#sofi rant

I can also focus on my health. I was planning on starting heavy fighting training by my area doesn't have a marshal right now. Besides, after finding out that I have severe high blood pressure as a 27 year old, I might have to hold off on that until we get stuff figured out. I've met with a cardiologist and we found I have heart enlargement because I've apparently had blood pressure like this for a long time. It's made me rethink a lot of things, how I deal with life, how I eat, how I work out and, it especially made me rethink my career. Computer graphics is not easy, it's extremely stressful and competitive. It's already destroyed my health and I'm not even at the top of the game. I knew I couldn't mentally handle it but it turns out I can't physically handle it either because of things beyond my control.