#sinderbella

(A favorite of my older work which will always resonate)

The security of this pen, this paper

Have to get it out now and save none for later.

Mental stand-still, I stand still mental

And I remember when

No

I remember how

You changed me

Showed me that maturity doesn't come with age

It comes with mistakes, the ones I've made

I can't contemplate a resolution to m destitution

Sempiternal confusion of my mind

Sempiternal confusion of the masses

Constantly in a question-mark state

Constantly questioning

  You made me ask what's really real

Reality is nothing but a product of my subconscious cognitions

And I'm itching for some focus

Life is always in mayhem

Agitation is my sedation

Sleep is my defense mechanism

The first time you felt the bitter taste of control in the back of your mouth

was the very moment that

You realized you had lost it

You had lost it

You had lost control, that moment you tasted it

  My tinfoil dreams show me nothing

but a reflection of the past I wanted

And the future I refuse to get

My motivation is Missing In Action

my ambition is still kicking

But it's kicking in all the wrong places

I see the same faces every night

And I fight the same battles every day

And I try, but I will never get away

“so

Stop resorting to external stabilizers to stabilize her

Shooting too high for her own good

The standard's been set”

One upon a time I danced as a witch :)

Burlesque set: Rather be burned as a witch!

Performer: Sinder (Me)

Photographer: Ren G Photography

>:] the next 24 hours are going to be rather stressful, but i will most definitely fulfill this obligation. i'll probably re-read it for the sake of reference and then start composing my response.

i'm glad you like the idea; i'll do my best to develop it thoroughly and meaningfully. in its current nebulous formulation in my head, it's more applicable to the sort of life path i've been on, but i think i can expand its relevance to include a large portion of possible circumstances.

i'll try to keep that simple perspective in mind as well. i like to contrast complexity and simplicity, and especially instances where one gives rise to the other. and i think i may dedicate a section to exploring the questions: "do we need a purpose? is it possible to live without a purpose?" though thay may be difficult since it would probably need a relatively accurate, yet wieldy, essential definition..

Insert belief - Click; and download. Run Program.

"Any situation that you find yourself in, is an outward reflection of your inner state of beingness."

-- El Morya

Our world mirrors who we are back to us. When we get upset by something outside of us, our reaction shows us that we have an inner wound to be healed. Just as I can be unconscious of my wounds, I am also unconscious of my strengths. But if I am really drawn to the positive qualities in another person, I am being invited to own those same qualities in myself. True?

"The people we are in relationship with are always a mirror, reflecting our own beliefs, and simultaneously we are mirrors reflecting their beliefs. So relationship is one of the most powerful tools for growth... if we look honestly at our relationships we can see so much about how we have created them."

-- Shakti Gawain

Every artist dips his brush in his own soul, and paints himself into his pictures.

"Security is when everything is settled, when nothing can happen to you; security is the denial of life."

-- Germaine Greer

Our personality likes to be in control. It likes to know how things are and what’s going to happen. Underlying this desire for stability and predictability is a deep fear that the world is a dangerous place. The personality fears it will not survive without continually being on guard.

The truth is: we cannot control what happens in life. And under the natural law of attraction, we tend to attract to us what we focus on. Explore substituting trust for fear and the world becomes a gentler, happier place.

"One thing we can do is make the choice to view the world in a healthy way. We can choose to see the world as safe with only moments of danger rather than seeing the world as dangerous with only moments of safety."

-- Deepak Chopra

As our consciousness rises, our perspective becomes more and more impersonal. What does this mean?

It means we are increasingly able to view our lives and the rest of the world with detachment. This does not mean we are cold and uncaring. Rather, we are self-contained. We have well-defined boundaries and we are able to think and act objectively, clearly and responsibly.

When we have learned detachment, we do not get hooked into the thoughts and feelings of others. We are not easily upset or manipulated. We may feel compassion for others but this does not cloud our ability to choose how we think, feel and behave. We also do not need others to behave in any particular way. Want will always boil in our blood; detachment allows that want to boil off leaving us with pure perspective.

"Until we take how we see ourselves (and how we see others) into account, we will be unable to understand how others see and feel about themselves and their world. Unaware, we will project our intentions on their behavior and call ourselves objective."

-- Stephen Covey

"Getting in touch with your true self must be your first priority."