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OOO dats a lot of questions. 

1: 6 of the songs you listen to most?

Looking at my 25 most played songs on itunes we have

1. Pretty When You Cry by Vast

2. Absolute Territory by Ken Ashcorp

3. Apocalyptic by Halestorm

4. Elastic Heart by Sia

5. Fuck Time by Green Day

6. Woman by Kesha

14.  If you are outside, what are you most likely doing?

Hanging with friends, or shopping 

18: Do you believe in karma?

Sometimes

30: Stick your right arm out; what do you touch first? Do the same with your left arm.

Right arm - Empty plate

Left arm - Maoams specifically in stripe form

41: What was the last book you read?

The Secret Diary of Laura Palmer (I really love Twin Peaks ok)

61: Are you wearing socks right now?

Yup, navy blue knee socks 

65: Give me your top 5 favourite blogs on Tumblr.

Dispite this fact that I’m still losing followers and not knowing which one of them are people I though of as my friends, I’m physically fine.

  Soap-Classic 70's and 80's TV

i enjoyed that show

Soap was such a good show and more people should really watch it I mean

Never been a fan of bars.

Same.

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*whispers* I love you book

The question is why did I say it anonymously… *shouts* I LOVE YOUR BOOK!!!!! Started reading it again.

It’s going to be okay.

YOU are going to be okay. This is a temporary thing with your brain being a dick, and you will get through this.

I’m so proud of you for starting therapy, and looking into meds to help your brain get the help it needs to stop being a dick to you.

If I may suggest something: I practice a version of cognitive behavioral therapy. The short and overly simplified version is: when I feel my brain throwing a sad or depressive or negative thought at me, I stop what I’m doing, and I make the effort to consciously remember something awesome that happened that made me happy. It doesn’t matter what it is, just as long as it’s a good memory. It doesn’t even have to be a big, complicated memory. It can be like that time I ran my first 5K, or the time I switched on my emulator and it worked! It can be a quiet walk I took with Anne (I have a lot of those to choose from) and specifically how nice it felt to hold her hand. 

We have tons of good memories, and sometimes we have to make the effort and work hard to find them, especially when it’s easier to feel bad about something.

Also, it’s OKAY to recognize that a thing made you sad, and then sort of visualize putting it on a shelf or in a bag or just kicking it out of your way for a moment while you pay attention to that good memory.

There’s science which tells us that the experience of recalling something happy produces the same neurochemicals as actually having that experience, so even though this can feel like woo woo mystical bullshit, it’s a real thing.

So your homework is to think of an awesome thing that happened, just a moment when you were really happy, and recall something specific from that moment. Your brain may try to be a dick and do this thing where it goes, “and that’ll never happen again.” or “and I didn’t deserve it.” When your brain does that, it can be a challenge to stay focused on the good memory, but you can do it!