okay so. here’s a weird thing that’s happened to me twice this week that someone on line might??? get??? recognize??? have a name for??? because my google search did nothing!
it’s the second time this has happened. i’m tired, I lock up the house, I go to bed. i’m tired, but I can’t go to sleep, and I lay there, not thinking, just awake. and then i’m in the most vivid nightmare I've ever had, I could recount it step for step right now, it feels like it’s actually happening, and like it goes on for hours.
I literally jerk awake. my chest hurts, the way anxiety makes it hurt. for a split second, i’m not sure if it was a dream or if there’s really a horde of opossums outside on the deck. I look at the alarm clock.
it’s been four minutes.
this happens on a repeating loop for the next six hours, at four to ten minute intervals. I finally manage to fall asleep for about a half hour instead of a handful of minutes, but wake up the same way, only this time unable to remember any dream.
is this??? is this a thing??? this has happened twice in the last week, and I've never had it happen to me before.
anyone got thoughts?
