#soooo rough

you had gone to bed hours ago. sinking into the mattress with mac, you didn’t really fall asleep. your eyes stared at the darkened ceiling that was illuminated by passing cars from time to time. you had a lot on your mind, your nerves were itching your skin.

you were studying. perfecting any chance of acing your upcoming exam. but mac had begged you to come to bed. to rest your eyes and take a break from your computer and stacked notebooks. you told them to go ahead and asleep, but they weren’t budging. after a few minutes of them staring into the back of your head, you admitted defeat and followed after them to the bedroom.

the clock ticked. roni was fast asleep. the cat was curled up at the end of your feet. mac had hugged you for warmth but drifted apart, limbs spread across the bed. you continued to stare at the ceiling. your hands clamped together, your thumb gently tapping against your chest. you were analyzing your notes from memory. whispering to yourself the answers and reciting long, complicated pages of numbers from your notes. 

an hour and half has passed. wasted. you would’ve gotten so much done if you weren’t laying here. gently and carefully, you lifted your head, looking at your lover who was sound asleep. mouth agape slightly and their arm over their face. you adored them. you loved that they took care of you. but reality was, you weren’t going to sleep. not like this. not when that exam was tomorrow evening.

you gently unraveled yourself from the sheets, throwing your legs over the edge of the bed as you were trying to be as quiet as possible. roni had woken up, shuffling in their little bed before noticing you sit up. they let out a small squeak before lazily running across the headboard and falling onto your lap. “roni…” you whispered out, rubbing your eye. “i’ll be back. i just need to look over my notes more.” roni shook their head and rubbed their head against your hand, trying to keep you from leaving. “just.. give me a few more minutes and i’ll be back. i swear.” after a moment, the mouse hesitated but nodded. returning back to their bed, they watched your silhouette disappear.

there you are again. hunched over your laptop, mindlessly clicking while listening to podcasts to keep you awake and somewhat focused. you kept your promise to roni, you had returned…. but you brought in your laptop to keep studying. they found themselves on your shoulder, snuggled against the crook of your neck. you both were happy. roni got to sleep on you while you continued to study.

hours and hours passed. you were very cozy yet determined with your work. you carefully sipped on your water bottle before adjusting your own blue light glasses. typing gently as you can, your head bopping with music. you sucked in your world to notice mac stirring away. they lifted their head up slightly, eyes half closed, and nose scrunched as they inhaled the cold air. they yawned softly, their hands trying to find you but only met with an empty space.

mac turned their head towards your directly and saw the horrific scene. you were still awake. they couldn’t deny the fact that you looked very cute right now. your small faint smile, your tired eyes, the yawn you just gave out. ugh. you were so adorable. but so irresponsible to your own well being. they hated exam season solely for this reason.

they flipped on their side, admiring the sight for a moment. their hand gently reached over and held your moving hand. your eye widened as you were finally caught in the act. before you could make up an excuse, they leaned over and wrapped their arms around your waist. pulling themselves closer to you and smuggling their face into your sides. inhaling your body wash. “why are you still studying…” they muffle againist your body.

you sighed softly and removed one of your earbuds, looking down at them before rubbing the back of their head. “i just.. needed a bit more time to study.” you answered honestly. “my nerves are tingling. i’m so worried about how this is gonna end up.” you continued, your free hand running through your hair in urgency. mac didn’t respond, as they had fallen asleep once more. it didn’t take long for them to gain consciousness again.

they yawned and finally moved, quickly planting a kiss on your cheek. rubbing their eyes, they sat upright and next to you, their arms crossed over their chest as they squinted at your lowly dimmed laptop. “lemme help you..” “no, mac. you’re obviously tired, go to bed.” they shushed you and snuggled against your side, “nonsense. if i can help you, it means we can get this done faster and you can sleep with me.”

you didn’t argue. honestly, having them to ask questions and be your second opinion was definitely helping you ease those nerves.

about half an hour had passed and you can tell the sleepiness was getting to them once again. they were becoming more physical with you. just like they always been when it was time for bed.

their hands held yours. ran over your exposed arms. messed with the fabric of your shirt. they planted lazily kisses on your face every time you gave the correct answer. they were so cute like this. you couldn’t help but feel so in love with them once again. a rush of serotonin was over taking your buzzing nerves.

they wrapped their arms around you once again,—after roni crawled to their bed once again—gathering any warmth they could from you. you couldn’t do it anymore. you were satisfied with your studying. it was time to hit the hay.

quickly, you saved all of your documents and soon powered off your computer. planting it on your nightstand beside your glasses. your arm wrapped around mac’s waist and pulled them on top of you as you adjusted yourself on the mattress. mac laid on top of you, their arms loosely wrapped around your shoulders and their face barely touching your neck. their faint breathing againist your skin made you instantly relax.