190/365 - It wouldn't be the start to another week sure to push me to the brink of full of nervous break down without already feeling like a disappointing piece of shit. Instead of doing anything to try and remedy this I have crawled into bed where I've completely allowed by emotions to make me actually physically ill. What's the point of summer when all you do is work, feel like you're worthless, and then punish yourself by renting (yes paying for) #TheRing2. #nixmuse365partdeux #project365 #SickSadNix #PunishmentMovie (at Bon Air, Pennsylvania)

Today is going to be bullshit. I slept terrible again from stress. I'm at work 2 hours early to cover for people who aren't in. I've had a headache that wants to be a migraine since last night. At least I put together a comfy #summerassholestyle outfit for today to try and cheer myself up. #SickSadNix (at Bon Air, Pennsylvania)

187/365 - I had weird invasive dreams last night, slept poorly, woke up not feeling physically great, and then headed back into my super stressful work environment. My entire day was trying to tread water. Try to find things to laugh about or make other people laugh at work. In an effort to refocus my brain and my heart I deleted the Facebook and Twitter apps from my phone. I feel tired and over all not great. I'm in bed right now, with some fizzy water and my journal. I know tomorrow will prove to be another very long and very very exhausting work day. I need a hug. Unrelated to all of that, this picture is of a denim jacket I bought a year+ ago and am finally making it into the weirdo vest I love. #nixmuse365partdeux #project365 #ArtTherapy #summerassholestyle #SickSadNix (at Bon Air, Pennsylvania)

68/365 - I'm sorry it's just been pictures of my dumb sick face. It's finally cresting. It's been a week. I almost slept adequately last night. Here's to hoping I get fully recovered over the weekend. Next week is one week early birthday vacation. #project365 #nixmuse365partdeux #SickSadNix #SickyNixy #OldHag (at Bon Air)

This and my regular humidifier in tandem directly next to me for eternity. #SickSadNix #SickyNixy (at Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania)

67/365 - My job told me if I called off sick today I'd be "written up." I am apparently a junior high student. I still have a fever and the chills. I can't sleep through the night without spending over an hour's time total awake and coughing uncontrollably. I could schedule a paid day off like I did for yesterday bc we have a webinar that I'll have to work through anyway bc my position deals with real time so we can't ever stop what we do. So, this webinar had better rip my dick off bc between feeling like I haven't been sleeping, feeling feverish, having the chills, no voice, and uncontrollable coughing I shouldn't be out of the house. (PS I just used whatever photos in my iPhoto for today bc it's my 365 and who fucking cares and I'm not feeling photogenic or creative.) #nixmuse365partdeux #project365 #SickSadNix #SickyNixy #SeeYouInHell (at Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania)

66/365 - I am determined I will hydrate and eat this illness away. Baked chicken with garlic, asparagus, zucchini, sweet potatoes, and some lemon. #nixmuse365partdeux #project365 #SickSadNix #MyMedicine (at Bon Air)

I dyed my hair dark. Easier to grow out my roots without the red. I missed almost black hair Nix. #Siren #WerewolfFuckMachine #SickSadNix (at Bon Air)