I dyed my hair dark. Easier to grow out my roots without the red. I missed almost black hair Nix. #Siren #WerewolfFuckMachine #SickSadNix (at Bon Air)

341/365 - Do you ever catch a glimpse of yourself in a reflective surface and think "DAAAAAAAAAAMN I look good."??? Bc that's right where I am today. Still got this cold, but saw these curves and was pretty stoked. I need a fucking body massage, a hot bath, and more water. STAT. Having some hip discomfort this week. Trying to work through it as best I can. #WerewolfFuckMachine #NixMuse365 #Project365 #SexyAndIKnowIt (at Downtown Pittsburgh)

323/365 - Love is the rose, lust is the thorn. Feeling so sexually charged after this full moon that apparently I'm looking for a Ron Perlman merman to fuck in my dreams. Waking up salty. #NixMuse365 #Project365 #WokeUpLikeThis #WerewolfFuckMachine (at Beechview, Pennsylvania)

Left: 2yrs ago. Middle: 1yr ago. Right: Today. . I almost didn't share this, but I feel obligated to myself. I haven't posted a #3moProgressShot all year. Plenty of regular #GymBroSelfie pics but no progress shots. Why? I honestly saw this year as a set back until less than an hour ago. Not only did I not really feel I could SEE any progress, my legs felt like my enemy and my running was set back for months. I lost all of my motivation. I felt like I couldn't focus. I was hiding from fitness even though working out very much saved my life. I felt far away from myself. I started to spiral back into that dark place I was in when the 1st picture was taken. . I wasn't in a dark place bc I weighed more or had more body fat. I was in a dark place bc I was taking fucking terrible care of myself physically & mentally. I still felt like I was the hottest fucking #WerewolfFuckMachine to walk the earth, but I knew something was off. I ate terribly, I was never ever physically active, & I cranky constantly. My anxiety and depression were out of control. . The changes I made that first year were big & frightening but so worth it. This year humbled me. I had physical issues w/my legs during running that even my doctor couldn't shed light on. I was going too hard too fast too often. When I had to back off of it & work stress kept piling on, I started skipping working out all together. I started feeling anxious & tired & unhappy again. . August 12th, 2016: I took what would be my last drink & started to train for the @hellonhillspgh 5k. While the race itself humbled me yet again (It crushed me) it renewed my motivation. . Please remember...when you see someone's top of their game gym pics, know that everyone falls off, feels shaken, has to regroup & refocus. You will too. You'll not just have off days, you'll have off months. Don't ever stop. Listen to your body. Accept that what you're seeing as failures or lack of progress are moments to learn about your mind & body. . Thank you to all the people who cheer me on, motivate me daily, & reach out to me to talk about our bodies. I love you. #FeministFitness #BodyPositivty (at Beechview, Pennsylvania)