If you don't want to be my friend, fine. Do me a favor and say it to my face though. It will not a effect how I see you as a person, it will actually benefit you because I will end up thinking highly of you. DONT go behind my back as a cluster and do things without me. You don't think I see it? It's all over every fucking social media, it's not a secret. The problem is I'm not so much angry at you, as I am at myself. Growing up I watched TV shows where friends stuck together, they were there for each other. I'm a fool to believe that it can happen in real life....it's fake, those are actors. I'm done pretending that I don't have issues, that maybe my social anxiety will just magically disappear. I'm tired of feeling lonely. On a positive note, one direction is very Therapeutic