I have really been struggling with a lot of things lately, having my name tarnished by rumors and outright lies by people that I thought were my friends and even have people I care about turn their backs on me without even talking to me about it first. Sometimes how fast things get around in this city is astounding but I know what I did was right and if anyone cared to ask me I would have told them. Ever since then my self image has been garbage. I hate how I look and I’m always sad for no discernible reason. It’s made me afraid to trust people or even reach out to ones I do trust. Because im starting to believe the bullshit and the slander because everyone else does to it seems. Pair that with my inner demons and feeling like a failure with my recent job interview and it leads me down a very dark path. Thankfully I have Siobhan, who has been amazing and patient with me as well as Meghan and Stephanie. To the friends I have left....thank you for sticking around and please be patient with me as I am really struggling right now. #rubydoll #girlslikeus #toxiccommunity #smalltowntownproblems #depressionsucks