#sickness stuff

A little bit of info on why I am better at conveying myself through action and not words and why I have to make videos to explain things (and also my speech issues, why I pause and have to think of words a lot, why i cant seem to put together words to explain things, ect)  Some of you were following me when it happened(I only posted a few vague posts about it, and hardly anyone even close to me irl knows. I’ve barely become comfortable talking about it), but basically I got pneumonia last year and nearly died of a fever of about 104. Had Brett not woken up and cooled me down, I would likely be dead. The results from that fever however, are brain damage. It got into my already screwed up anxious head, and screwed with my communication neurons (I think thats the word the doctor used)  So if you see videos of me and think “Why do you keep stopping? Why do you forget words? Why are you stuttering?” Well, that’s why :/ And it can also come across when I am typing as well. If I don’t have the patience to google the definition of a word I can’t remember to find it, I just use another in its place that might not make as much sense. So yeah.