When Anakin was very vulnerable, like during nightmares, he was unable to keep his side of the bond fully quiet. Obi-Wan had already stirred from his own sleep before Anakin startled awake, feeling the impending crescendo of the shock and sadness. When it culminated, he reached out to place his hand on Anakin's shoulder comfortingly.

Meditation was not for everyone. Though T'Pring could hardly fathom how anyone existed without the safety and comfort meditation provided. The idea of never taking a moment to delve into her own depths and regulate her feelings was..frightening. Needless to say, she and Anakin Skywalker were very different. He posed a challenge that was brought to her doors - one she intended to accept. Master Kenobi clearly put great hope into her skills as a counselor and her reputation as a member of El-Kesthanktil would suffer if she did not even make an attempt.

          @sithdestined      said;        😳 — what was your most embarrassing moment in the rpc?

╰►      SOURCE:      (not) munday asks

I've had a PLETHORA of embarrassing moments here in the rpc, so it'll probably come as no surprise that selecting one amongst the many to recount as an answer to this question was definitely a struggle. The moment which came to mind first was one with which you are already familiar since you helped me through it, but it was too good of a potential choice not to detail in this response. Despite the fact that several months have passed, this encounter STILL makes me cringe.

                 A few months ago, I reconnected with an old mutual of mine who expressed interest in writing with my alternate redemption verse centric portrayal of Dooku. Delighted to be writing with them again, I naïvely assumed that they would be open to writing with all of my Star Wars muses, and sent them a few links to interaction calls and information that I had recently posted for Shi’al. Each and every one of these attempts to garner interaction went unacknowledged, but my neurodivergent ass never recognized this lack of interaction as a clear sign of disinterest. We’ll come back to this in a bit— it’s important later in the story, so keep it in mind.

Shortly after I began posting on my askbox meme blog, a sudden onset of turbulent emotions drove me to write a psa regarding the fact that those of us with female oc’s can tell when our female muses are being pushed to the side in favor of our canon male muses, and it hurts. The mutual with whom interactions were recently kindled felt some type of way about the post, sending me a knee-jerk message accusing me of writing the psa as a vauge directed towards themself. After I reassured them that it was in fact NOT meant as a vaguepost, they pointed out that the psa was a “weird post” and suggested that the language used made “people feel guilty for prioritizing the muses that interest them”. According to them, “canons will always be more accessible to people”. I informed them that it was not my intention to guilt trip — after all, there are NUMEROUS psa’s with similar language all over the rpc — and that I struggle with direct communication.

            This revelation opened up a dialogue where the mutual then bluntly told me that interactions with Shi’al “falls outside my range of interest”, and that they feel “guilt tripped and forced” whenever I subtly imply that I’d love for their muses to interact with her. I was utterly MORTIFIED and completely blindsided by this admission, but the mortification did not stop there — they also revealed in the same breath that they felt “talked over” because “everything i say about my own muses is instantly associated back to yours”, and although they understood that it was a “way to relate”, it made the conversation unequal “when it comes to discussing headcanons and ideas”. Sharing relatable experiences is one way that I as an Autistic and ADHD individual try to connect to others, so hearing this was like a gut punch to my stomach.

Now aware that the mutual doesn’t want to interact here, I blocked them on this account, and have not spoken with them on Discord since because what they said — even if it was meant to help me become a better person — still stings. It shattered my already low confidence with regards to pursuing interactions for a while, and I’m still emotionally recovering from this rude wake up call and blow to my ego.

TLDR; I got told that I talk about my own OC too much, and even though the conversation was meant to help, I’m still lowkey hurting over it. Also, moral of the story: don’t assume that someone who follows you is open to interacting with all of your muses. Always ask directly first!

At first blush, Nil-Rae had not been entirely enthused by the idea of inviting a pair of Jedi to Telos IV. They'd argued back and forth for weeks about the matter with Xanatos offering his assurance that nothing would go wrong. They wouldn't be inviting the Jedi with the intention of harming them, regardless of their unfortunate ties to Nil-Rae's father, only for the sake of protecting their planet from the eventuality of a Separatist attack. (Or so Xanatos had promised.) And, if things ultimately went south, they would have the advantage by operating within their home, a place no Order Jedi would be familiar enough with to gain the upper hand.

It made Nil-Rae uncomfortable, no matter how often they talked about it but finally, when it became apparent she would eventually not have a choice in the matter, she agreed to his plans. They agreed to petition the Council for a Jedi emissary, asking for an official investigation into the movements of a rebel group operating in the underground of Telos IV. The rebel group was rumored to have ties to the Confederacy and were therefore a threat to the planet's neutrality and safety.

Xanatos had done his best to root out the problem, first with words and promises of reward and then by force, but no matter how many people he sent off to work in one of OffWorld'd mines or to the chopping block, they could never fully heal the festering wound of rebellion. It wasn't until one of the attacks involved a small battalion of droids that they began to suspect Separatist involvement. After one of the rebels attacked a weapons depot for the Telosian army, Xanatos had thrown his hands up in frustration and finally made the suggestion of involving the Jedi.

I ALMOST PUT YOU FOR THE WRITING STYLE I LOVE THING AND FOR A SECOND I THOUGHT THIS WAS BECAUSE I HAD PUT YOU AND YOU WANTED MORE

any way you're pretty great and I found a picture of us

MY EXPERIENCE IN THE ROLEPLAYING COMMUNITY @valorums sent: 🌸 the blog/s that most inspires me

@valorums / @prodijedi / all of your blogs, tbh.

you managed to talk to me about the jedi & i understood something at such a conceptual level from one convo - i just adore all you do to weave lore & your own ideas into shi'al & redemptionverse dooku. both of these muses inspire me greatly to attempt my own lore & move through writing with grace, and i am eager to see how you write yoda and mace windu.

another inspiration? @sithdestined & @desireandduty, (they are a matched pair, fight me!) who have such intriguing threads, living settings and muses, and wonderful insights. masterfully concocted, megan & amy weave portrayals that make me wish i had such a command over luke's characterization. i study their writing to bring luke less out of himself, and more into the environment.