i asked you a bit ago about ships you liked and here is what i wrote (heart-related): https://archiveofourown.org/works/88696306
it was supposed to be a lot lighter and fluffier and smuttier than it ended up oops. it's kind of dark and sad and scary but i hope you still like it!!
I'm going to be honest, I got a bit scared when I saw the eating disorder tag, because while I don't have it, I try not to read stories that focus on it because it makes me uncomfortable, and reading is a source of comfort for me so the two doesn't go well together.
But I still gave it a go, because, you know, cardiophilia, and I could just stop if I felt like I needed to. But I didn't need to, it wasn't as strongly focusing on it as I was afraid it would. I think there was a good balance.
Also, anxiety is a bitch. Because it's so relatable that he had negative results but still couldn't stop worrying. It's like when friends tell me it's okay and I didn't do anything wrong a million times but I still can't stop worrying. It's very easy to spiral.
I loved the heart moments even though they came from anxiety. I loved that Lewis let Nico listen and that Jenson was also there for him. It's hard to, you know, fangirl over heart/pulse moments when the whole story is anxiety based, because it makes me feel bad to say that I loved the pulse checks and stuff like that when it wasn't for fun. If you know what I mean. So it's hard to give my usual reaction, but I really liked the story even if this “comment” isn't like my usual, really intense, “I let out my inner cardiophile” type of comments.
Also, I loved the happy end. I'm glad Nico finally realized he needed to rest. ❤
It's a really great story, thank you so much for writing it and exploring these topics. 😊
