#skh

they say we're losers, and we're alright with that 👏🏻 👏🏻 👏🏻 👏🏻

but what if i AM going insane what if i DO have bad brains and crazy dreams and low self esteem though? what if 'my friend' IS a slob?

one thing I’ve dreamed about doing for a while is to write or play worship songs that actually feel cathartic and not the manufactured emotion (okay kill me for it, no one except maybe fanny may crosby is actually that grateful to God all the time they’re all just trying to convince themselves they are) and just. I was listening to the mytt version of shes kinda hot and of course I’m not that stupidly ambitious but it’s like. it’s an anthem. the new broken scene. we feel it, we feel seen, it makes us want to do something so people like us feel their worth and its performance is just perfect because the crowd is fully participating and it was written exactly for that! and then I go back to my same old worship songs (okay cityalight is alright because they’re from sydney too but otherwise) and it makes me wonder. what are we all holding back? what do we want to feel, those of us who are all here for a common reason, a reason that things like social justice and also being personally seen are actually big parts of. and idk, when I listen to skh I feel like I could write something. pop punk worship kinda vibe, God knows we need more opportunities to explore religion for misfit youth than we have

lost in reality is such a weird song but it’s got something in it that I just can’t find anywhere else and it makes it a BOP. is it the total surrender? the emotion when you’re so utterly whipped you can’t think right? how danceable it is? the fact that every listener most likely knows someone called Haley? the way it sounds like a boyband song (I’m not saying it is, it just has the appropriate simp levels to be). calum’s vocals (he sounds so young in it)? did they infuse it with some substance? I don’t know. I want more of it, but I also don’t, you know? and isn’t that exactly what the song is describing?