#si-eun

Yeon Si-eun NSFW alphabet

A = Aftercare (what they’re like after sex)

He doesn’t do much after sex since he’s also tired, maybe just a few head kisses and cuddles with you but definitely after he’s done sleeping or waiting for you to wake up he’ll clean you up since he’s already not tired that much

B = Body part (their favorite body part of theirs and also their partner’s)

His favorite body part about you is just your body and face, he’s dating you because he truly likes you and has a huge interest in you, also deep down he’s super in love with you but doesn’t know how to explain it to you, he admires you from afar

His favorite body part are his hands, he likes how skilled he can be during fights and impresses himself sometime

C = Cum (anything to do with cum, basically)

He pulls out, or he just wears a condom and cums inside of it while still in you

D = Dirty secret (pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)

he doesn’t have much of a dirty secret only that he would tell Suho about it

E = Experience (how experienced are they? do they know what they’re doing?)

he’s not experienced, he was a virgin when he met you but once yall did it he slowly started knowing what to do and what makes you feel good

F = Favorite position (this goes without saying)

missionary, he likes to be face to face with you so he’s able to see every expression and is able to read what you like and don’t

G = Goofy (are they more serious in the moment? are they humorous? etc.)

no goofiness, he’s straight to the point and if you crack a joke he just stares at you and goes back to kissing your neck or whatever he was doing

H = Hair (how well groomed are they? does the carpet match the drapes? etc.)

he doesn’t really care about groomed but he does shave every now and then and doesn’t let it get too long

I = Intimacy (how are they during the moment? the romantic aspect)

he doesn’t do much he just gives you kisses to let you know he loves it since he rarely shows emotion

J = Jack off (masturbation headcanon)

he doesn’t jerk off and if he does it’s rare

K = Kink (one or more of their kinks)

he doesn’t have kinks just plain sex

L = Location (favorite places to do the do)

The bed

M = Motivation (what turns them on, gets them going)

Nothing really gets him turned on maybe just dirty talking and seeing you play with yourself

N = No (something they wouldn’t do, turn offs)

anything to hurt you or anything that makes him uncomfortable

O = Oral (preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc.)

he loves to eat you out, it’s his favorite thing to do but he gets nervous to ask so he just does it in the middle of the moment

P = Pace (are they fast and rough? slow and sensual? etc.)

He can go slow and fast, but usually he goes at a medium speed, when he’s mad he goes fast and rough

Q = Quickie (their opinions on quickies, how often, etc.)

he will do quickies, just not a lot of them

R = Risk (are they game to experiment? do they take risks? etc.)

he can take risk but he doesnt mind that much

S = Stamina (how many rounds can they go for? how long do they last?)

he can last a long time, but usually he knows you get sensitive and overstimulated so he usually stops on the 4th round

T = Toys (do they own toys? do they use them? on a partner or themselves?)

no toys

U = Unfair (how much they like to tease)

He doesn’t tease

V = Volume (how loud they are, what sounds they make, etc.)

he’s quiet, he doesn’t make much noise and he usually holds them in

W = Wild card (a random headcanon for the character)

He would force his bullies to watch or send them videos

X = X-ray (let’s see what’s going on under those clothes)

A good big veiny 7 inches

Y = Yearning (how high is their sex drive?)

Low, he doesn’t really have much thoughts about sex nor gets horny since he so focused on school

Z = Zzz (how quickly they fall asleep afterwards

How would the weak hero class boys react to their partner being a motherly figure to them....

Like she takes care of them, helps them bathe, helps them study, etc

I would really love to read that, please. But if you can't it's fine

Baby of....

Summary: The request – The protagonist cares for the Weak Hero Class boys as both a partner and a maternal figure. Each reacts differently—some resist, others enjoy the affection and attention. The story mixes tenderness, drama, and playful moments. Contains: Maternal care (bathing, helping with clothes, studying) Boys’ reactions (cold, shy, dramatic) Relationship: Partner + symbolic maternal care Word count (approx.): 3 k TW:Intense caregiving dynamics Boys’ embarrassment or discomfort

Si-eun

At first, he stiffens, eyes scanning you like he’s analyzing everything. “No need.” Short, cold, precise. He doesn’t push you away though. When you study together, he stays silent, just listening. Later, when he repeats your words perfectly, you realize he’s been paying full attention. When you hand him a towel at the bathroom door, he stops for a second, wet hair plastered to his forehead, expression unreadable. Then, almost grumbling:

“You’re too persistent… but I guess I like that about you.” Distance is his default, but your care has reached him in a way words rarely do.

Ahn Suho

He soaks up every bit of attention. No shame leaning into your care. When you feed him, he smiles; when you fix his hair, he tilts his head for more. Sometimes he jokes about a sore back just so you fuss over him in the shower, though he’s perfectly fine. When you tuck him in:

“I never thought having a girlfriend could feel like this—like the hottest mom on the planet.” Playful words, but his eyes reveal how safe and cherished he feels with you.

Beom seok:

He struggles between pride and desire. “I can handle it myself.” His voice shakes slightly, betraying his need for your care. When you guide him through study notes, he fidgets and avoids your gaze. If you wash his hair, he’s tense—part embarrassment, part relief. Quietly, he admits:

“No one’s ever cared for me like this… it’s strange. But I don’t want you to stop.” Your care breaks down walls his pride tried to hold.

 Woo-young:

Always playing tough. “Do you think I’m a baby? I can manage.” But five minutes later, he’s standing there, wet hair dripping, waiting for your towel. When you wash his hair, his usual grin falters; he’s quiet, swallowing nervously. He murmurs:

“I won’t lie… I could get used to this. You might even spoil me.” Even the toughest facade can’t resist your warmth.

Gotak

Your care is natural for him, like something he didn’t know he needed. Every gesture lights him up: meals, fixing clothes, brushing hair. Studying with you, he focuses, not just on the work but on your voice. Helping him wash after a long day, he relaxes completely. Smiling softly:

“With you, I don’t lack anything. You make me feel whole.” He shows openly how much he cherishes your presence.

Baku

Pride and sharp edges. “I don’t need anyone to take care of me.” Serious face, flat tone. Yet he allows scarf adjustments, small touches, even quietly follows your study instructions, repeating everything later. In the bathroom, with steam around him, he exhales harshly, avoiding eye contact:

“If you keep looking at me like that… I won’t be able to focus.” He acts tough, but your care fuels him. Needs it more than he admits.

Seongje:

He thrives in your care. He clings, whines, and brags about it. “Give me cuddles, make me ramen, tell me I studied well.” Always dramatic, especially in front of others. In the shower, humming while you scrub his hair, he glances at the rest with a cheeky grin:

“See? My girlfriend even washes my hair. Do you guys have that? No, right?” A showman, but loving every second of your attention.

Baek Jin :

He keeps his walls high. When you care for him, he observes silently, allowing your help but keeping distance. No leaning in, no soft smiles, just acceptance. When you tuck him in, he says, calm and flat:

Part 2.

.ᐟ — TW.

blackmailing, somnophilia, nsfw/smut, mentions of self-harm/suicide, and slurs.

S – You and Seong-je have been “ friends ” ever since Kindergarten, thanks to his parents and yours being close. The past few years you've been disturbed about the issues about him beating up students from another school, skipping classes, and even heard that those he killed, ended up being sacrificed.

Y/N — Yeon Eun-Heesoo

PS - GUYS I'M SO SORRY THIS TOOK SO LONG OMG 😭😭 my fat chungus life I swear, I forgot to save the draft while making this and when my phone died, it basically just disappeared like I'm ctfu omg 😭😭😭😭😣😣😣😣 guys I also apologize if my grammar sucks tf cuz it's like 1:33 AM rn and I'm redoing this shit half awake 😊

Anywayssss, enjoy ! 🫶🏻

You woke up on your bed, still unconscious. You were blankly staring at the wall for no reason at all, you felt empty. You felt..bare and blank. You couldn't understand what was happening to you. You swore that it was all a dream, right? That's what you assumed.

You just kept on staring at the wall, trying to remember but it's just forming blank in your brain. You're free to move and speak, but you somehow felt caged. A few minutes has passed, you snapped out of it. You felt awake, but still, your head hurts. You don't even understand why. "My head..hurts badly." You mumbled quietly.

You got up and went to the living room, surprisingly Seong-je is not here. You swore that you remembered something, you drank what he gave you but you couldn't remember the rest. Did you black out? Or did you just dream?

So you went to grab a bowl, pour cereal and milk. You turned on the TV and changed the channel. While you were watching the news, it started to rain. "Gosh finally, it started to rain. Something good has happened." You said to yourself.

While you were eating cereal, the TV turned off for no reason. I mean, what the hell did even happen? So, you just ignored it. And went with whatever the hell was going to happen the rest of the day. You couldn't understand if you were going insane or what, but you couldn't remember what happened earlier. Your mind is all blank, you can't remember anything clearly, but you could atleast recall that Seong-je gave you something before you woke up. Did I even wake up? Or was I given something to sleep and wake up? You kept on overthinking.

You went to the bathroom to shower, and do your skincare. After that, you just sat on your couch like nothing. You remembered your parents, so you grabbed your phone to text them.

Mom ❤️.

"Hey mom and dad, how are you guys?" You sent a text to her, you're not expecting an immediate answer but you received one after just 4 minutes. Maybe it was their free time? "Hi lovely, we're feeling alright. Stay safe there! 💖"

Lovely? My mom doesn't call me that. Neither does my dad. You felt confused now, you clearly know your mom wouldn't call you that or maybe they just picked that up somewhere else in that trip. But deadass, you know they wouldn't call you this in just immediate. Still, you shrugged it off. Maybe they're just needing to express their love?

You waited for a few hours for Seong-je to come back. While waiting, you were watching Megan is Missing. You were really up to watching these kinds of movies for now. After finishing the movie, you felt a bit traumatized. You couldn't understand how you even finished that, maybe you just had the patience.

You did everything so you wouldn't feel bored or be in a boredom kind of state. Still, even after trying to put yourself away from it, you felt bored and empty. You don't know why, but your legs started to hurt a bit. You could handle the pain though, but it was unexplainable that it hurted out of nowhere. "Cramps?" You thought to yourself, maybe it is.

After an hour, you fell asleep on your couch, with the blanket wrapped around you like a burrito. Sudenly, Seong-je opened the door with the key. He saw you laying down there, and even while asleep, you know to yourself you could still hear. Just unconscious about everything.

"Cute." He said, lowering down, looking at your sleepy state. You could feel his hands on your hair, brushing them softly. But you somehow couldn't wake up, you could feel it, you could hear his voice, it's just that you struggled to wake up. It was reality, but you were trapped in somewhere.

You felt his hand moving away, his presence moving away. And that's when you have fully fallen asleep. You wanted to wake up, your brain did want to wake up. But somehow, you just couldn't get to do so.

Then, you heard Seong-je's voice. He was on call with someone, his friend? You thought that maybe it was a friend he's calling. You heard their conversation, but you couldn't wake up.

"Hey, I'll be there in a few minutes." Seong-je said. "If I get arrested because of this shit, I'll kill you. I've already drugged the girl and cut her tongue off. You better get your ass over." You heard Seong-je laugh. What the fuck? Were you dreaming about this? You hoped so.

Before he left the room, he said something to you while you were sleeping. "Night, sweetie. Can't wait for you to be the next." He said and you heard it. You fucking heard it, you? Next? You're fucked up. And then, you heard the door click open and close. Signifying that he has already left. You were still traumatized.

You tried your best to wake up, but you could only hear. You couldn't open your eyes so you tried to calm yourself down. And let yourself fall asleep. It took you a few tries because you were failing miserably.

A few hours has passed, you woke up all of the sudden. It was 1:04 AM. You slowly got up and opened the fridge. Getting a bottle of water to chug down your dry throat. Then suddenly, you thought of the call. "I hope it's just a dream. Please." You said, you were praying that it was.

After drinking the water, you heard the door swinging open and shut. It was Seong-je. He took off his shoes and put his jacket away. "Still awake, huh?"

"Uhm.. yeah." You gave him slightly a look because you don't know if he actually helped someone murder a girl. The best you could do was literally wait for your parents. You just needed to wait. Right?

He then sat on the couch, grabbing his phone from his pocket. And you saw that he's typing, he must be texting someone. Well, yeah he is.

You told him that you're going somewhere else, grabbing your jacket because you were only wearing shorts and a tank top. "Hey, I'll just go somewhere else." Then, you heard him stop typing. You paused for a second. And he turned at you.

"Where, exactly?" He asked and it felt creepy as hell. Even when I had to go somewhere? "Just at 7/11.." You replied at him. "Then I'll come."

"What?" You mumbled, but luckily he didn't hear it. Why would he need to come with you? You thought that he was busy but now, he wants to come? You felt like something was definitely off.

"Okay, fine." You said to him, he then grabbed his jacket and put on his shoes. As you both were walking outside, a light suddenly went off and you slightly got scared. Meanwhile, he's still on his phone. Smoking his last stick of cigarette. He always smokes, and you didn't want to know why he does.

As you both entered 7/11, you grabbed Honey Butter and Slurpee, you honestly didn't want to leave Seong-je out so you bought two each. You paid at the counter and you went near him.

"Here.." You slowly slide the chips and drink, in the most awkward way. He let out a chuckle. "Oh wow, for me? Didn't know you were this nice." He said to you but you just gave him the biggest side eye. You continued to eat your chips and drink, then you felt your phone ringing a notification. You opened it and it was from your bestfriend, asking for you to go to her house because she's feeling scared.

Before telling it to Seong-je, you finished your food. You stayed silent and he did the same. After you finished, you spoke. "I'll be going somewhere else, my friend needs me. You can go home by yourself, I don't..need you to follow me." You said to him, and he glanced at you. He didn't react that much but he looked...disappointed.

Then, he stood up. "Hey, I'm not letting you go unless you tell your parents. I don't want it to be my fault if you ever got lost." He said to you, and you just gave him an eyeroll. You felt like slowly losing it. So, for one last time, you told him that you'll go with him back home and that's where you'll contact your parents, since you also need some stuffs if you go to your friends house.

While you both were walking, he asked you something. "Eun-soo, what do you feel about somebody if they're your bestfriend or the person you love?" You didn't know what to answer, but you were just walking in silence so you decided to answer.

"Uhm...I feel safe with them. It's like I can act like my true self without having to feel judged." You said to him, trying not to break the awkwardness. Then, you saw him smile. Maybe it was even a smirk.

You both entered your parents apartment, then, you grabbed some stuffs. Your bag. You grabbed your phone to text your parents, and you noticed that they're online. So you thought it was a good thing.

"Hey, mom and dad. I'll be staying at Seo-woon's place tonight." You texted them, you waited for a few minutes until you heard a notification.

"I'm sorry, but your dad doesn't allow because he's worrying about what will happen to you. Stay safe Hun. ❤️" Your mom replied, you felt frustrated. But, you thought of just lying to Seong-je.

You got out of the room, and as you were about to grab your bag, he asked you. "So, what did they say?" He was giving that creepy vibes, you hated it. "None of your business." You said to him, and as you were about to go out, he felt him grab your wrist.

"I asked you. Did your parents agree, or no?" Now that he did and said that, you felt scared. You felt like you couldn't move. So you just had to be honest. "No.." You said. Then, he let go. "It's that simple. You didn't have to make it hard. So you're staying here." He looked at you like he was hungry for something, you were creeped the hell out.

Why did he even care? You weren't somebody to control so you talked back at him. "Why do you always have to care when I go somewhere else." You whispered, and he heard it. He looked down and at you, while you dropped your bag down. He just stood there, when you walked passed him. He grabbed your shoulders tightly, and pushed you against the wall. The other hand going to your throat, choking you. You couldn't stop him because his grip was so strong.

"And why the fuck do you always have to be stubborn, huh? I do this for your own safety and guess what? You fuck all of this shit up as always. I've always hated your ridiculous shit, and now you're like this? You want to know the truth, huh?" He said to you, clearlty gripping much more tightly so you can't breathe. You tried to kick him, but nothing worked. You felt like passing out.

"Still trying? Eun-soo, I'm doing all this shit for the both of us. You think everything like this is funny? A joke to you? Like everything is just bullshit?" He sighed then laughed at you. "God, fuck this. Eun-soo, you don't get how much I fucking crave for you every second. You don't know how it feels being like that, it's like a painful torture that you can't get someone you want."

"I fucking love you so much, Eun-soo. That I do all of this shit just for you. I entered a cult just for you so I can get you closer to me, but none of that worked. I want you badly, please. Just..behave." He said, but he didn't loosen his grip. You tried not to tear up but you were. And he giggled at how scared you are right now. Then, he dropped of his kindness act.

As his grip got tighter, you passed out. And he was satisfied. You were scared and confused of what was happening. You were questioning everything, on why you trusted him. You felt him carrying you somewhere else, outside. You were still conscious but you couldn't move or speak, only your eyes remained. Then, you noticed that you were both entering his apartment. That's where he dropped you.

He dragged your body somewhere far, maybe his basement. He laid your body down and suddenly, you felt a needle against your skin. That's when you fell asleep, you were knocked down by him.

A few hours has passed, you woke up tied to a chair. You felt uncomfortable and your wrists felt sore. The rope was strong, you couldn't do anything to remove it. You tried to shout for help but soon realized that the room is sound-proof.

You were holding your cries, you didn't know what to do. You're afraid of everything that's going to happen. Suddenly, the door opened. It was Seong-je. He was smiling the whole time walking towards you. "So... what do you think?" He crouched down, looking at your eyes tearing up.

"Let me go, you shithead!" You yelled at him, struggling to move because of the ropes around you. He giggled at how stupid you looked right infront of him, he stood up and grabbed your face aggressively. "You don't know how much you've done to me." He spoke, then aggressively letting go of your face.

He grabbed a knife, then reached it near your legs. "No, no, no! Fuck you let go of me!" You tried to squirm against the ropes, again, it wouldn't work. He slowly carved his name on your thighs, making you whimper and wince in pain. "Fuck, I said let go!" You tried to yell one more time and he stopped to look at you. "You want me to carve your tongue out next? Shut the fuck up." He said.

You chose to stay silent, even if it was wrong. It was wrong to do so and you felt even stupid for staying silent. Then, he broke the silence. "Hey, you want a storytime?" He gave you a look, a horrifying one. Even though he was smiling at you, it felt uncomfortable. You just nodded, because even denying would cost you something.

"You know, your parents hid something from you but never me, they're lovely aren't they? I admired them, until I did the same thing to them. Eun-soo, what do you think happened to my parents and why they haven't been showing up for years, excusing they were busy from work, huh?" He smiled at you, and he was waiting for an answer. "Answer."

"I-I don't know.." You said, looking away. "Oh well, of course. You don't fucking know."

"Well it would be better if I let you know about it, right? Your parents were so jealous of mine..the company my parents used to have? They didn't lend them to your parents, they both stole it. Your parents are such a fucking hypocrite, aren't they?"

"Well, to steal my parent's company. They had two options, to exchange or murder them. Obviously they chose the easy way, to murder my parents. They hid that from you, all of that shit. You didn't become rich easily, I was supposed to be the one. When I found out, they hid it from you but never me. It's fantastic and you're wondering why I have been ignoring you for years." He said, his tone becoming aggressive.

"I didn't know, okay! I-I didn't even-"

"Of course you don't fucking know! Eun-soo, you're so shitty. I fucking hate you so bad I've been planning for stuffs like this." He cut you off and yelled at you. You felt horrible for him, you didn't know but you couldn't defend yourself.

"So in order to satisfy myself, I killed your parents in exchange. Isn't that lovely?" He smiled again at you, but you didn't react. You were tearing up but you don't know why you're not mentally reacting. It was like something is blocking your mind. "Now, we're the same." He said.

You froze, you didn't dare to move. Tears were falling down from your eyes but you were unable to move, neither could you express something. He laughed at your state, he felt satisfied, too satisfied. "Cat got your tongue?" He laughed. "You're too stupid to fall for those messages."

He stood up and left you alone, that's when you dropped your act. You cried your heart out, you were sobbing due to the stress. Did your parents really even do this? Or was he doing this just to scare you? You felt confused, really. You felt dizzy due to overthinking too much, you didn't want to rest but since the room is dark, you closed your eyes. Preparing for another torture.

"Boo!" Seong-je yelled at your face, you flinched because he woke you up. "Hey, wake up. It's night time." He said to you, grabbing your face. Your eyes were red due to crying, he liked that. "Since I'm feeling nice today..why don't I bring you upstairs? You like that?" You didn't answer him, and that disappointed him. He untied your legs and wrists and grabbed your wrist while going upstairs.

While you were both going upstairs, he "accidentally" pushed you. You whined in pain, because your knees hurt so much. "Get up." He looked at your desperate position, he was getting what he wanted. You stayed on the ground for a few seconds and got up. You didn't want to suffer like this.

He dragged you to the living room, and got his phone. Pushed you once again to the couch and grabbed his phone to picture you at your worst. "Fuck, you're really giving in to what I want, huh?" He grabbed your hair, you couldn't react or speak anymore because clearly, he had control. Which you hated the most.

An hour has passed, you were sitting on the couch and he's just texting someone. Suddenly, he stood up. "I'll go somewhere else, don't you dare fucking leave." He remarked at you, grabbing his jacket and locking the door. After he left, you noticed that the light bulb was looking somehow weird. You noticed that it was kind of rotating, then you found out it was a camera in disguise.

"This fucking Seong-je..." You spoke, but you still couldn't shake the thoughts off your head, your parents couldn't be dead, no. They might be somehow alive. Well, you assumed for the best. You didn't want to go insane, right? Not now, Eun-soo. Not now. Hours has passed, Seong-je isn't home. You didn't try to escape because cameras were around you, so you just decided to try and think of plans to get you out of your boredom.

Still, Seong-je isn't home. So you just decided to spectate around his apartment. Well, it's the same as yours because he just lives near you, around 7 apartment rooms near. It was just all entirely designed the same so you didn't except for something big. You were walking until you saw a door that had a strange mark on it's handle. You were about to open it but you were afraid Seong-je is watching you.

You were still curious of it so you did try to but only peeked. It was dark, but it smelt like blood. So you just closed the door and moved away, suddenly you were hearing footsteps near the front door. You were hearing a voice of a girl, wondering who it was. Then, you heard the door open. You decided to hide because you heard Seong-je, but even far away, you could smell the reek of cigarettes and alcohol. Did he go to a bar?

You hid into his laundry room quickl and quiet, you were still peeking through the peephole. The girl looks drunk..as hell. Except for Seong-je, you listened to their conversation.

"Baby, I can't believe that you're so sweet..I love you so much!" The girl hugged him, giving him a kiss on his right cheek. Seong-je looked like he was just pretending to be happy, then he noticed that you were gone. His eyes checked all around and noticed that the laundry room's door was a bit open. He knew you were there, just hiding.

"I love you more.. let's go to my room." You heard him spoke. He had a girlfriend this whole time or he just picked up that girl from a club. You still could hear their conversation because the walls were thin. You knew this because usual apartment walls here are thin. "There, take off my clothes..fuck, you're so damn hot." The girl spoke at him, you could hear his laughs but you didn't hear him say a word. The best thing you could do was cover your ears, so you did.

While covering your ears, you just decided to sleep. You hugged your legs and prayed for whatever's the best that fate would encounter you for, then you fell asleep without even noticing. It was a long day even doing nothing at all.

The house filled with silence except for the girl's voice and moans. Even while asleep, you could hear her voice. But that voice disappeared and was filled with silence. You woke up from a muffled scream, you decided to check it out.

You opened the door and walked silently towards his room, you could hear muffled screams and the girl begging for mercy. You didn't want to check but your mind and body was telling you, so you opened the door at the tiniest bit to see what was happening. Your hands were shaking to the situation right now. Seong-je was stabbing the girl while strangling her. The blood was on the sheets, you didn't dare to move but then, he stopped. And looked at the door.

He saw you peeking and it was obvious, he smirked. "Hey, come out." He directly meant that it was you. Well shit, he knew. "I said come out or I'll drag you here." His words were sharp, so you slowly opened the door. He smiled at his work, once again, he felt proud. "Like this, huh?" He stared at you for a few seconds before laughing. Then, he stabbed her for the one last time. Dislocating her head. "I don't like doing this, maybe you should do it?" He spoke, you felt scared.

You tried to shake your head to signify a no, but he won't take that as an answer. "No? Okay." He stood up and grabbed your wrists, dragging you to the bed infront of the girl. He pushed you right infront of her, you felt his presence behind. His hands guiding yours to the knife so he could help you stab her. "Seong-je, please.. don't." You begged, you tried your best to but he didn't listen.

"My parents begged like that but your parents didn't spare mercy..it would be fair if I gave the same treatment, right? It would be unfair if I did the opposite." He whispered, laughing a bit then his chin resting on your shoulders. "Go on, do it?" His voice was destroying you so clearly. You didn't want to do it. "Do it." Once again, he warned you. So, you just did.

You were still afraid of him, you stabbed the girl for one time and you were tearing up. He heard you sobbing and he told you to stop. Then, he grabbed your face, making you look at him. "Fucking hell, just look at me you bastard. I'm doing this because of you." You were confused about what he said, but you couldn't process it yourself. "You don't get it, don't you? Right." He sighed as he let go of your face. You dropped the knife as your eyes were getting teary.

You did what he said. You went out of the room but not the house. You just went and sat on the couch and you were sobbing quietly there. "What did I do to deserve this.." you whispered to yourself. The whole night, you cried yourself to sleep. You couldn't stop sobbing at all, you felt stressed and everything.

You woke up the next day, the room being weirdly clean. Like clean as hell, it didn't look like yesterday. You noticed that you were laying on something. Oh, hell. Your head was laying on Seong-je's lap. So you sat up quickly. "What...what the hell!" You yelled at him, he just gave you a sigh and laughed at his actions. "Surprised? You were the one that laid on my lap. Conscious about it?" You were confused, you? Seriously? Laying on his lap? Things were escalating too fast. You couldn't understand why.

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based on this request: Hello, please can you make one about Si-eun ending her relationship because she doesn't want you to get hurt, she says hurtful things to you, her friends tell her to tell you the truth because they broke up❤🥺🙏

warnings: none

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si-eun sat across from you at a small table in the corner of the café, his usual calm demeanor replaced with something darker, more distant.

“so, what should we order?” you looked up at si-eun trying to liven up the dull mood. it felt like you were waiting for something bad to happen.

the way his eyes avoided yours made the air between you feel suffocating. you could already feel the tension.

"i think we should break up," he said then said, his voice tight, barely audible above the quiet hum of the café.

the words hit you like a slap, but it wasn’t just the suddenness that stung. It was the way he said them. as if he were stating something inevitable. something that had been decided long before you even walked into this café.

when you opened your mouth to speak, no words came out. instead, you just stared at him, waiting for some kind of explanation, something to help you understand what was happening.

si-eun sighed, running a hand through his dark hair “i can’t have you in my life right now. you’re not good for me”

your heart clenched at the words “what do you mean? where is this coming from?”

"i’m talking about how you care too much, i don’t want you dragging me down- you’re too weak. so, we’re done” his voice was cold and distant as his eyes cut through you like dagger.

the words sliced through you, each one more painful than the last. weak? he thought you were weak? you weren’t weak. you’d stood by him, supported him through everything, and this was how he was going to end it? with a few words that crushed your heart under their weight?

“i don’t need your pity or your excuses si-eun” you whispered, your voice trembling “you don't even care about how much this hurts me, do you?"

he didn’t answer. instead, he stood up and walked away, leaving you with nothing but the empty, bitter feeling of being discarded.

the next few days were a blur of emotions, anger, confusion, heartache. you tried to understand why he’d done this, but no matter how many times you replayed the conversation in your head, the words didn’t make sense. weak? you weren’t weak. and you sure as hell didn’t drag him down.

the more you thought about it, the more his words stung too much, and you couldn’t just ignore them.

then, came the knock on your door.

you were surprised to see that it was his friends. jun-tae, gotak and baku. they were also kind to you and were fully supportive when you were with si-eun. but it was confusing why they were visiting now that you weren’t with him.

youu let them in, trying not to show how much you were hurting. they followed you to the dining room and you got some snacks for them.

“y/n. we need to talk” jun-tae said gently, sitting down across from you.

he pushed his glasses up his nose as the two beside him started digging into the snacks.

"about what?" you asked, your voice still hoarse from the crying.

"i-it’s about si-eun" jun-tae began and he then cleared his throat before nudging baku.

“oh right.” baku quickly swallowed the food in his mouth and then spoke loudly “you see. the cutie, he didn’t want to break up with you. he didn’t want this to happen”

your breath caught in your throat as soon as he said those words “then why did he say all those things?”

baku let out a sigh and gotak then spoke up.

“because he’s an idiot. he thought if he pushed you away, that you’d be safe from the chaos that come with being close to him” gotak had a soft expression.

"yeah, he doesn’t want you to get hurt. he thinks that by pushing you out of his life, he’s protecting you from the dangerous people after him” jun-tae now added “he thinks you’re better off without him”

your heart skipped a beat. you’d always known si-eun was carrying a heavy load, but to hear his friends confirm it. it didn’t make the pain any easier to bear. but it made sense now, in a way.

“is… is he okay?” you asked, suddenly worried “he just-he looked so distant, so cold when he said it. i thought that i meant nothing to him”

baku shook his head, his eyes softening with sympathy.

“si-eun doesn’t know how to express what he feels, especially when it comes to you. he cares about you more than anyone else, but he's terrified of putting you in harm’s way. you’re the only thing that’s kept him from going completely off the deep end. but he doesn’t know how to protect you without pushing you away” baku explained.

your mind was busy, you didn’t know what to do with all this new information. you couldn’t just forget what had happened. the hurt was too fresh, too raw. but at the same time, you couldn’t deny how much si-eun meant to you.

you knew that whatever world he was caught up in, it wasn’t one he could escape easily. but you also knew that running away wasn’t the solution.

you had to try.

his friends gave you his location so you found him. alone in his usual spot by the old bridge, his head down, shoulders hunched as if he were trying to become invisible.

"si-eun” you called, your voice shaking.

he froze, his entire body going tense. slowly, he turned to face you, eyes wide, guilt written all over his face. he opened his mouth to speak, but you stopped him before he could say anything.

“stop. si-eun, you were right about one thing. that i care too much” you said, taking a step closer “but you were wrong about everything else. i’m not weak. i can handle whatever this is. i just need you to be honest with me. i just need you believe and trust me. you’re all i care about and i want to share your burdens so that you’re not alone. i know you think i can’t handle it but, i can. as long as you’re by my side. i love you si-eun. i always have and always will”

his eyes softened, and for the first time since that painful break-up, you had your si-eun back.

“im so sorry, y/n you don’t understand” he whispered “i never wanted to hurt you.”

“i know” you said quietly, stepping up to him “i know. but, we’re in this together. don’t shut me out. i’m not leaving you. not now, not ever.”

si-eun’s eyes glistened, and he pulled you into a tight embrace. for a moment, neither of you said anything. there was nothing more to be said. just the feeling of being close again, of mending the rift that had almost torn you apart forever.

“i love you y/n. so much” his arms didn’t let go of you and in that quiet moment, everything felt right again.