#skamfreps

Everything is going well. 

I don’t need you, let alone your friends. I’m fine on my own. I’m used to it. 

You care too much what people think. Your friends, they don’t give a damn what your place looks like. At worst, they will just be surprised that you never told them about it. You’re here, you’re complaining and you’re ruining your party and theirs. While they cancelled all their plans to be with you tonight. Because they love you! I’m not lucky enough to have friends like that. 

“Urbex” from the english “Urban Exploration” which means “exploration urbaine.” It’s an activity that consists of visiting places that have been built, and then abandoned, by man, or places that are simply difficult or forbidden to access.

Because if you’re not there, it’s worthless. Because I’ve been alone for years and I thought it’s better this way, but that’s not true. Because we barely know each other and I feel like I’ve been waiting for you my whole life.

There’s this need to hurt myself. Just to make me feel good. And if I tell you this, it’s not to make you talk to me. It’s just to let you know I understand. And I’ll be there whatever happens.

I don’t care. Because for me, she’s been dead for years.

I don’t have a Lucas. I thought I had one. But I ruined it.