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I've been so inactive the last week that I had to think about the last time we say Darren in order to comment. I think it was when he did AJ's show? (how was that by the way - did you go?)

Blaine’s not sure if he can trace it back to what started it, or who started it. All he knows is that Kurt is his best friend, and Kurt is here, and Kurt is currently doing things to him that a best friend usually wouldn’t.  

His mouth is on him – has been for the better part of the last half hour, everywhere, all over – and it’s overpowering in the most tangling way, like they’re making knots and bows and tying them so tight that there’s no way they could ever unravel. And that’s a lot to process, so Blaine just focuses on the way Kurt’s using his tongue and how his own back is arching because of it. How he’s practically writhing, and how Kurt is the reason why. Not why he’s the reason why, just that he is.  

“God, Ku-” but he cuts himself off, not sure if he’s allowed to say his name. Not sure what this is at all, really, because they’ve barely spoken since they snapped.

Because that’s what it had felt like. A snap. Like they were a pencil being held with a grip too tight, or a piece of string being pulled too taut. And there was no slack in their friendship, never had been, just tension and a stretch that they were both committed to ignoring. Blaine had never been able to figure out why they ignored it, though. And he can’t figure out if this is still ignoring it, because even though he knows the taste of him now, he doesn’t know if he’s allowed to put the taste into words and say them.

It’s not until afterwards – both of them a breathing, worn-out mess on Blaine’s bed – that he traces it back. Kurt had come over to watch Summer Stock, and that was normal. It wasn’t their first rodeo with Judy and Gene. But Kurt had walked through the door with a weird energy, as if even just placing the lightest of pressure to his skin would make it spark and burn. And then Blaine had lent over him to get to the remote, not thinking, not remembering the electricity of Kurt tonight, and that was what had started it. But Kurt was the one to snap them. Kurt was the one to stop Blaine from moving back to his spot with a hand on his waist; Kurt was the one that had looked at him with a fire sitting there, just behind his eyes; Kurt was the one to kiss him. Kurt was the one. 

(And Blaine was so glad he did. God, he was glad). 

And now Kurt is the one getting up, getting dressed, acting like this was just some casual one-night stand, and not sex with his best fucking friend.  

“Kurt, what are you doing?”

He hesitates, one leg in his jeans and a shake in his hands that Blaine notices, wishes he could soothe. “Oh... I don’t- I don’t know. I wasn’t sure...”

“Come here,” and he flicks the duvet down, gestures to the other side of the bed, tries to hide how desperate he is for Kurt to get in it again. And then he does, but they’re still not really sure what is happening and what they are, so they just lay next to each other and breathe.  

Blaine closes his eyes and turns his head a little towards Kurt and it’s not on purpose, necessarily, but he’s too scared to actually look at him and so this will have to do. He is really tired so his chest starts to move deeper and with a weight to it pretty quickly, and then Kurt whispers his name. He’s awake, and he heard him, but he can’t find a way to reply, so he doesn’t.

Kurt slips out of the bed – he feels the dip and then the absence, and he hears the footsteps padding across his bedroom floor. And then he hears Kurt’s voice, quiet and a little panicked out in the hallway, and he keeps his eyes shut.  

“Quinn? I’m sorry, I know it’s late.”

Blaine can’t hear Quinn’s side of the conversation – but he hears Kurt’s. Hears him tell her about what just happened, and how he’s terrified, and that he feels like he just made the biggest mistake of his life. And Blaine feels the knots and bows from earlier but in his stomach, twisting, making him feel like he can’t move or breathe or think. Kurt regrets it. Kurt regrets what just happened and they can’t go back – Kurt snapped them, and they are broken now, and they can’t be glued back together. They are two separate pieces, and they risked their friendship for what?

Sex. And Blaine had been so sure he was finding love in amongst it all, in the way Kurt held his face when they kissed and held his hand when they fucked and held his gaze when they came. Maybe not, though. Clearly not.

“I don’t know.” Kurt murmurs, and then, a moment later, “I don’t know, Quinn. I think maybe- but. Yes, I’m still at his.” Another moment and, “Well, he wanted me to stay. Yes. I know that’s not usually- Yes. Okay.” A wait, a sigh, “Do you really think so?”

Blaine wants to know what Quinn is saying, so desperately.

“Because I’m in love with him, Quinn. What if I’ve just ruined it? Ruined us?”  

And the knots and the ties loosen, let him breathe again, and Kurt is in love with him. Kurt Hummel is in love with him. And he wants to laugh, really, because why didn’t they just start with that, for god’s sake?

Kurt thanks Quinn, and tells her he loves her, and then the padding is back and so is Kurt. In his bed and so close to him he might shudder, and then there’s a fingertip on his face, painting the outline of his features.  

He knows that he should let Kurt know he’s not actually asleep, but the touch feels too nice to interrupt and he wants to be selfish. And then, when he’s pretty sure Kurt is the one that's asleep, he says it.  

“I’m in love with you, too.”

Author : Notarelationship @slayediest​​

What other Glee Fandom authors do you enjoy? Can you recommend some of your favorite fics?

Okay!  I read a lot but not everything - there are so many Klaine fics and I can be kinda picky about tropes, and there are a lot of things that are just not my jam (but yay! variety!).

That said! I love so many authors in this fandom, and lately I have seen a bunch of new (or at least new to me) authors and stuff pop up on my dash, and I highly recommend the things I've seen from @hippohead​, @kurtstinypurse​, @slipping-through-my-fingertips​ and @coffeeorderwrites​ (and I know there are some of you I’m forgetting! I think you’re all great!! Keep it up I love it!)  I see these on tumblr but they may be on AO3 too?  They are all writing sweet, romantic, yearning Klaine stories and I'm so happy when they pop up on my dash.

Other stuff I like a lot!!

The Symphony Verse by Shandyall - One of the first things I stumbled on when I started watching Glee, and I give a lot of credit to this amazing marathon for making me fall in love with these fellas, no matter what stories we got on screen (which I also love!)

It should go without saying, but the complete catalog of @missbeizy​, and @misqueue​‘s amazing fic, both writers that frequently write stuff I think I wouldn't be into, but I can and do read (and reread) anything in their very capable hands.

No, the one beside the sex shop by @slowcookedwriting​ - super sweet, very current take on everyone’s new favorite trope.

Small Things, and A Marvelous Work and a Wonder from @wowbright​ - the Mormon!Klaine universe, and a real (surprising to me!) fave. (I am an atheist who loves to read smut fics. This is none of that and it’s great. Please check it out if you haven’t!)

Anything from villiageidiot - fun and frequently funny aus!

Dancing in the Dark by @flowerfan2​ - Early Klaine fumbling, and amazingly sweet.

Enemies With Benefits by @klaineanummel​ - Enemies/idiots, potato/potahto. Written for me for a fic exchange and I SWEAR I WILL FINISH MINE SOME DAY.

Not Like the Movies by Knightlycat - there’s a whole verse, but it starts with Famous!Kurt and Bodyguard!Blaine and it’s a total romp.

Here I Am Honey by @luckiedee​ - a basically perfect Dirty Dancing AU

How to Deal by @mailroomorder​ - idiots to lovers is my favorite trope, and man are they idiots. A terrific college AU.

OOh 

1. Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough

2. French Vanilla (I like this along with a chocolate cake slice) 

3. Strawberry

4. Blue Moon

8. best book/book series of the year?

I haven’t read a lot of books this year - I bought a bunch of books and just have not made my way through them. But I did thoroughly enjoy F.T. Lukens “The Rules and Regulations for Mediating Myths and Magics” and “Monster of the Week.” Fun and enjoyable reads. 

9. best television series?

Star Trek: Discovery and Star Trek: Picard. They have given me back my excitement over Star Trek again - excellent story telling, engaging plots and subplots, and just fantastic characters. 

23. one of the best meals you’ve had this year?

Even one of the extras who called out Lea said that Darren was super nice and had invited them to sit with the group. (Not that he needs me defending him lol.)

Agreed. It’s much better to spend our time pretending to insult his clothing and face and body. 

Thank you for tagging me @slayediest!

1. Slowburn or Love at First Sight

2. Fake Dating or Secretly Dating

3. Enemies to Lovers or Best Friends to Lovers

4. “Oh no, there’s Only One Bed” or Long Distance Correspondence

5. Hurt/Comfort or Amnesia

6. Fantasy AU or Modern AU

7. Mutual Pining or Domestic Bliss

8. Smut or Fluff

9. Canon-Compliant/Missing Scenes or Fix-It

10. Alternate Universe or Future Fic

11. One Shot or Multi-chapter

12. Kid Fic or Road trip Fic

13. Reincarnation or Character Death

14. Arranged Marriage or Accidental Marriage

15. High School Romance or Middle-Aged Romance

16. Time Travel or Isolated Together

17. Neighbours or Roommates

18. Sci Fi AU or Magic AU

19. Body swap or Gender change

20. Angst or Crack

21. Apocalyptic or Mundane

Some of these were very hard choices but I did my best!

A quiche works at every meal and with every possible drink.

A quiche is magic.  And now I really want quiche. And also a mimosa.