#some personal

Alright so in my new second job, I have to work a lot with bread. I work before opening time so I need to stock all the displays with breads and pastries, and later cut bread for the sandwich people. I imagine a modern Rufius would really love working here.

Maybe if he develops more confidence and self-worth, he could even be an owner or manager of a bakery/Cafe. I have headcanoned that Rufius just has this relationship with food... like I could just be projecting, but to him food would be like a language for him or an art form, especially if he does cake decoration and all that.

And if Midas lives here and becomes a real friend to Rufius, he could be in charge of the finances and taking care of the expenses and checking for suspicious cashier behavior. And he'd also be in charge of the pay.

Again, I could just be projecting as I have a really odd relationship with food myself. I get really passionate talking about it and it reflects emotions, feelings, experiences for me. I don't know how to describe it exactly but you'll see me in action if you get me started.

But it would make sense for Rufius right? Like food and pastries are his friends!

Today few bosses from head office showed up for visiting some studios. They asked my LinkedIn account to know me better. But the truth is I haven’t updated it for years, so obviously I forgot my Twitter account was in my profile as business use. And that Twitter account is my CP77 photo account now. I was freaking nervous to see bosses open my Twitter, thousands and millions “Holy Crap” running in my brain because that’s not a business use account any more😨😨😨, screaming “I’m dead” silently in mind because I really don’t know what’s bosses’ reaction.😱😱😱

But I’m released because they are very nice people, one of them pretty impressed by the photos, and asked what program I used for pictures. Also we had a short talk about in-game photography, most of them doesn't play video games but they do agree video games become another art form, not matter is from visual design or narrative perspective. They are really good portrait photographers but they also keep leaning new stuff, few of bosses even know video game is consider as the ninth form of art.

Funny thing is they realize I only take male characters’ photos from CP77, and ask why since my real life portrait includes people from different countries and ages/gender. I just told them male character is more challenge for me (Truth is I love Kerry and my boy~!!!! But I’m too shy to say it....) One of the boss suggest maybe I can include some real life photos in twitter (My bad that account is for CP77 special, stupid me didn’t remove from LinkedIn)

I didn’t put tumblr in LinkedIn, here I have more simp photos that I didn’t post on Twitter. LOL, most important----- I’m so glad I didn’t repost any NSFW, because I’m too shy, hell, this saves me today. Otherwise I was totally dead in front of bosses and probably wanna strangle myself.🤪🤪🤪

Just finished watching Marriage Story and oh it was just as emotional as I anticipated. Noah Baumbach wrote and directed a beautiful yet heart wrenching story of a family still trying to be one while the worst is happening to keep them apart. 

Adam Driver and Scarlett Johansson were both of course amazing just 👏👏👏👏👏 They really portrayed true emotions of what it feels like to go through a separation or divorce. There are so many raw moments between the two but I felt some of their most impactful scenes were when they were not together, but alone, and we can see what this life changing experience is doing to both of them, it’s just 💔

There is that one scene where they have that horrible argument in Charlie’s LA apartment and...Yeah it was hard to watch but at the same time I couldn’t take my eyes off the screen. It was intense, so real, and they both acted in such a way where I felt for both of them. Charlie and Nicole each have their own complexities and faults but I understood where both were coming from and it made me have empathy for both. 

I can remember being a little younger than Henry when my parents were going through this and like Henry, was with my mom most of the time and seeing Charlie’s story, seeing his relationship with his son become so different, did make me break as well, thinking what my dad went through, even though we have our differences, it did make me feel for what he had to go through too so...sigh...yeah it’s tough. This was an emotional one to watch personally. 

In the film, there are many scenes where I was just 😢. There’s one where Charlie is singing (and kudos to Adam because I loved him singing and it makes me excited for that one upcoming musical) but yeah that scene though singing ‘Being Alive’ shows just how hard he has tried to make things work with his family and professionally so I saw this as a scene expressing those emotions through song so yeah 👌 it’s beautiful. 

There’s also one of the last scenes of the film where Henry is reading Nicole’s writing on the good things about Charlie, and that line, “I fell in love with him two seconds after I saw him,” and watching his face fall to a tearful expression made me go 🥺 Sigh...what a scene! <3

This song and animation is so amazing gunna watch the full movie animation story this weekend

Also having a cold during this corona bullshit sucks but still gotta work

A) cuz i need money

Happy New Year everyone!! Hope this is gonna be a good year for each one of you~

A little bit late ;w; but here it is, what I did this last year xDI didn’t have much of an improvement tbh but I’m proud of what I achieved

Thank you all for your support I’ll try my best to keep improving and get those goals that I have in mind.