"I amā¦ a wizard." Severus had never been this nervous in his whole life and trying to maintain his usual tone, seriously the hardest job right now. He kept looking at you waiting for an answer. He would not have been surprised if you had screamed or jumped up in surprise because he had told you his truth after calculating all of the possible reactions. He had his mind made up, he wasn't gonna lie to you anymore, at least not with this.
"You what?" You exclaimed, your expression had turned even more bewildered. You were pretty sure you heard him wrong.
"A wizard, (Y/N). Just listen t-" He was beginning to say but you could not hear anything after he told you what he was, if you heard him right, a wizard. All other words out of his mouth were mute to you.
"B-but they don't exist. Wizards are- they are just fantasies! There's no such thing a-as magic!" You were almost shouting. Seeing you panic so much Severus thought- well, was sure- that he had made the wrong choice. You did not take it well apparently but he knew this could happen. He was positive this would be the end of your 'friendship'.
"That is what you think. There is so much you do not know that exists." He tried to maintain himself calm while also doing the same for you.
You suddenly got up causing Severus to look up, a hint of surprise on his face. This was it, you were going to leave him or so he thought.
"Tell me its some joke, Sev. It's seriously not funny." Of course it was not a joke, his face was all you needed to know he wasn't being 'funny'.
Severus took your hand in his and made you sit again. You two had been looking intently at each other and had hardly broken the eye contact even once.
You felt vulnerable under his touch and you could feel your face redden, even if it wasn't the right time to blush. You wished for him to not notice him and God knows if he ever did, his face never reflected any of his thoughts. But, his eyes were filled with so many emotions, mainly remorse.
"It's not. Why would I ever lie to you? I would never want to break your trust, you know that." His voice was soft and low and his expression melted.
"Then why did you not tell me before?" You tried to maintain a steady voice but you knew it would break very soon.
Severus was lost for words. What would he say? The truth was still unclear to him, he wasn't even sure why he told you now.
"I- I did not want to lose you." He almost whispered. You had not noticed but the gap between the two of you had lessened and you were barely inched away from each other.
With your other hand you held his and replied, "I d- don't know, Severus. I always feel like I know nothing about you. I thought we were friends, "
"But we are, (Y/N)." He said shortly, he was hurt. So were you.
"I thought so too." You said in a barely audible whisper while slowly loosening your hands from his grip. You looked down at your feet and your eyes began to water. Believing he was a wizard was impossible for you. You had never heard anything of such kind. But also, your heart was not ready to believe he would lie, to you. And even if he was a wizard, even if he could do magic, how would ever be able to be with him like you were before?
You got up again, preparing to leave. But of course Severus was not gonna let you go so easily. He did not tell you his true identity just to see you leave.
"(Y/N) dont. Please. I can show you..." He said, placing his finger under your chin to make you look up to him. You resisted but once again, you were weak under his tender touch. You did not want him to see you crying. It broke his heart to see you like this, specially because he was the reason.
A part of you told you that it was wrong to believe him. But a part of you told you that he would never lie to you, that he would never break your trust and evidently the other part's opinion was much, much stronger. You were the one who hid your birthday from him, he wasn't the one to lie to you about something but then again, he never really did tell you something about himself.
You opened your mouth to speak something but closed it again. The words would come out and it was harder to believe that this all wasn't a dream. What was he going to show you? Was this for real?
"Close your eyes." Severus said as he stepped one step closer and seeing no other option, you did accordingly. Your stomach was twisting, again the same feelings. Damn these hormones!
"Trust me." He whispered, sending chills down your spine, as he very often did. You could feel him very close to you and you began breathing heavily. Your heart rate increased every second and you soon felt him taking your hands in his.
Then suddenly, you felt strange. Extremely strange and sick. Everything seemed to revolve around you and because your eyes were closed, you could not see what was happening. A moment ago, you felt likeā¦ floating and now, in a mere blink of an eye, you felt ground beneath your feet. What was he doing? Whatever it was, it made you feel very, very uneasy. Thank goodness you did not faint but you were really dizzy. He had gripped your hands tighter to make sure you did not fall.
Severus had closed his own eyes too and within seconds he spoke, "You may open them now."
You slowly opened them, scared of what you might see. Severus had not told you what he was about to do, he was a wizard even though you still couldn't completely believe it. You had spent years studying science and now a person tells you he could do magic and sorts, it was going to be extremely hard to trust the fact that another world existed where people with magical powers lived and where there were wonders you had never even dreamed of.
When you finally opened your eyes, you couldn't believe them. You saw Severus standing in front of you, still very close and hands intertwined. He was not all you could see, your eyes trailed around the surroundings. You were no longer in his house. No walls and no roof!
"Sorry about the sickness, it happens." He told you, finally releasing your hands from his grip, realising how long he had been holding them. You looked around and seeing what you were seeing, you pinched your arm to make sure you were not dreaming.
"Ouch... It is real." You muttered under your breath. Then you turned around again for a better view of everything around you.
You were in an open field, the sun was setting and the sky was red. All around your feet was long, thick grass. It was neither too hot not too cold, it was pleasant and quiet. Tall trees were behind you and not a single soul could be seen in front of you. You knew for sure you weren't in London anymore but still had no idea where you could possibly be now.
(The location should look something like this, just the sky was a bit redder.)
"S- Severus, what is this? I mean, how did we? Di- Did you do this?" You asked turning towards him. He would have been amused by your reaction but he was in no such place. He was hesitating and afraid of what could happen now. He had apparated with a muggle, again. And it was you both the times, of course you did not remember the first time.
He sighed and replied, "Yes. I want you to believe that I am not lying to you about anything. Try to understand, (Y/N)."
"I- I am, but this, " You paused to glance around you again, "this is unbelievable. And I thinkā¦ in a good way." Severus could see the slightest hint of a smile but disappeared as soon as it came but it was enough. Enough to know he could hope for something.
"Really?" He asked, tilting his head a bit. Severus Snape was a person who wasn't expected to look cute but right now, he was and there was no denying it.
"Perhaps." You replied mocking his tone to which he raised his eyebrow. Very attractively in fact.
There were no tears in your eyes now, but excitement about what oddity just happened. And there you were! The best of you showed, you were back. The most astonishing fact that Severus found about you was how easy-going you were. All the time. You let go of old things very easily. Maybe that is what made you so special.
Not only your mood was lit up by the new surroundings but also you lift up Severus' spirits too. He was confident now. Confident that you might start to trust him and most importantly accept. It somewhat disturbed him that he needed you to accept him.
You approached him and he looked down to maintain the eye contact as you came closer to him. It was strange how hard it was for any of you to break it. It was like you never wanted to be free from each other's gaze.
For a minute you hesitated to do anything but then you hugged him lightly, still hesitant.
"I'm sorry." You whispered and he judged by your voice you were crying.
"Shh..Its alright. It was my fault anyway." You battled your urge to protest his statement but at the moment, you had found so much of comfort in his arms that you did not say anything.
He pulled away slightly only to wipe your tears.
After that, you sat down on the soft grass, pulling Severus down with you. He resisted but failed. You sat silently for many minutes which felt like hours. You were watching the beautiful sunset, it was one like you had never seen before.
"Where are we, Sev?" You asked breaking the silence.
"Someplace away from everyone's eyes." He replied but did not look at you.
You pouted, "Why can't you ever answer my questions properly?"
He faced you now, a smirk on his face. He did not respond and you scowled. "Don't do that." He remarked.
"Why? You're not the only one permitted to do that. Its not like I need a license to frown, Mr. Grim." You tried to sound cold like him which only amused him more although he was not really pleased with your way of addressing him.
"Very well." You turned away, "But tell me, do you mean to say that the blonde-man was a wizard and he vanished with magic?"
"Yes, and that is how I did it."
"Cool." You commented earning a frown of confusion for him.
"Cool? You find magic cool?" He said in his drawling tone.
"Well, yes. Everything must be so easy."
Performing tasks with magic was easy, true, but the challenges faced by the wizarding community were a nightmare. Specially for Severus for he had a secret no one but Dumbledore and he knew.
"So you believe me then?"
"I never doubted you but it is still hard toā¦ accept."
"Take your time." He softly told you. You smiled at him and then again a comforting silence spread over you.
I told her to take her time. At least I know she was trying. It was a huge relief for me to know that she did not think I was a liar. Even though she did not take it well in the beginning, she took it better than I had expected in the end.
I feel like she has become a part of my life. I don't want it to be true, it can't possibly be. My mind says it's not right but my heart says otherwiseā¦ Everything is bright around her, she makes me smile. Genuinely. I never even knew I would ever be capable of it after whatever happened. For some moments, all the worries vanish but they come back as soon as she leaves. What is my heart doing to me?
It's weird, super weird. Magic always sounded so absurd to me but here I am, believing Severus. I seriously do not know what I should do. Something makes me want to trust him, no matter what. Because if I do not, I'll lose another person I hold dear.
It's really complicated. I thought I was capable of handling situations well but apparently I am not. Right now I do not care who or what Severus is. It feels right to be with him and that is what I am doing and hopefully will do in the future. He might be a 'gloomy' person but he seems to have made a permanent spot in my heartā¦ What's happening? I never feel this but I am now.
The whole 'wizard' thing is too much to handle right now. I'm trying to get it off my mind and see the positives of it even though it's so crazy. I am glad that Severus decided to share it with me. Well, it does seem better this way, after all I can't go fussing about everything afterā¦ that's a whole other point. At present, at this moment I am just happy to have met a person like him because he is someone who makes me feel right. The only one.
A/N: Thanks for reading. Please let me know what you think of it because I am not really satisfied with this one. Its sometimes hard to write something that won't be too unhappy and make it as real as possible. I really hope you liked this chapter. Also, the updates might be less frequent for the next two weeks though I will try to upload a chapter or two a week. Thanks again and lots of love to ya allā¤ā¤
