#smurffan

You're sleeping next to me. I wish I was able to sleep, but that's okay. The rhythm of your heartbeat and breathing are like music to me. Making me feel safe with their familiarity. I love their song. I love the way you reach out to hold me in your sleep, just to know I'm still right here. My life is such a fucked up wreck right now, I thanked you for staying with me and putting up with everything with me. You told me no. Thanking me for letting you stay with me through all this. Honestly at first I didn't want to, I'm vulnerable and I was afraid to let you see me that way. But I figured what have I really got to lose, and god. I'm so happy we're together. You practically save me by keeping me sane and reminding me I'm strong enough to make it through this. You're incredible to say the least. I have something I want to say to you so badly, it's soon. But it's constantly on my mind, anytime I look at you, hear you, read something you wrote to me. I have to catch myself from saying it. You told me you'd catch me, I'm hanging by the very edge now, trying to hold out as long as I can. I know you feel it too though, there's not a doubt in my mind.