genuinely nonsensical novacek braindump:
picture repressed gay slovacek x "i wouldnt date a guy" bisexual nash in a situationship.
okay. slovacek, on a material level, understands that he likes dick. now would he call himself gay? even internally? absolutely not. it's what he hates most about himself; it doesn't fit the image he wants to portray. he wants to be the tough guy, the jailbird, the badass main character in all the movies. and the guy in the movies is never a fag. if he can't be that guy, the only thing to do is to make the other recruits think he's that guy. sure, he has flings. he keeps it to himself. but he can't stop himself from imagining a relationship. a real one. when he has feelings for a guy he tends to push them down completely and settle for longing looks. hope they don't notice. but nash, nash notices. and he likes him too. and that wasn't part of slovacek's plan.
nash is one of those guys who's only bisexual at parties. ok jk lol but that's what he tells himself. he's a rich kid and he has a lot of fun. he can make out with his friends when he's drunk and laugh about it when he's sober, it's not gay. he's even had a few "boyfriends", believe it or not. it's just teenage rebellion. (it's not.) the thing about being queer in the 90's was that you didn't see any actual queer shit on tv or in pop culture at all, and therefore you didn't have any gay relationships to look up to. all the relationships he's had with guys, nash couldn't see them as real, just casual little affairs he could pick up and put down when he wanted. so what, he could kiss girls, and he could kiss guys. it's not like he'd marry one or anything.
and together? theyre a fuckin mess lol. slovacek freaking out every time nash does something sweet or tender because he's scared of how much he wants it. nash trying to convince himself it's just sex, just kissing, just laughing and fun and looks from across the room, and he's surprised when slovacek won't let him walk away. a huge fight about what they are. they start making out in the middle of it but slovacek shoves him off because he's genuinely angry and genuinely fell for him. nash realizing too late that okay, maybe he would like to date a guy, for real.
is this anything????
