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11/3/18

There are words that really resonate with me. This morning a friend said to me that “compassion is power in this world” and I think she’s absolutely right.

I truly try to live my life by looking for the positive. I lived with so much negativity for so long that I think it colored my world view.

Now I feel the fog lifting and my true self coming back. Someone who smiles, often. Someone who cares, always. Someone who loves, quickly.

7/2018

So now it’s time to set the goals and to put them out there in writing for myself so that I know what I’ve committed to.  I’ve decided to group them into three categories: Body, Mind, Environment.

Environment:  Step 1 was a long-overdue change of financial advisers and getting my financial house in order.  I set the meeting, followed through with the meeting instead of moving it (I’m a horrible procrastinator!), and now I’m following up on the loose ends that came out of the meeting. I will have two kids in college starting next month and it’s past time to get my financial house in order. 

Mind: I’m working on wrapping my head around being an empty-nester next month.  I thought it was going to be easy but the closer I get the more I’m not in a good place where this is concerned.  I can’t really find a good adjective to describe it.  I’m not nervous, I’m not upset, I just know that I’m not where I thought I would be at this point in my life and I need to take steps to change that. 

Step 2 for me is to NOT fill my time with people who don’t further my goals.  That has included all of these crazy men that I’ve met doing online dating.  So...last week I deleted my online profiles.  I didn’t just “hide” them, I deleted them and I deleted the apps from my phone.  While the first few days were tough, I won’t lie, I haven’t thought much about them the past couple of days.  

I’m also clearing my personal calendar of anything that I felt an obligation to say yes to and spending more time at home.  That’s been tough too because it’s been lots of time alone as my daughter was out of town last week on vacation with her dad.  And even when she’s home she works a lot or spends time up in her room.  Again, I’m not going to lie, I’ve been watching way too much TV. So this week I’ve made some goals for things that I want to take care of in my “down” time.  Weeding the flower beds is job #1 and will (hopefully) be taken care of tonight.

And I’m “deleting” some people that I’ve been spending time with.  Like the guy I met a year ago who is funny and I’ve “enjoyed” spending time with except that every time we’re together he’s looking over my shoulder at the “hot” 20-something at the next table.  That certainly doesn’t make me feel better about myself and he isn’t making me a better person.  So...less time there.

Body: Lastly for today, I got back on the wagon as far as my eating is concerned.  I had a shake for breakfast and packed my lunch.  I’m trying to not look at this as a diet but as a lifetime change that I need to make for my health.  Every choice is, in fact, a choice.  Eating fast food 10+ times a week is not a healthy habit, and it’s not “normal”. Most people do not do this and I need to not do it either.

So...there you go.  Goals established and started in my quest to achieve them.  It’s Monday morning and motivation is high!