All i can think of is the plight,

The plight of my heart,

The heart that pleads to the moon,the stars,the luminous night sky as i gaze at it through my twinkling wide hazel brown eyes ;

This feeling of stillness, in that very moment leaves me numb, numb to think of anything else,numb to speak anything out of my dry lips ;

Fraction of seconds,and the feeling of stillness is gone, lost in my own musings ;

I feel a sense of acknowledgement, of how beautiful this world is when its quiet , of how pure is it when you have no one else besides you,

But you and this universe,

The universe that brings you into this very life,that makes me think of how beautiful life can be, of how magical nature is, of how simple yet complicated our lives are, of how every little thing adds to beauty in this life,

This circle of life and death, one day you're here and the other day you're gone, one day you are smiling,the other day you're crying ;

And Life goes on, with or without you, it's just the memories,the people you've met,the life that you've really lived far from the societal pressures is what living is for right ?

Certainly these thoughts are running wild in my brain, until i realise it's getting cold, and return back to my room, and close those earlier wide hazel brown eyes, and drown myself back to a state of dreaming.

Like people gathering around that Huge peepal tree in summers, the gentle winds making your hair flutter, the fields turning golden yellow from lush green in the spring season, the blooming of flowers in rosy red , glowing pink. The kids of the village running through those fields and the pleasant warm breeze piercing through your skin and you hear the screaming of those kids full of crazy laughter because they are about to reach the village pond and are about to sink their bodies in the cold water, in the scorching heat of summers. You are distracted by the soft chirping of the birds perching on that very huge peepal tree and so on...

But The common thing in all these imaginary situations is you find bliss, that sense of calmness, you don't have any access to technology, you don't live in this fast pace world of today's, and most important one amongst all is that "You're LIVING", breathing in that very moment, there is no hurry to capture a moment for your backup of nostalgia to hit you the other day in the future, you are busy collecting memories in this world today rather than living in the moment and creating a world of memories. I find myself trapped amongst all this and i am left with just one question in the end for myself and everyone that ;

ARE WE REALLY LIVING ?

Are we really making the best out of the life we are granted with ? Are we really making every day count in this chapter of our life ? Are we really happy and calm ? The answer to which is quite certain for all of us but yet again, Are we gonna work for it ? Are we really gonna LIVE ?

This mind always tend to travel back in time ; the times when things were good, you had good friends maybe, you had people who would make you smile internally and today i feel everything seems like a mirage to me, these human relations,friends and idk if there is really a pause button for what i am wondering but i hope one day it will.

Sometimes when it gets too heavy inside you,

Sometimes when you don't know what is this sudden sadness all about,

sometimes the fear of something haunts you and gives a bad omen ; regardless of the fact that everything is fine in your life,

and that sometimes when turns into often times,

is when you search for an escape, an escape to make you feel better;

an escape from this melancholy of yours,

an escape to your world of imagination, that world where you feel happy even tho for a fraction of seconds, which is not anywhere near to reality but you feel it.

For me that escape, have been in reading,writing,music and ofcourse Nature.

And idk if today i am writing this as an escape or to talk about this creeping feeling we all go through.

But Never for me this escape was a person, and i feel it should never be too ; it should always be one who will stay forever and for me that is the way i write down my feelings, the way music makes me feel all those feelings and the way nature has its own way to tell me it's all Life,and i guess it will forever be my ESCAPE .

22nd,January 2022 (shrutiwrites)