Sometimes when you're getting lost in a self-deprecating anxiety spiral and feeling fucked up (stressed, paranoid, guilty, etc.), the best thing you can do is... paint a fucked up (vaguely sinister), abstract creature in dark colors on your favorite free sketch app on your phone? Until you feel some of the pressure let up and you remember that you're not so much fucked up (bad, unworthy, harmful, unloveable) as you are simply fucked up (imperfect, fallible, doing your best)? Until you feel like things are a little less terrible?
I usually paint more positive things, trying to use it as a relaxing hobby where it doesn't matter how unskilled or unrefined I am, but I guess I can do a type of vent art too. It's more helpful for me than I'd expected.
