#sosotired

...of me after working ALL the hours to prepare for remote learning next week.

Random things:

- some of my colleagues were my students when I was last teaching

- people are SO LOUD

- I die a little every time someone defaults ‘he’ for examples

- I am revived a little for every rainbow lanyard and poster for the LGBTQIA club

- I don’t know if I’m too judge-y, but I believe we as educators should be able to use affect/effect accurately

- People are terrible at appropriate distancing unless you’re wearing a mask. Hence, I wear my mask whenever I’m not at my desk. I wonder if OHS covers me if I fall down the steps because my glasses are fogged up?

- The next four weeks will be busier than this week.

- But I’ll get to work partly from home.

- While helping the Smurfs remote learn again.

- Please, PLEASE wear your mask...

I’m tired because today, another synagogue was shot up.

I’m tired because today, I had to sing Christian hymns.

I’m tired because exactly six months ago, the Tree of Life synagogue was shot up, too.

I’m tired because today, my friend told me antisemitism doesn’t exist.

I’m tired because it’s the last day of Pesach and it’s Yom HaShoah, Holocaust Remembrance Day.

And at this point I just don’t know what to do anymore.

My people deserve better.

I deserve better.

From a school I trusted, a school I expected not to put me in the situation, not again.

But for now,

All I have to say is

It's so hard

to live without

your softest touch

your burning mouth