#toxiccommunity

Swat Nation is Banned and blacklisted from my community cause of there trolling member's are very toxic and rude so please don't ever be a part of of them cause there not friendly people at all they have been stealing my member's and making false accounts of mine and so please don't be fooled by there fake accounts they make to make me look bad i would love my fans to report them and block them asap! #bannedswatnation #blockswatnation #TOXICcommunity https://www.instagram.com/p/B4LcXYEhcWD/?igshid=3b6dr5zdthdl

I have really been struggling with a lot of things lately, having my name tarnished by rumors and outright lies by people that I thought were my friends and even have people I care about turn their backs on me without even talking to me about it first. Sometimes how fast things get around in this city is astounding but I know what I did was right and if anyone cared to ask me I would have told them. Ever since then my self image has been garbage. I hate how I look and I’m always sad for no discernible reason. It’s made me afraid to trust people or even reach out to ones I do trust. Because im starting to believe the bullshit and the slander because everyone else does to it seems. Pair that with my inner demons and feeling like a failure with my recent job interview and it leads me down a very dark path. Thankfully I have Siobhan, who has been amazing and patient with me as well as Meghan and Stephanie. To the friends I have left....thank you for sticking around and please be patient with me as I am really struggling right now. #rubydoll #girlslikeus #toxiccommunity #smalltowntownproblems #depressionsucks