#space ho

the good news is, i made Lotor a Space Ho shirt.

Voltron: Space Hos

I'm feeling this desperate need for my own space. My own man space I guess. I'm feeling very man and very dysphoric and this is going to sound totally lame, but I need like a bachelor pad sort of room at this moment....

and of course I don't have that in my girlfriends bedroom ^^; 

I just sort of want to move back to my parents, pile up some futon mattresses since we don't have another full size bed (and that sounds just like fucking AWESOMELY COMFORTABLE) and just chill the fuck out while it snows and shit. I just need that space. My own space.

I'm suffocating without space. It's really driving this nasty like crowbar between me and everything important to me (like my girlfriend). 

Like earlier I was all "maybe it would be better if I just didn't have her" and that's when I realized, it was just this lack of space. (Don't yell at me Ann, I love you to death and you know that. I thought it because I'm stressed. You are my everything.)

WHICH BRINGS ME TO MY NEXT POINT - moving into a studio apartment means ONCE MORE not having any space for myself! I wish he could just build a wall, go out onto the porch and make a bedroom, a legit bedroom. Every time we talk about dividers I start to feel sick. I want a door to shut. I want that. That's why I enjoyed the kitchen in the one bedroom because it was a separate room, that even though it didn't have a door (did it? no.. I don't think so), I could shove my desk in the far corner and have my own space separate from the rest of the house.

I'm such a space-needy ho. ^^; I apologize... and yeah this post is mostly for myself and my girlfriend, but if anyone was wondering what was going on in that head of mine... there we go...

I also have this desperate need to pee standing up with something that looks relatively like a cock, but I do not have the money right now to purchase such a thing. I think it would make me feel better about myself.