friends, and even rp through IM.
Ah I remember the first Rp I did with someone other than my previously mentioned friend. I had sent @errorsansrp a random meme stuffing Error into Cerins basement XD i thought I was just going to get an interesting reply, but instead what i had sent was a starter meme....they answered, and It was so cool to me, but I was horrified to rp with them at first. I was so nervous I was shaking for the first few replies as I wrote them. I’m glad that I had gotten to rp with them because it gave me a little ray of sunlight, or hope in a once again dark place the world had thrust me into.
Them, and my previously mentioned friend gave me the courage to make my own account for Cerin. ((@cerinthesilversoul)) Besides the one rp with Error (Sinpai) most of my early rps on the actual account were with the previously mentioned friend.
After a while the account began to grow with me rping over there, and sharing cool thing, or my own art here for you guys. After a while I ended up making friends with Sinpai (Error), and they invited me to this absolutely amazing skype group. I was really nervous, and shy at first though I tried not to be, I worked hard to be out going, and get to know the rest of the amazing people in that group.
I of course did...or well I hope I did. I love all of them so much, and I’m so glad to have met them.
And as one last thing before I do the tags i want this post to be an example that things do get better.
I’m much happier these days while I still have some bad days my friends are always there to give me the much needed pick me up I need. I’ve begun drawing again, and I improved so much. (There’s no ego here.....nope XD) I’m talking to people, and I’m laughing, and smiling more.
So THINGS DO GET BETTER.
Anyways I’m going to tag some peeps:
@pacifistanomaly, @siblings-combined, @spared-sans or @errorsansrp or @tea-sans, @sadisticsentry66 or @cruelskeleton95, @smolternity or @sansationalmoves, @isometimesrp, @brotherlypunmaster, @underfellfellasblog or @gasteryourmasterofdisaster, @ketchupguzzler or @laidbackpaps, @goats-and-flxwers, @hard-bittcn (so many accounts man XD), @littlehushedbird, @mischief-rei, and so, so many more.
Happy Anniversary Undertale!! And thanks to you guys for making me so much happier... I really love you guys!!
