#snperior

Sam, Sam, Sam~

How are you doing? It’s been a while, right? Yeah, sorry for disappearing like this, I kinda had some problems. Now I’m at the hospital, that’s why I’m not there annoying you. heh. But don’t worry, it’ll end up soon, so yeah.

First of all, I wanted to apologize for everything. I know I’m not the best person in the world, nor the best friend or anything, but I need you to know that the most I irritated you, the funnier it was. I had a lot of fun with you and I’ll never regret the time we spent together, even though we were discussing and frowning at each other, I always treasured those moments. 

It’s all weird to write things like these, right? The truth is that maybe when you come back I won’t be here anymore. I’ll finally shut up, but then I won’t be able to take care of you ever again… It saddens me, y’know? I know how much you’re broken and I had promised to myself I’d always take care of you since you couldn’t do it yourself 100% of the time. Even if I hadn’t told you about this promise, I’ll end up breaking it. Forgive me, JiAe. 

You know, you should stop smoking and drinking, it’s not healthy and I don’t want you to end up in a hospital like I am right now. It’s boring and people keep touching you all the time, you’d hate it so much I don’t doubt you’d try to escape every time you had the chance. Typical of my monochrome flower. But then again, I’d prefer you not to go through it. It’s too painful even for me, so please, take care.

Promise me you’ll take care of yourself and nor get in trouble? I won’t be able to be there for you physically. Actually I’ll always be by your side, looking for you and praying you find someone who can do the same, but even much more than the little I could do as your friend. At least you can cook rice now, right? We didn’t spend so much time together enough for me to teach you to make the kimchi you liked so much, this is a problem. So find someone who can cook for you, okay? 

Also, don’t you dare forgetting me. I won’t forgive you if you do. And with my last goodbye I wanted to say that I really love you, hm? We’re always fighting and all, I never had the chance to say a nice thing for you. You’re an amazing person and I thank God everyday for having met you that day. You might not believe me, but I really enjoyed every moment we spent together, because that was when got closer and closer. For someone like me who couldn’t even talk to a girl properly, being able to grow closer to you was a fantastic thing. You helped me in turning into a better person, so yeah, thank you, JiAe. You’re an angel. And I’m really happy that God sent me an angel to light my way in life. Now it’s my turn to take care of you and help you, but I’ll do it in a way you won’t notice so soon. Behind the scene, I’ll be there. Hugging you when you’re sad, taking the syringe from your hand when you have a breakdown and kissing your forehead goodnight when you’re cold. Just like when I did all this time.

Thank you for being my friend, my precious JiAe.  

                        See you someday,