#song coding

So here are the lines that make me think so

No one really knows his mind and no one knows behind his eyes The man deserves a medal But he's never really won a prize before

He has fallen in love He knows it's enough And the world looks down and frowns

We all know you're qualified to fix a chair and love your wife They all know you're qualified but they lie when they blame it on the times

Get up Johnny boy, get up Johnny boy Get up 'cause the world has left you lying on the ground You're my pride and joy, you're my pride and joy Get up Johnny boy because we all need you now

And lastly, Dean's lines that ruin my life if I imagine him staring into his Sammy's eyes while singing them

I will carry all your names and I will carry all your shame

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You're my pride and joy, you're my pride and joy

Well then I might just have to make you yap about it cus WHAT??? Bro, please tell me exactly how 🙏

Dean's verse

Dare I say that Sam is Dean's religion and after he leaves him to start his own life at uni, all Dean can ask for is that his babyboy won't forget him... In a way, Dean is glad Sam left and is safe and trying to live a life that Dean couldn't, but, God, the pain of having the only person you truly love put you behind and only refer to you in the past tense, only ever as a memory? That's pain that Dean isn't too sure he can withstand.

But ofc he tries his best to stay together, to be stable enough for his dad to depend on him, yet he always feels inadequate without Sammy there to idolize him.

Dean lives for the applause (except Sam is the only one clapping).

Dean was Sam's guidance but now Sam is searching for a new life, a better life. A life that doesn't involve his big brother... Dean can't help it if his love for Sam is all-consuming like a,, cancer.

Sam's verse

Can I speak my truth about Sam worshipping God with all his might but somewhere deep down he feels like he's betraying his brother, his hero.

Sam made friends only to appear normal, he enjoyed it ofc – the human connection, but in the end he never really felt at home or like he truly fit in. He was always out of place. And so in a way he felt like he was betraying Jess as well by being with her but always yearning for Dean, his real home, to be at his side.

Basically he lives in misery because no matter his choices, he always feels like he's betraying someone close to him.

Those years at Stanford he would sit at his bedside and pray to God to give him the strength to not go back to Dean and the life his family calls ordinary.

Bonus!

When you beg death to take you because your brother died and without him you'd run out of oxygen like a flame in a bubble

i didn't think the details through, the thought just hit me like prophecy from a mad god and wouldn't leave until i made someone else think it.

the song is from an album about the complicated relationship and tragic lives of a pair of conjoined twins. so it's more of a metaphor than a literal murder mystery. so to speak.

and as a metaphor, it could be about sam giving up any attempts at a normal life (so the sister is a different version of himself he's killing) to be with dean. at the start of the song, the singer's sweetheart rolls up in a 69' impala, after all.

"you can't imagine just how much i miss her" at the end also fits. yeah it was painful but there was no other way.

glad you liked the song! sorry for this... well. all of this.

Ohoho I like this! I like your interpretation a lot, a very sad and beautiful way of seeing it! Also, it's interesting to see how now that I know they're conjoined twins it changes my perspective of the song lol

Like when I listened to it, I thought about it in a more literal sense, so yk, whole murder mystery as you said, and that they were twins, and that one felt not as seen or as accomplished as the other, but then the thought stumbled me cus you interpret it as samdean so I was trying to find that angle hrkahdkaj