#sisterlilith

I have mini traditions within myself for the holiday season and I have neglected them this year. I think further showing how this year has kicked my ass. I will try to make one of them happen to maintain a tiny bit of discipline, but will try not to fault myself if I can't get to it.

I am not a hugger, and today I made it very clear when going over to a family get-together. This woman, I'm assuming she was someone's relative (not mine) she kept staring at me after coming in and waving at everyone (my usual greeting) and after continuing to stare me down I asked her if there was something she needed, she proceeded to stand up, push my cousin aside, and dart straight at me, I immediately stepped back and "No,no,no, I don't do that, hello is what u get". After I refused her she made a comment like "u wouldn't refuse the boyfriend." That was uncalled for, cuz I don't have one and that's the only way that side of the family has given me or not given me any worth. Also, considering my bisexuality only tolerates men bc I find them attractive, not so much cuz I wanna date them. The whole interaction made me feel icky.