New York Blackbeard Diary

Day 30

Before I start. I just want to thank everyone who has taken the time to read my New York Blackbeard diary entries. I had no intention of expecting reaction towards this. It's definitely an honor to get a feedback and acknowledgement from friends, family, and people to read my diary entries. All love. I'll be writing til I'm finally out of the shelter. So stay tuned for more gems baby lol. On to my day........

Woke up early but that's probably because I slept early. After breakfast, I got ready and just took books instead of gym clothes. When I have mail, I skip gym. It sucks getting mail in the shelter. You get the mail but not on the day when you actually got the mail. You have to wait 4 days and there's a paper on a bulletin of a list of names and the date and number next to your name of a mail that belongs to you. Got my mail and it was 2 letters informing me that my insurance didn't fully covered the doctor's visits. In total of 3 letters which tells me that I have an issue with my insurance which sucks cause these insurance company want you to join and my only purpose of getting insurance was for my Multiple Sclerosis but it seems like anything free is not really free. So I have a chance to appeal the bullshit but I perfer to set up a in person appointment to understand why they can't fully cover the bill. It's already bad enough I have pay for this Social Security overpayment just cause and pay this one shot deal before or I have to go to court. Hell, I still haven't had a chance to even to start paying my 2017 Spring tution at City College and I have to pay for it so I can get my associate's degree that I earn from Kingsborough Community College because they won't give me my associate's degree until I pay City College. CUNY working together I see and I DON'T EVEN OWE KINGSBOROUGH COMMUNITY COLLEGE ANY MONEY. So why hold something that I earn and I actually paid at some point. Kind of makes me feel like I went to college for nothing at all. So now with the insurance doing this, my debt will be more of a problem. City College tutuion is about $1,800, One Shot Deal is about $2,000, and Social Security $40,000. With this insurance situation, it's probably gonna add up and I have no choice either cause I have Multiple Sclerosis and I need treatment. It seems like life is hitting me like crazy and I have no choice but to make an effort alone or nothing happens. At some point I feel like I'm going to die not by committing suicide cause that's wack, selfish, and I know better but actually die from karoshi (a overwork death in Japan) because I'm always on the move from morning to night everyday and I have to do things or nothing happens at all. Before I left the shelter, I got into conversations with my good people and watch the latest One Piece episode. I'm still binge watching One Piece episodes trying to catch up to the Dressrosa Arc before this year ends. I headed to Target to chill and kill time til work started. Started work which was cool and smooth and went back to the shelter, sign for my bed and ended my day by laying down in thinking mode.

Unfortunately, I can't fool anyone with my smile and positivity covering my real pain and life..........

Jikai.......A New Day To Stop Or Continue

New York Blackbeard Diary

Day 28.........Woke up late and miss breakfast but that didn't really bother me today. Got my clothes bag ready and headed straight to the laundromat. While washing my clothes, I went to McDonald's and had the 2 for 4 deal with Ice Coffee and I gotta say, the ice coffee was not trash this time. After finish washing my clothes, went back to the shelter and really got ready and headed to Queens to meet...... her. As you know by now, I don't expose government names like that. So her name is hmmmmmm.......CornyBanks lol (don't worry there's no malice towards her. It's all love no war and I got smart mouth according to her). Got to the Jamaician Center waited for her and......she came. We chilled from like 1 or 2 something to 6. The talk was back to back and no silence. Just straight. We had personal, honest, fitness, funny, and just good talks. I can't lie when I say this but I wanna know and see her more and I'm willing to invest my time for her due to one thing......she didn't lead me on and imma be straight if shit doesn't work out and stay friends, I'm okay with that 100% because she was straight up with me and wasn't back and forth with me. Shit is real and this time I'm serious when I say this but as of today in regards to my past love life and just love.......THE PAST IS LITERALLY THE PAST......

The MAD King found a potential future Queen?

Jikai.......Fall On The MAD King. New Season. New Energy

New York Blackbeard Diary

Day 27.......Woke up and ate breakfast. I notice that the cafeteria had less people. A lot of people got transfered last night. Apparently as the season changes, the shelter gets really crowded. So right now, I'm in a calm before the storm situation. I headed to work and things changed as I work straight from morning to evening. After work, shape my beard, thread the eyebrows, shop for clothes then I went back to the shelter prepare myself for tomorrow and reschedule my plans for today to different days.

Oh yeah I'm hitting Queens tomorrow.....

Jikai.......The King is Queens bound dun