#silverrambles

like. he loves her so much. like felicity is his pride and joy, the last bit of light in the darkness he surrounds himself with. he would do anything for her -- except for the one thing he needs to do. which is stop FUCKING KILLING/TORTURING THESE CERTAIN PEOPLE OVER AND OVER

and gods, felicity loves her dad so much. like, he willingly supported her being trans, he spent so much time with her, like, vyn was a REALLY GOOD DAD. he just fucking sucks as a person, and it hurts her so bad when she starts realizing that her beloved dad is a monster in every other aspect.

like I want to try and make it so one of her biggest journeys in the story/comic is realizing that he isn't a good person. he might be a good dad, but he isn't a good person. And i just knoooooow it breaks her heart. I think she denies it until it's right in front of her, like there's EVIDENCE he hurt her friends, and she just breaks, because she knows it;s true, but she's been trying to deny it for so long that it's HARD on her.

and she realizes she has to help stop him before it's too late, before she becomes complicit in his actions just because she's his daughter/heir.

spoilers below here just cause why not

8. in which ways did your F/O(s)/selfshipping help you this year?

ohhhhhghhghh... i think i got a bit more confident, plus i met some new friends and started putting myself a little more out there????

11. has an F/O inspired you to pick up a new hobby/interest/habit this year?

unfortunately nooo,,, i'm pretty stuck in my ways on my habits/interests/hobbies. But I did get pretty back into Pokemon this last half of the year which is fun, since that's my like. latent hyperfixation lol. fuck u ghetsis /lh OH WAIT I got back into Animal Crossing this year!! Mostly because there is the new update coming in January, but I adore Sable and Brewster so much (I dunno if I'll ever make them permanent f/os but I REALLLLLLY love Brewster and Sable so much. Quiet f/os to enjoy a quiet snowy night together...)!! Eventually I also really wanna get... Groucho? on my island again. I think that's his name. cranky villager... really a lot of the cranky villagers remind me of my grandpa so i have a soft spot for them.... I have Murphy on my island for a Cranky villager and i love him but also I just. want someone that looks older than a bear cub lmfaoooo 12. if you have spotify wrapped, were there any songs related to your F/O(s)/selfships in your top 100? if you don't, were there any songs you listened to a lot this year because they remind you of your F/O(s)?

I don't do Spotify, but I DO have a song that reminds me of Vyn a lot!!!

I will consider making a physical copy of Cottfo - maybe even several

but if there were any songs that fit some of my ocs

this song is. very Vyn coded to me. Not sure why. It just... fits him. (i think i do have more thoughts on it. but i would have to make a whole separate post about it lol)

this song (which. I mean I guess it's partly anne's theme song)/scene has inspired a part of the main story (specifically for Aylen!). if you know this episode/part of the episode, you might have an idea of what might happen

this song. This is probably the only 'theme song' I've got that's OFFICIALLY like. A theme song. (that makes no sense. whoops.)

It's Felicity's theme song. For context (since I don't think I've talked much about Felicity on here), she's Vynrel's daughter. At one point a couple years ago, a friend gave me a hypothetical animatic idea with her and this song. It's canon. this is her song to me.

name's Silver! This is my selfshipping blog. Because I am slowly learning to indulge in myself. HHHHHHHHHHHHH

Primary Ship: Vynrel (My OC)

Secondary Ships: Ghetsis (Pokemon), Belos (TOH)

Other Crushes: Lysandre (Pokemon), Giovanni (Pokemon), Aeshan (Fantasy Life i)

yes. i. uh. love villains. whoops.

i finished Aylen's new ref!! Shout out to @missazura for helping me with my skin color palette crisis lmfao

I also have made it official that Aylen is intersex! Officially, he has Complete Gonadal Dysgenesis (as described in this pdf of intersex variations). It really feels like he came to me and told me he was this himself, it's honestly kinda wild, but it feels right!

I don't think him being intersex will ever be a huge part of the story, but I wanted to make it official here so I know and can refer to him as such, if that makes sense. I'll have to look more into writing intersex characters in a more fantasy-esque situation, but so far I've tried to write that Auralí is more modern when it comes to things like this and other LGBTQ situations, if that makes sense.

Eventually I wanna write down other fun facts and such on my refs, but I think I'd like to save those for the profiles on toy.house. That way I've got a nice official place for all the little nuances I don't wanna forget.