#softpatil

second year:  full moons, half-hearted lies, pranks and hexes and youthful folly blossom into questions without answers, climax into a revelation. he prepares for the inevitable, feels his scars burn, lets the ashes of his secret spill from him in shame. but the blow never came. third year: usual shenanigans and stolen glances, warm bodies next to him now on his infirmary bed, soothing words recited into his hair like a mantra.  but now he finds himself with a bias on whose body is directly next to his, whose warmth he wants to feel, mantras he wants to etch into his being. he did not know whether the feeling, should elate or unnerve. 

fourth year: a wanted, constant presence.  a yearning. he feels it in his bones now, striking him with every laugh and smile and everything in between. it was somewhere around this time when he found himself falling in love.

fifth year:  he hides his secret with all his might, keeps it in the back of his mind, fights off the flush in his expression, the flutter in his chest. here, he is no longer alone during his runs,  finds himself happier than he’s been in years. he stays in this bubble, relishes the feeling. a year of maps and celebration and what should have been confession. instead he finds it tainted with betrayal.

sixth year:  a time of runaways and broken friendships. most importantly, a season of forgiveness. but the forgiveness, like broken friendships and unlike the path of runaways,  is quiet.  it starts with willingly returned glances, the brushing of pinkies and shoulders the occasional dialogue, and ends with  tears, an overwhelming feeling of relief, is sealed with a kiss. 

seventh year: laughter and love and friendship all around him, promise after promise unfolding. he prays to the gods, to anyone listening in the skies or the ground or the droplets of rain, that if they cannot give, cannot keep promises without tragedy and blood, of happiness and hope and love, at least sear this memory into him, let him wear these years, burn them into his mind, bind his and these people’s souls to one another’s for eternity. please, he thinks. please please please. take everything, promise nothing, at least let him have this.

hey tyler!!! omg, the feeling when you get a new mattress is like the best thing ever! and i hope you end up getting more done, don’t be like me, the world’s best procrastinator! i hope you have an amazing day too ♥

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im scREAMING i love you so much tyler, youre one of my best friends too and im so so glad youre in my life <33333 thank you so much you just made my entire week <33333

lmaooo thanks tut

Roman Empire: How would you like to be remembered?

I want to be remembered as a good person, someone who did the right thing and was kind and will be loved and missed dearly prob not gonna happen tbh

Russia: Have you ever suffered from low self esteem? Do you still?

hahahhahahahahhahahhahahahahhahahahahhahahhah I do and i cover it up with humor and life is gr8

Sealand: Who is your best friend?

I have like three??? two friends irl sarah and Shravani but I haven’t talked to sarah in a lil while, and also you tut <33 (srsly tho, I consider you one of my best friends)

Seborga: What is your favourite beverage?

m8 I fukin live 4 chai,,,,, esp my dads chai its to die for

Seychelles: How do you handle people being rude to you?

umm idk?? I kinda try to laugh it off but I tend to either become rly petty if I don’t know them that well or become rly quiet/possibly cry a little (im not proud of it) if theyre closer to me 

South Italy: What is your favourite part of your personality?

my passion for dance!! ive danced since I was 5 so its a rly big part of my life and its really the only thing ive stuck with and actually liked throughout

Spain: What would you tell to the person or people you hurt most if you had a second chance?

id tell (most of) them im truly sorry for hurting them and I wish we could make up somehow (as for the others and im thinking abt a specific person here, they hurt me first very deeply and then tried to make me guilty abt it so id prob not say anything to them at all)

Sweden: Are you a leader, follower, or independent?

I can be any of them tbh,,,,, I like to lead but im okay with being a follower (as long as its my decision/im still able to help make decisions and stuff and be involved). I like to be in groups/with people but I can still be independent if I have to

AHHHHHH TYSM TUT <####### I think the same (and more) of you ahh!!! <333

GREEN = I think you’re cute.TEAL = We have a lot in common.PERIWINKLE = You make me laugh MAUVE = You are really talented BLUSH = Seeing you on my dash makes my day a little better. FUCHSIA = Your blog content is goldLAVENDER = You inspire meUMBER = I want to know more about youRAZZMATAZZ = I would share my favorite food with youSAFFRON = I love your ideas TIMBERWOLF = I trust youCHARTREUSE = You’re my homie BURGUNDY = I get excited when I see posts from you

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it’s totally ok to call me liyah hehe, since that’s my name! you’ve been added to the birthday page as @softpatil, thank you so much for joining! ♥