#sickme

When you have an infection in both ears, you need to take measure! It hurts so bad that I can’t even smile (not that I smile a lot anyway 😃) #slytherinhat #sickme #vk (à Tours, France)

Litteral picture of me suffering with the flu 🤧 smfh #flu #newyear #sickme #offtoagreatstart #gayboy

The pain scale on this fella is an 8 without a doubt. Cold sweat and pain straight in my joint. That is in your NERVES and it won't go away. Can't even have the slightest movement on it and every tremor sends the nerve receptors into overdrive 😭 Please take the pain away..... #sickme #inextremepain (at Changi General Hospital (CGH))

- sick mom (physically and personality disorder) --> having a reversed relationship/ feeling like being responsible for our/ her wellbeing or like a burden --> emotional abuse/ lack of physical contact / distance towards me/ my problems - dad working hundreds of miles away despite being able to get a job near us, no real emotional connection or physical contact - made to feel like a burden esp financially - never being asked by anyone how i was, but how my mom was doing - bullying in school (up to razorblades being purchased for me with the intention of giving them to me with a note reading "come on, do us the favour") - being hit and cut by my first boyfriend to punish me for hating and hurting myself - my second boyfriend leaving me because of manipulation by his best friend - probably rape by a family friend (no memory apart from flashbacks) - alcohol poisoning at age 13 followed by an awful night in the hospital with hospital staff not giving a fuck about my mashines beeping all night - chronic pain from age 9 or 10, being dismissed by countless doctors for just being lazy or making it up - being fed antidepressants, benzos and antipsychotics without telling me what i was taking at age 14 - 2 months of psychiatric hospital which worsened all of my symptoms and I don't remember practically anything - suicide attempts one of them ending in a hospital resulting in my mum telling me that I should watch myself so i wouldn't have to get picked up from the hospital all the time because it was time consuming and annoying - worsening pain, ending up in 8 months of being bedridden, not able to eat, move or sleep - going to the er only to be yelled at, getting meds i told them would make stuff worse and being held down while having a panic attack and vomiting while my partner was watching and crying - being left and used overr and over Probably more but thats what I can think of rn. Fuck.

Fucking 3 everywhere 3 is evetywhere its behind everything wtf why stopr ficking 3 stop getinng in my head fuvk 3 fuck its everywhere you don't understand

Thank you @emmanuel.siaron !! #sickme #favorite #tangerine #orange