Aug 10
I’ve forgotten to post (or avoided it idk) pretty much all summer
There have been good things and less good things. Going on vacation next week tho
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I’ve forgotten to post (or avoided it idk) pretty much all summer
There have been good things and less good things. Going on vacation next week tho
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Haven’t been posting, but also I don’t have any followers to apologize about that to lol
I’m a couple weeks into therapy, life’s packed, still, with beautiful ups and crushing downs.
I GOT ANOTHER RAISE, THEY GAVE IT TO EVERYONE IN OUR GVT BRANCH, ITS SMALL AND WONT EVEN HIT UNTIL AUGUST BUT I AM STILL HYPE. THAT MAKES 3 SINCE MARCH LETS GO THATS A TOTAL OF A 24.1% INCREASE FROM MY OLD POSITION
THERAPY APPOINTMMENT INTAKE TOMORROW FINALLY WOO
ALSO HAVE A GYNOCOLOGIST APPOINTMENT THAT MORNING SO I WAS OFF ANYWAY
I WILL BE PHYSICALLY AND EMOTIONALLY PROBED BY THE END OF THE DAY YEEEEEEAAAAHhAAWW!!
Been offline mostly. Ups and downs. Still haven’t heard back from therapists. I have good days and I have bad and I’m trying really hard to be good and do good and be nice to myself
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Had a really really really good birthday weekend with M
Ate Good friday night, Ate amazingly good Saturday (we tried duck!) we were very gay, we visited my friend and went to a museum Sunday and ate good again
Past couple days since I’ve been really really struggling
Monday I was home alone and just bawled until I fell asleep, I cried like 3 times at work Tuesday
M’s fam was a mixed bag yesterday for her real bday but we got a coffee maker and a meal out of it at least, and in a pleasant turn her mom stood up for her
I’m gonna follow up call some of these therapists on my break in a few, I feel like I have less of a handle on this than ever and it’s been a full week since I sent in my intake stuff
I just want a date for when I can get help :(
I am writing up what was SUPPOSED to be a summary of events that I think made me the way I am, which turned into a vague timeline of life events since college, which has now grown to be 6 pages. Might post it here just for the fuck of it (censored/redacted ofc)
Last night was rough, as I expected, M is taking me getting therapy as an action Because of her and that I’m not happy with her and etc etc and she ended up raging and upset for a full hour when she got home “because” she was looking for something, but really because of the stress. She keeps saying she’s sick of me being afraid of her. I tell her that I’m not actually afraid of her, I know I’m jumpy I’m sorry
For the past couple weeks she’s also been upset that I haven’t wanted her to eat me out
I’ve been weird about sex period and I am just really really struggling to want it at all, and getting ate out is just too much to handle. I am so jumpy and am so sensitive it doesn’t feel good. Even other touching borders on Way Too Much. She keep saying that she must have been bad at it and I was lying to make her think she was good.I wasn’t . She (rightfully) gets upset if I fake it and do smth I don’t wanna do. So idk what the answer is there. Suffer ig.