Iโll protect you, hold my hand right now
I know your heart better than anyone else
Iโll tell you my heart that Iโve hidden till now
I need you
More than anything else
Change, my heart that tried to hide
Change, times that I hurt you
Hold my hand
I want you hold my hand
TAKE - Jus2
That time you and Jackson hid away from the world after the media started up drama.
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warnings: depictions of depression, crying in the rain
summary: in the rain you share your true thoughts with your freind
a/n: just trying to figure out my own feelings the best way i know how. it was raining the other day, so i just sat outside and cried. it was refreshing and a little lonely. but very much needed.
The rain poured down, dropping the size of half dollars. They bounced off the roof, gushed from the water spout and flooded the yard in front of the patio. You sat on the steps, soaked down to your underwear. Silent. You watched the world around you drown and inhaled deeply as the cold water caused goosebumps to rise on your bare arms. Your face lifted towards the sky, grey with traces of dark clouds and fading pinks. Raindrops stung your eyes and you closed them slowly. Tears slipped down your face as you cried silently. Your tears mixed and washed away with the rain. No one would know.
The rain stopped and you sighed as the warmth of a body sat beside you. Rain pelted the umbrella above and you slowly opened your eyes. Beside you, familiar brown eyes pierced into your soul. Calculating and steady, they watched you unsure of what they were seeing. You turned your gaze back to the flooded ground and ran your hand over your face.
โYour pants will get wet.โ
โIโll be fine.โ
You looked at your friend of six years, silently. You could see the question in his eyes, the worry that framed his face and sat on his lips. His brown hair was hidden underneath a blue and white ball cap but you guessed that must have looked crazy. Why had he come outside in the rain when he was nice and comfy on the couch? You wanted to ask but the words didnโt come out. Should you tell him how you felt? Would he even understand?
โI feel like vanishing; like walking away and never looking back. I'm tired and I just don't want to do it anymore...life shouldn't be this fucking hard.โ
You heard the words leave your mouth and focused on a rather large puddle in the distance. The body beside you, strong and warm, scooted closer until your knees touched. You started to pick at your nail bed as you continued.
โI get so overwhelmed. I get caught up in so many emotions and then it just feelsโฆโ Your voice trailed off and you sighed with an empty laugh. โIs this what drowning feels like?โ
โNo, but it comes very close.โ
His voice shocked you, warm and soft as he spoke in time with the rain. So he did understand, huh? How foolish of you, of course he understood. The two of you were two sides of the same coin.
โJackson?โ
โHmm?โ
โIโm scaredโฆโ
โItโs okay to be scared, but know that Iโm right here. I see you- โ Jackson grabbed your hands and squeezed them tightly. โI will always see you. I wonโt let you vanish.โย
Hello I see you write for jackson. I HOPE its okay to request a one shot based on his recent tour from all the fancam footage. He calls you up to serenade you and give major fanservice and you were having fun dancing with him on stage as well. AFTER the show he invites you and your bestie to hang out afterwards.
Idk if you would write it due to the lil conterversery bout him but if you cant its cool.
I am always okay with writing Jackson Wang! Let me love that man until the end...anyway, I hope you like this lil fic.
Warning: Anxiety Attack, Grinding, Jackson in a mesh shirt, Body Rolling...nothing too crazy
Paring: Jackson x Reader
Rating: Teen (17+)
Summary: What starts out as a rough night morphs into the night of your life.
Word Count: 2.5K
A/N: Requested by the lovely @omgsuperstarg. Thank you so much for waiting and I hope this is okay. I wasn't sure if you were looking for something soft or smuty, so I went the softer route with a lil spice.
You were here, finally. Tonight, was the night that you would get to see Jackson Wang perform in person on stage. You were a little bummed that his VIP tickets sold out before you could get them, but it happens. You knew that it was a slim to none chance. Your tickets werenโt bad, you were still pretty close to the stage, if you got lucky, you could still squeeze your way to the barriers. Just in case you wore a pair of custom made nike sneakers. They were all back with green and yellow crystals mixed together on the checkmark. Your outfit was very simple, you didnโt want to dress too crazy in case it got a little too hot or someone got a little too excited. The last concert you got dressed up for, someoneโs ring got caught up in the ties of your shirt and you ended up flashing half the people around you.
A black mesh onesie that had an open back and cinched at the waist was paired with light washed jeans with rips in the thighs. The bedazzled green and yellow chunky belt added a little extra to the outfit and pulled everything together as it matched the mismatched yellow and green diamond earrings you wore. You wore your hair in its normal style and settled on a simple black winged eyeliner, a pop of silver shimmer in the corner of your eyes, a rose gold highlighter and lined your lips in black with a tinted lip gloss.ย
As you finished getting ready, your phone rang and you saw that your friend from online was calling. The two of you meant online and just clicked, it would be the sixth time that you would see each other in person. She was able to get a ticket to Jackson Wangโs sound check and you offered to let her stay at your place so that she wouldn't have to pay for a hotel. You grabbed your car keys, snatched your phone from the dresser and answered it. You were hit with the sound of your friend breathing heavily and a muffled voice in the background.
โHey, hey. Listen to me okay?โ You quickly rushed out of the house and hurried to your car. โIโm on my way to you. I need you to breathe with me, kay?โ You coached your friend through her anxiety attack. The phone sounded muffled for a moment before a new voice was on the line.
โHey, umโฆthis is Eddie. D-Do I need to do anything? Can I do anything to help?โ
โCan you just stay with her, please? Iโm fifteen minutes away. Is she outside the venue? God, I should have left with her.โ
โWeโre inside the venue. I passed her in the hallway and knew something was wrong.โ
โThank you, Eddie. I really appreciate you stopping to help her.โ You glanced at the time on the dashboard and frowned. โIf you're comfortable, she should have a bottle of klonopin in her bag, can you give her one. It will help with the attack.โ
โOne pill? Yeah. Yeah, okay.โ
โIโll be there soon. Please call me back if anything happens. Her password is 4687, it spells Got7.โ
The man, Eddie laughed lightly and a smile pulled at your lips. Good to know the stranger had good taste in music.
โSecurity just got here, they want to move your friend to somewhere safer that is not out in the open. Whatโs your name? They can wait for you at the front of the venue.โ
You gave your name to Eddie and hung up, determined to not crash as you sped towards the venue to help your friend. You reached the venue and parked, nearly crashing as you swerved into a spot. You made sure that you had your ID, phone and bag before you ran into the venue. You rushed past the long line of people waiting to get in and gave security your name as they tried to stop you from entering the building.ย
โRight this way.โ A guard led you into the building and you could hear the sound check starting up. You felt bad that your friend and the stranger, Eddie, were both missing it. The guard knocked on a door that had a do not enter sign on it and when the door opened you saw a young man that you didnโt know.
โEddie?โ You questioned and the guy smiled with a nod his head.
The two of you shook hands and you stepped inside the room. Your friend was curled into a ball on a couch with a bottle of her tucked into her lap.ย
โOh, sweetie.โ You walked over and sat beside her. Silently, you pulled her into your arms and smoothed your hand over her hair while you kissed the top of her head. โThank you, Eddie. I am so sorry that you missed part of the sound check. I can cashapp you for the trouble.โ
Eddie waved you off as your friend started to cry into your shoulder. She muttered how embarrassed she was and you shushed her. She had nothing to be embarrassed about, these attacks happened to a lot of people and there was nothing wrong with it. Eddie chimed in with his two sense and your friend sighed. You helped her get herself together, thankfully you had some makeup in your bag and were able to touch her up.ย
โDo you want to stay or go home?โ You asked your friend and she wanted to stay. She would call it quits early if she felt another attack coming on. The guard from before led the three of you to the sound check and another guard gave you an upgraded ticket so that you could stay with your friend in case something happened.ย
โThe perks of being my emotional support human!โ Your friend joked and you rolled your eyes as you melted into the crowd together with your new friend Eddie.
As people moved around, you slowly made your way to the front of the crowd and Eddie acted as your personal body guard as he made sure that no one touched your friend or got too close to her. You were thankful for him and the excitement for the actual concert started to hit once Jackson Wang disappeared from the stage. More people were let into the venue as the start time got closer and the same guard from before was in front of the barricade. He kept an eye on your friend and again you felt thankful for such kind people.
The whole venue was plugged into darkness and everyone screamed as the beginning note of 100 Ways started to play. Light slowly started to get brighter and smoke filled the stage before Jackson Wang himself appeared on stage. You thought your eardrums were going to bleed with how loud everyone had screamed. The set list was perfect, Jackson sang a lot of the songs that were your favorite. Your friend, Eddie and you sang along and danced your hearts out as Jackson threw his hips around on stage like no one business. The man looked good, dark make up on his face, silver blonde hair hung in his eyes and that black outfitโฆyeah mesh was made for him.
Water was thrown on the crowd, dancers interacted with those close to them and Jackson took a moment to address the crowd. His speech was nice, he spoke about himself, his hopes, his dreams and how he was feeling about himself nowadays. It was touching to know that he trusted everyone enough to share his thoughts and feelings so openly. After a few more songs, you noticed that Jackson had spotted someone. He kept coming over to your section of the crowd and interacted a lot more with those around you. Your friend touched his hand and you thought that she was going to die right there in front of everyone. Eddie was just as bad, the man almost dropped when Jackson tossed him a water bottle.ย
You were happy that your friends were enjoying themselves. At some point Jackson disappeared from the stage and the whole place went nuts. You blinked and it seemed like he just popped up in your section right in front of the barrier. He stood in front of you and grinned as he adjusted the mic by his mouth.
โHey. Do you have a boyfriend?โ
Jackson looked right at Eddie and you laughed, โHeโs a friend. No boyfriend.โ
โReally?โ Jackson sounded surprised and nodded his head before he waved his hand. โCome on up!โ He watched as the guards helped you over the barrier and he took your hand in his once you were safely on the ground.
You had seen videos of Jackson online where he had pulled fans up on stage and danced with them. It was wild and sexy. It was something you had dreamed about many, many times and now it was your turn. You glanced over your shoulder to look back at your friends and they were foaming at the mouth. Jackson led you on stage as the notes to 'The Moment' started to play and placed you in a chair in the middle of the stage. The moment you sat down the beat dropped and Jackson Wang was body rolling in front of your face. The black mesh shirt he had on didnโt hide anything and you drank in every inch of his pecs, abs and the thin patch of dark hair and disappeared into his black dress pants.ย
You felt hot, your face was warm and the music was so loud. Jackson was there in front of you and the next moment he wasnโt. He walked around you in a circle with the rest of his male dancers and you sat there numb and relaxed. So, he wanted to give a little dance, okay. Eye contact, and lots of it. Jackson didnโt look away from you once and you refused to back down from his challenge. He smirked as he dropped to his knees and body rolled slowly and when he rolled over and started humping the floor, his eyes were on you.
You bit your bottom lip and raised your eyebrow. Accepting your silent challenge, Jackson jumped to his feet and crowded your space. His legs were on either side of your thighs and he grabbed your face in his large hands. They burned your skin in the best way as he sang to you and booped your nose before he stepped away and started dancing again. The other dancers stroked your cheeks and winked at you as they moved about and you took it all in stride. A lap dance is a lap dance. Even if Jackson Wang was the one giving it, you werenโt going to back down.
Jackson came back in front of you and pulled you to stand up by your hand. The chair disappeared and it was just the two of you on stage dancing. He danced close, his body firm, sweaty and warm as he kept to the beat. You placed your hands on his shoulders and trailed them upward to the nap of his neck where you then fiddled with the ends of his hair and scratched your nails lightly against his skin. You felt Jackson shiver under your touch but his voice never wavered as he grabbed your hand and slid it down the length of his abdomen. He stopped just above his navel and you trailed your hands back, your fingers spread a little wider so that you could catch his nipple between them on purpose.
Jackson smirked and the song faded into 'Dead', where Jackson then grabbed your hand once again. He spun you around and pressed himself against your back as he sang in your ear. You felt his heart beating against your back and the warmth from his body seeped into your own. You were led into an open elevator and Jackson kept you close, as he pressed his forehead to yours, those icy blue contacts striking against his tanned skin tone. He continued to sing and you danced with him, giving the crowd more of a show than the rest of the fans that he pulled onto the stage.
You kept up with his body rolls and leaned into his touch. Your arms wrapped around the back of his neck as he sang, โSo, hold on, are you really dead to the world? Slow down, you're not really dead to the world.โย
You swayed your hips to the beat as Jackson cupped your face in his hands softly, his thumb stroked the apple of your cheek. His hands went to your hips, his forearms rested on your sides while his hands hung respectfully above the small of your back. You hid your face in his shoulder and laughed which made Jackson rest his cheek against the side of your head.
โRight now, I'm about to take you to the house, be under covers, lovers, dead to the world. You told me never take your time in vain.โ
The open elevator started to rise and you tightened your hold on him. You werenโt a huge fan of heights and your body tensed up a little. Jackson felt the tightness in your body and he pulled you into a hug as he finished out the song. His voice was strong and soothing in your ear as the elevator disappeared up out of sight. Jackson quickly turned his mic off and rubbed your back.
โI'm sorry. I didnโt ask if you were afraid of heights. Are you okay?โ
โIโm good. Iโll be better back on the ground.โย
Jackson huffed a small chuckle and held you tightly as the elevator started to come down behind the stage.
โYou can hang back here if you want or go back to your spot.โ
โMy friends-โ
โThey can come back too! I wouldnโt mind hanging with you all after the showโฆif you want?โ
As the elevator touched the ground Jackson pulled away from you and you grabbed his hand. He looked down at your hand around his and back up at you.
โWe would love to hang out after the show. Iโll be here.โ
Jackson grinned and you let go of his hand as he turned and told one of the guards to grab your friends. Jackson rushed off for a quick outfit change and a staff member offered you a chair. You accepted it and waited for your friends to arrive backstage. You saw them before they saw you and you rushed to their side.
โOh my God!โ
โBitchโฆwhat the fuck?!โย
Eddie and your friend were besides themselves as they gushed about how good you and Jackson looked together. You really didnโt mean to show out, you were just having fun. You didnโt want to waste a perfectly good opportunity to have fun, so you just enjoyed yourself and danced along.ย
โWe got invited to an afterpartyโฆโ
โWhat?!โ Eddie and your friend were dumbfounded. An afterparty? W-With Jackson Wang?
โWhat? He thought I was cool, and you losers are cool by default.โย
That time Jackson and his girl broke up because he felt like he was hurting her by always being away. After a few months of thinking about her nonstop, Jackson reached outย โcause he knew he messed up and he hopped that she would give him another chance.
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Act Natural: Y/N is leaving her hometown and taking her three year old son with her. What happens when the rain gets her stuck at the airport? ๐๐๐๐ฝ
Nแดแด Iษด Lแดแด แด ~ sfw ~ Angst ~ Unrequited Love ~ 324 ~ Jackson Wang & Black!Reader
Prompt #50 from @yandere-mccreeโ yandere starter list & Prompt #9 from @screnwriterโ unrequited love list
Tagging: @proudahgase-got7โ
โWhat?โ
You stare at Jackson, fiddling with your fingers as you try to find the courage to speak again. You open your mouth and close it, frowning a little. He waits, staring at you in concern. Jackson couldnโt have heard that correctly, right?
โY/N, lis-โ
โI want to tell you I love you, until my throat bleeds!โ You blurt out and wince once the words leave your lips. That sounds a lot less volent in your head. Jacksonโs eyes widen and he sits frozen. How can he respond to something like that? You watch him process your confession with wide expectant eyes. Surely, he loves you too. Thereโs no way your misread your relationshipโฆunless you did. The longer he sits beside you silently, the hope in your eyes fades and it kills him to see your pain.
Jackson reaches out to touch your face with his hand and your skin is so hot under his touch. Maybe you are sick and talking nonsense. Maybe this is all just a really weird dream, he always got weird dreams if he ate chocolate before bed as a child. Something wet caresses his thumb and pulls him from his thoughts. Shit. Youโre crying and he hasnโt even said anything yet. Softly, slowly, Jackson wipes at your tears, treating you like the most fragile object in the world.
โY/N-โ He licks his lips and sighs deeply before he pulls you into his arms, holding you tightly in his embrace. Your tears soak through his shirt and sting his skin as you cry. God, he feels like such an asshole right now. How? How did he miss the moment your feelings for him changed? Why couldnโt he see the love that you held for him until it was too late? โY/NโฆI care about you. I always will. But I donโt โ I mean I do. I love you, but not the way you want. Iโm not in love with you.โ
Jackson prompt 9 โYou need to wake up because I canโt do this without youโ - 1.4K - SFW - Angst - Single Parent AU
โDid we forget anything?โ
Jackson looks over at his wife as she does a mental checklist on her green manicured fingers of everything that should be packed away in the trunk. He glances in the rearview mirror and smiles at the large brown eyes that stare back at him.
โWe got everything, sweet cheeks. We double checked last night, remember?โ Jackson takes his foot off the break and pulls out of the driveway.
โEssence, baby you, okay?โ Y/N asks as she turns in her seat, her knotless braids swing as she looks back at her seven year old daughter.
The little girl smiles and nods her head, โCan we get boba on the way to port Baba?โ Jackson pretends to think over his daughterโs question and Y/N rolls her eyes while Essence juts her bottom lip out. โPlease, Baba? Itโs the only thing we donโt have!โ
Y/N laughs and Jackson cracks a smile while he nods his head, โYeah, baby. We can get boba.โ
โMommy?โ
โYeah?โ
Essence swings her feet in her booster seat as she looks out the window, โHow long are we staying on the water? Do you think weโll see any mermaids?โ
โMermaids?!โ Jackson widens his eyes at the question and Essence giggles. โI want to see a mermaid!โ
โBaba!โ Essenceโs giggles fill the whole car, and it puts a smile on her parentโs faces. This is a moment that they will remember forever.
Y/N watched from her spot on the side of the pool as Jackson swam the length of the pool with Essence on his back. Essenceโs curls were now twisted together into matching box braids, keeping their hair protected and Jackson was smitten. He loved it when his ladies matched. Essence tried to braid Jacksonโs hair, but it wasnโt long enough to stay put. The sun is high above the cruise ship as it sails through the water, making Y/Nโs dark skin glow, a true beacon of unbothered. Laughter and chatter fill the air from all the people on the ship and Y/N smiles as the sun warms her body.
โMommy! Come swim with us!โ Essence shouts from her spot on Jacksonโs back and Y/N fakes a yawn making Essence pout. Y/N smiles at her daughter and sets her book down, โBaba, mommy is gonna swim!โ Essence pushes off Jacksonโs back and doggie paddles over to the side of the pool. ย The next few hours are spent in and out of the pool. Itโs a day that the Wang family wonโt forget.
In todayโs news, Chinese K-pop Idol, Jackson Wangโs wife Y/N Wang was rushed to the hospital. While on vacation Y/N was being chased by a group of Sasaengโs. It was during the chase that Y/N was stuck by a vehicle, and she is now in critical condition.
Tears stream down Jacksonโs face as he clutches Essence in his arms. The little girl cried herself to sleep as she begged her mother to wake up. Jackson felt numb, h-how did this happen? He had been so careful with his planning. He made sure that only a handful of people knew about his familyโs vacation. It had been a while since the three of them were able to get away and enjoy some family timeโฆnowโฆnow Jackson canโt help but blame himself. Where did he go wrong? Who found out? Why did these young girls care so much about his personal life? It wasnโt like Y/N and Essence were a secret, everyone knew about his family, and they were received with open arms from his fans. ย So why, why was Y/N here laying in a hospital bed in a country that they didnโt know much about?
The doctors all say that Y/N doesnโt show any signs of waking up, not yet at least. They will monitor here for a week and then transfer her to China, so Jackson can have his support system close by.
โEssie! Letโs go, youโll be late to school!โ Jackson shouts up the steps while he holds a green and purple covered bento box in his hands.
โIโm not going!โ Essence yells down and Jacksonโs mind goes into overdrive hearing the tears in his daughterโs voice. Dropping the lunch in his hands, Jackson takes the steps two at a time as he runs to his daughterโs room.
โW-whatโs wrong, baby?โ Jackson burst into Essenceโs room and his heartbreak when he sees the little girl sitting in front of her mirror with a million broken hair ties and clips around her. Thereโs hair gel spilled on the yellow duck area rug, a broken comb lays by Jacksonโs feet and he knows that Essence threw it. Jackson takes a deep breath and holds his hands out in front of him. โOkayโฆitโs okay Essie.โ Jackson offers the tearful little girl a reassuring smile. โLet Baba help you.โ
Essence eyes her father skeptically. She has never had Jackson do her hair and she isnโt sure that he even knows how to. Jackson rolls his eyes at the look that Essence gives him and walks over to her, โHow hard can it be, huh? My hands are huge, so donโt worry.โ Jackson tsks at Essenceโs mess and turns his attention to her crazy puff of hair. Jackson tries to recall everything that Y/N told him about their daughterโs hair. Essence has thick hair and itโs very dry, always needs moisture. Jackson looks around for the squirt bottle that he sees Y/N use and he doesnโt see it. โHold on.โ Jackson walks into the bathroom and grabs a few things that he knows Y/N has used on Essenceโs hair.
Stepping back into the room, Jackson grins, โLetโs get it!โ Jackson tackles the task of doing Essenceโs hair and in the end itโs a complete failure which leaves the poor girl in tears. Stepping out of the room, Jackson calls the school and asks for two more daysโฆhe just needs a little more time to adjust to doing this alone.
โIโm sorry Mr. Wang, but Essence has missed enough school. If you donโt want the cops to get involved, she needs to be here todayโฆI am very sorry.โ
Jackson groans as he hangs up the phone. His eyes burn and he quickly blinks away his tears. Now is not the time to cry, he needs to be strong. Essence needs him to be strong. Making a call to one of his stylists, Jackson recruits the older womanโs help to do Essenceโs hair. The older woman comes to Jacksonโs aid in less than thirty minutes and in only fifteen minutes she has styled Essenceโs hair into a sleek and puffy mohawk.
The rise and fall of her chest, the endless beeping that follows the steady beat of her heartโฆit shows that Y/N is alive even though Jackson canโt believe it with his own eyes. His wife, his beautiful queen that he would worship day in and outโฆ
Jacksonโs hands shake as he slips them around Y/Nโs motionless one. Her hand is chilled but still warm to the touch, another sign that sheโs still alive. His fingers squeeze around Y/Nโs hand and Jackson rests his head on her wrist as he lets out a long sigh, broken as his tears fall from his eyes. There is nothing silent about Jacksonโs cries as he falls apart by his wifeโs bedside. The weight of being alone is slowly crushing him, the demand to be the perfect dad in the public eye, to make no mistakes while he waits for you to wake up. He canโt do this, itโs too hard, heโs failing, and Essence is too sweet to say so.
โY-you need to wake up because I-I canโt-โ Jackson chokes on his words. Heโs pathetic, here Y/N is in the hospital fighting for her life and Jackson is crying, begging her to wake up to make his life easier. He groans and bangs his head against Y/Nโs wrist as more tears fall from his eyes. โI c-canโt do this without you.โ In the hall unknown to Jackson, his friends Jaebeom and Youngjae stand outside the door with flowers in their hands and tears stinging their eyes. They can hear Jacksonโs broken cries from the other side of the door and they both have a silent conversation. Jaebeom nods his head and Youngjae walks away from the door with his phone pressed tightly to his ear. This calls for all hands-on deck and the rest of Got7 will come running.