#sorryx

i love Sorry X's cover of Daisy by Ashnikko -- but it felt empty without the Hatsune Miku vocals! so i added them in <3

Wasting away my serotonin to stay in toxic paradise

And I'm sorry for everyone I ever said

I know you’ll be the death of me

And now I’m digging up a grave,

From my past

In the 90210

Life is a purge, sound of the sirens

I`m a mess, I`m a mess,

Whenever you gone, I wish I was dead

I`m a whole different person

It’s a gift and a curse,

But I cannot reverse it

I don`t want the memories to fade

These are the moments I’m missing

Diamonds, they wet on my arms

I was just standing there wishing I could grow up and my life would be different

And oh love,

How I miss you every single day when I see you on those streets

You get high with me, you come down with me

That’s all I need, in my fantasy

We designed our love around the drugs

I`m so high right now,

I don`t think that I’ll ever come down

You can try , I guarantee this shit won’t work

Wanst to be needed, I don’t need them

I`ma love her, `til the love is done

Stop tryna be god

I was tryna beat a case,

But I ain’t beat that case, bitch I did the race

Then a storm came in and saved my life

Head up to the sky, down on my knees

Out of nowhere, you came here to save the night

In the nighttime

I don`t know how to love someone else

I don`t know how to forget your face

God i miss you every single day and now you’re so far away

Got me stargazing

I lay down these armour

Say my name like bloody mary

Everyday when the sun goes down

I remember what I found

And i know you’re not around

Gonna get so high to another cloud

Very scary

Why do all good things come to an end?

Won`t you pray?

Cause she don’t hear me like she hears you pray

Mercy mercy mercy

And i don`t wanna take you down with me

Sleepwalker

Where did you go?

I know that you won’t understand

But I need to let go of this here

Cause i`m going now.

Looking at everybody else now

When I created this blog I intended for it to be strictly fitblr. However, as of late I've really wanted to start reblogging my other interests. For those of you who don't know I absolutely adore things such as -

Arrow (olicity <3)

The hundred

Doctor who

Sherlock

The mortal instruments

Divergent

Books in general

Computers <3

Art

Writing

The ski trip was every.. eventful to say the most.

The first major thing that happened was Joe sprained his arm and then he kissed me. I'm not sure what to do about that - even though I like him, I'm not sure if I want him more as a friend, or something more. On the subject of him kissing me, it was my first kiss. I can't let anyone know that though. Another thing about Joe is that I don't know if I can tell him about daddy or mummy, remembering the way he acted about Kylie and Nathan, I' not sure I want to, which complicates everything even more.

After that we went up in a group skiing together and got trapped by bears on our way down. Everyone wanted to scare them, but they're just as scared as us, I mean the mother had cubs! Anyway I didn't want to hurt them so I (stupidly) decided to go and try to find a ranger through the trees. In which I got lost, I must have been there a couple of hours, and I was so cold! I thought everyone had forgotten about me but then Kylie found me and helped me back, she is just the sweetest thing.

On the subject of Kylie after she had fixed me up we watched a movie together and before she left - she collapsed. I was so frightened, even more than the time that.... well left me the scars I have today. I went with her to hospital and when I saw her go into the operating room I was so afraid, I didn't want to loose my best friend. I had a panic attack and fainted. Luckly some lady calmed me down and I'm here with Kylie now in the hospital being the happiest I've felt since she called me her best friend. She's cancer free! I don't know if it will stay that way, at least she is now. 

So it was a great week or so away, discounting me lost and the panic attack. I'm not sure what to do about Joe though, I'm sure I will figure something out though. I really enjoyed it and would love to go back!